getting through the night
Posted June 6th, 2010 by cherrycolalola
Hi guys. I hope you are all doing okay and are fighting the good fight today! As for me, Im stressed about not picking right now. Its hardest for me at night, it always has been. I do the most damage at night, its a danger zone for me. So....lately I've been drinking too much coffee (really any coffee is too much given my anxiety and picking), but in any case its been waking me up in the middle of the night and I've been picking. It starts out small and Im usually only half awake/ half aware of what Im doing at first. Then, once I wake up more, I've been unable to stop. Im just nervous about doing it tonight. I really dont want to. The thing that scares me is I often feel like I've had a good day, and Im "sure I wont pick", and then that very same night Im at it for a few hours (a pattern I haven't fallen into in a while). Its like theres no guarantee I wont do it, no matter how solid I feel, which sucks and is contributing to the fear. Anyway, I just thought it would be wise to voice my anxiety on here. I think maybe just saying it might help dissolve some of the negative feelings Im having. Im also hoping that someone might have some advice or can relate. How do you all get through the roughest times of the day? In any case its great to vent. I love you all and Im very grateful for the space to share tonight.