I'm kicking the habit!
Posted May 25th, 2008 by liberty13
Hi. I'm a 30 year-old woman who has officially reached her limit! I'm done with it! OVER! This ugly little habit isn't going to bring me down anymore. I'm not mentally ill. I'm a beautiful person. I have an amazing husband, a successful career, and two little angel children. My life needs me back. I haven't felt myself since 13-years-old. Man! If this is how great I turned-out with scabs and pox-marks all over my body, just imagine who I could be without them. I know we all say that we "just can't control it", but we can! I've done it for months before, so I know it's not impossible. If smokers can kick their habit, I can kick this. How am I going to do it? Well, I've already had some success and here's my plan: For starters, I'm going to treat it like a full-blown serious addiction--a "sickness" as alcoholics say. I won't down-play it (just because others might), and I will be aware of it. To do this I've been keeping a journal. When my fingers get fidgety or I have some down-time, I write. I've already filled-up 10 pages and its therapeutic. Also, I'm rewarding myself like crazy. I give myself little rewards for hours, days, weeks, months, years, etc. I am my own best friend and am going to dangle carrots in front of myself. Why not? I'm worth it! Some of these carrots include: food (oh no I'll create a new monster), candle-light bath, fingernail polish, a new shirt, a new lotion or cosmetic, time to myself, a movie, reading time, cuddling with the kids/husband, a massage, dermabrasion (long term), a walk around the block, a hike, a day-off, a vacation, etc. I'm investing in myself. Other ideas; I've been to therapy and it was a great stepping-stone. As other forum writers mentioned, it helps to control anxiety, etc. I'm using visualization to picture my new clear-skin self. I pray for strength. I shower morning and night to reduce oily or itchy skin. I avoid mirrors, I am going to learn crochet--to keep my hands busy. I'm keeping my nails impossibly short. I'm going to be on this forum as much as possible. I'm reading up on the addiction to be educated and aware. I will be open an unashamed to friends and family. I'm not giving up. I am unstoppable. If anyone else wants to join my crusade, I welcome the company!