Commitment!

Posted January 19th, 2012 by toomuchpressure
I keep reading about everyone who is making these commitments and you know, I really want to make one too! I feel like maybe if I post daily about how i'm doing, it will keep me motivated to keep doing better! I will start right now, but officially begin day 1 tomorrow of my week long commitment. If I can get through a week...I can get through longer! As of today, I have done alright...Only picked a few minor spots. I am home alone tonight making it harder, but I am going to do it! I have to promise to myself that there will be no more tonight! Wish me luck!! :)
‹ 80 days' commitment im 20 and ive been eating my finger skin all my life. ›
On February 22nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 8. Happy day! yesterday was finished very well! I am feeling antsy picky again but I'm trying my best to fight it. Went to the store this morning with no makeup. Going to try all day! For a little bit before I wrote this I fought writing it...because I had other things to do. This is important. It will give me commitment and an obligation to myself and ultimately all you guys! Here's to a healthy pick free day! :)
On February 22nd, 2012 Basta said:
I'm happy you are on the right way! This (wearing no makeup) helpes me so much to not to give into picking.
On February 22nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
More on day 7...just went to the gym and ate pretty well today. could have been better. Im ready to change my life. Its going to be hard but very worthwhile. I had no makeup on at the gym and i had a great work out. afterwords this guy, not attractive but hey, came up to me and was like oh hi blah blah do you have a boyfriend. I said yes...i do not actually, but it made me feel good that even though my skin was unclear and bare, someone was interested. This is good for all of us! It's in our heads guys! We can beat this. Also, my "fortune" on my tea said that a person will become happy when they overcome a challenge successfully! HOORAY! And, the night is young which means...watch glee/new girl...shower...GO TO BED! There is no picking...i can do it!
On February 21st, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 7. Last night actually went pretty well! I had a couple infractions if you must call it that. Im happy. and I'm totally going sans makeup today, even though my skin is not the best. it feels good to go without....im still really paranoid about the way i look but i have to get it through my head that people really don't care! its me that creates the biggest problem about it in my head. I can beat this! happy hands today! :)
On February 21st, 2012 valentine said:
Great thoughts to share! Back when I went to an OCD clinic, the first thing I was told was that my perfectionism--especially about my appearence, and along with the distorted sense that people were always scrutinizing my face--was a big part of my picking cycle and my first "homework" was to leave the house without makeup. It's a big challenge for me but I've found that when I'm out of town, visiting my boyfriend, I can do it easily. It's just that here at home my paranoid sense that I might "run into someone" I know makes it seem like leaving the house without clothes--though I wear so little it's hard to tell I have it on! Anyway: I continue to be inspired by your choices and hope you have a great, pressure-free day!
On February 20th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 6...well last night did not go well. I have been doing better overall though...I am staying away from mirrors. Here i go!! :)
On February 19th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 5! I'm ready for a pick free day! I got in a little trouble with my mom so I'm having this struggle now. I don't want my emotions on the subject make me feel like I have to pick it out. I just want to relax today and make amends with my mom rather than on my skin! I can do it!
On February 19th, 2012 vet_to_be said:
you can do it! I have decided to do a similar thing, writing everyday about how I'm doing! I know anxiety really affects picking, but if you can break the cycle I'm sure it will get easier. good luck. xx
On February 18th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 4 yesterday went well! I was still antsy with my hands but I was with a good friend who was in town so it kept my mind off it! now today I picked a little but not a lot...i have work tonight and I'm hoping to keep my hands clear of my face afterwords!!!
On February 17th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 3! So yesterdaay was not perfect but it did not do a lot of damage. AND i consciously stopped myself after a little woot! So today is going pretty well! Im excited because my skin is actually clearing up and looking better! Hooray! hooray Hooray!
