19, Frustrated and Sad.
Posted March 28th, 2011 by ri4821
I'm in college, and everything about me right now feels so messed up. I have really low self-esteem and am struggling to see myself as beautiful- not only physically, but for who I am as a person too. I started picking at my nose in middle school, because I wanted to get rid of blackheads. Then i gradually started scrutinizing the rest of my face, and began picking there. Now, at 19, I pick at my face, neck, chest, shoulders, and back. I am disgusted with myself and am so tired of making things worse. I want to clear pimples and blackheads and whiteheads and basically any blemish I see, no matter how minuscule they are. The longest I went was 4 days without picking. I know I can't pick at ANYTHING, not even one spot, because I'll just let myself go crazy with the rest of my skin. I don't know how to stop and still feel beautiful. My picking is often onset by stress but it's also somewhat of a habit. I tell myself to stop but keep doing it; my brain can't seem to control my hands. Help please. I'm on day 2 of not picking, but I am struggling. I am so sad, and I want to quit.