On February 17th, 2012 Basta said:
Congrats!!! :)
On February 15th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day Two! I'm gonna make it count like yesterday! obviously I am still getting very antsy with my hands but I am trying so hard to keep them away from my face! I have a busy day and really no time for any dilly dallying picking so I am going to just work hard! Just read small steps post and it really inspired me! Here's to a new day! Let's all seize it!
On February 14th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
DAY ONE! Pick free...I will do this! I still have rehearsal tonight and a little time to spare. I think I might take a nap and I will definitely make sure my mirror is away from me!! It's time to get things done so I mustn't waste time picking!
On February 15th, 2012 valentine said:
Hope your rehearsal goes well and that the night ends on a good note!! Also just posting to say that at 7pm my time, the next few hours are my danger zone, so I'm checking in beforehand to make myself a little more mindful of the challenge—and so I don't space out and just "find myself" picking before I know what's happened. Here's to changing into pajamas after applying my healing lotions & potions (on my bikini line and face) and keeping hands off through bedtime!
On February 15th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
You can do it! Nighttime is ALWAYS my worst enemy too! that is when pretty much all of my picking goes on..that time before bed is the worst! but lets make it the best! watch a favorite video online...paint your nails...read a book! and most importantly, stay away from the mirrors and keep your hands busy! I believe in you!
On February 14th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
ALRIGHT! it was a long weekend. I was out of town. i did horribly...BUT! I am starting over. DAY ONE! all over again. I can do this...I can beat this. Here we go... DAY one begins on Valentine's day!
On February 14th, 2012 Basta said:
Good luck! I will just quote here with one of my favourites: "Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat." – F. Scott Fitzgerald
On February 14th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Thank you Basta! I love that quote...I might print it out and put it like all over my room!
On February 14th, 2012 valentine said:
Just wanted to say hi and add a word of encouragement. I just joined the forum and my first post (late last night) noted that Valentine's day will be my Day One too. I'm also going to try and post as I go so I look forward to reading your posts too. And hey, what better way to show love (for ourselves) on this holiday than to start a new offense against this crummy habit/disorder!
On February 14th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Valentine that is awesome! We can do this! and i will absolutely read your posts and encourage you! We can do it!!
On February 8th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 21 yesterday went alright. i still have that whole back scratching anxiety crap. Gotta stop doing that!
On February 7th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 19/20 These days actually went pretty well. I took Basta's advice and moved the mirror out of my bedroom! Hooray. You know, my skin is breaking out a lot from natural reasons, but even so, when I don't pick it looks fine! I need to learn to accept my natural beauty! It's hard for me to leave the house without makeup because i am such a perfectionist and i can't handle the thought of people seeing me without makeup, but today i took a giant leap and left the house without anything on my face! hooray...I feel like I'm making some kind of progress...every little step counts i think. Life is such a mess right now and when my face is clear it just makes things so much easier! here's to a new day! :D
On February 5th, 2012 Basta said:
Hey! I can see you are struggling! Where do you usualy do it and what kind of a mirror do you use?
On February 6th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Oh am I! I covered up my bathroom mirrors and I have a long mirror in my bedroom...the lighting isn't as good as in the bathroom but i still do it there. Its always at night...when I'm by myself or supposed to be doing other things.
On February 6th, 2012 Basta said:
Maybe you could take the mirror in the bedroom away? It would probably help!!!
On February 7th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
You know what? You are so right! I was using it to do my makeup but I always end up using it for more. I will simply go downstairs when I need to do my makeup!!
On February 5th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 18! yesterday went pretty well! i scanned my face little bit but luckily only scratched at like 2 pimples! So happy. Heres to another good day!
On February 4th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 17: even though i had a setback in the morning...i did well the rest of the day. I noticed that right before bed i tend to scan my face...need to fight this more! Had a really great chat with a friend yesterday about motivation...i feel more motivated now...duh! Im doing a show and i want to be able to not wear makeup to rehearsals and when i do wear makeup for the show, i want clear skin thats easily applicable. I can do this!
On February 3rd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 16 yesterday was not that good...and i already started the day off bad....ugh. Anyways...new, fresh start! We can do this!!
On February 3rd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 15...Well it was not pick free, but that's okay. I need to learn to not punish myself even more.
On February 3rd, 2012 dellablue22 said:
So on Monday I said I was going to go all week without picking...yeah Monday was as far as I got, I've blown it the rest of the week. I think I will try again tomorrow for another pick-free day though! ..It really is always so much more difficult than I think it will be not to. Anyway, good luck to you! It's impressive that you're posting every day so far.
On February 3rd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Thank you! Good luck to you as well... I know...it's so difficult to stay on track it's like i go one day without picking and i feel so good and then i totally ruin it. Here's to making it through more than one day!
On February 2nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 14! yesterday was not exactly perfect but ill take it. Today i will be pick free!
On January 31st, 2012 islandlife4u said:
Good luck and am behind you, I am going to make today my day to stay away from the mirror and tweezers and only use a tube of neosporin. GOOD LUCK AND WE CAN DO IT!!
On January 31st, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 13. Yesterday failed. once again. I find it so hard and it takes so much energy and concentration to beat this. It tires me but I need to do it. Wish me luck. Heres to a new day and a new start.
On January 30th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 12 yesterday was somewhat of a fail. I didn't have a full blown session, but it was still significant. Hopes are up! I'm thinking sometimes I pick when i have a rush of emotion in my body/soul. I am still trying to somewhat track similar feelings when I pick so I can pinpoint possibly the reason and stop.
On January 29th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 11: Yesterday was not perfect...but I didn't have a session which is good...im feeling very antsy today...hoping to suppress the sensation!
On January 28th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 10! Success once again yesterday...looking positive today!
On January 27th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 8/9 these days were rough and I deff had a setback but I have the note in hand now and i'm going to try even harder!
On January 25th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 7...Hooray! even though I had a setback the day before, yesterday went well!! Im hoping for another day of NO PICKING! It's hard to sit back and let things run there course...but I have to! The compulsions are hard to manage and I still touch my face, but I'm trying so super hard not to pop anything! I read about this...my mom wrote me a little note about her concern. I have promised myself that I can pick, but I have to read the note first. Hope it helps :)
On January 24th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 6.... :( Yesterday was honestly going so great until like literally the time right before i was going to bed. I avoided my bigger mirror but managed to find a smaller mirror...which I threw out after the session. Despite my major setback...I'm still being positive about today. It's hard to go places and imagine what people are thinking about me...but I just have to avoid that and remember that no matter what i'm beautiful.
On January 23rd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 5! Yesterday I did not pick one single thing and it felt amazing!! many times I almost slipped and I said to myself, oh just one, but i did not pick ANY and its great! I am looking forward to a positive Monday of NO PICKING whatsoever! :)
On January 23rd, 2012 Basta said:
Congratulations! The longer you don't pick the easier it becomes to stop the impulse.
On January 22nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 4.. Well yesterday took a turn for the worst at the last possible second. The day went super well until about 20 minutes before bed. Thankfully it wasn't that long of a session, but it was still as session nonetheless. Hope for today! :)
On January 21st, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 3...yesterday was better than I thought it would be! It was hard to keep my hands away from my face but overall I would say I succeeded! I'm ready to take on today strong and with a positive attitude! Here we go! :)
On January 20th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 2...yesterday was rough but i'm still keeping my head up! It's so hard for me to let pimples or blemishes go untouched and run their natural course! I'm sure we all share this problem. Off to another day! and, i'm going to try to actually make this one count!
On January 19th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Day 1! Just woke up and i'm feeling positive about this! I'm hoping to stay busy all day long and to keep my hands away from my face and chest as much as possible. It's such a muscle memory thing...hard to shake. I can do this!
On January 19th, 2012 lisa2324 said:
Lots of luck coming your way!
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