Commitment!

Posted January 19th, 2012 by toomuchpressure
I keep reading about everyone who is making these commitments and you know, I really want to make one too! I feel like maybe if I post daily about how i'm doing, it will keep me motivated to keep doing better! I will start right now, but officially begin day 1 tomorrow of my week long commitment. If I can get through a week...I can get through longer! As of today, I have done alright...Only picked a few minor spots. I am home alone tonight making it harder, but I am going to do it! I have to promise to myself that there will be no more tonight! Wish me luck!! :)
‹ my girlfriend is obsessed with picking my skin! help! Day 11 no pick ›
On April 14th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 43 (yesterday) didn't pick! did therapy and then i took a bath when i got home to calm my nerves...i think it works! :)
On April 13th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 42...did better today...want skin to be better!
On April 14th, 2012 heidii said:
you can do it :) hope i can learn from your commitment.
On April 12th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 41....DANG IT!
On April 12th, 2012 CouldBPretty said:
hang in there! I'm new here and i want to hold myself accountable too!!! so far today would be my day 1 i guess and i have not picked!!! it's early still but i really hope i can keep this up. my make up is looking good today so i want it to stay that way! i saw you are going to go to penn state and major in education- i took an official visit there when i was college hunting and i also wanted to be an education major- but i went to the university of virginia instead- and ended up being rejected from the education program- BOO!!! but best of luck to you! thats a HUGE school!!! i'm sure it will be a lot of fun too! :-D
On April 13th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
Thank you for your support! I am hoping that when i go to college i can be stronger about this!
On April 10th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 40...scratched in the car but did well after :)
On April 9th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 39...consciously stopped myself tonight...thats good!
On April 9th, 2012 readyToStop said:
You're doing such a great job so far! I admire your determination. It seems that every time I make a commitment, I break it within a few days. I hope you won't mind if I join in with my progress within this comment stream. It really helps to post progress - it's more motivating. :)
On April 8th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
it's one of those nights where i am crying myself to sleep. I want to fight this so bad. It hurts me physically, emotionally, and spiritually. i am sure many of us have come to that point where we are naked...literally and mentally and emotionally in front of the mirror and we see this ugly creature. when actually it isn't that bad. I have learned to forgive myself but i must not dismiss the behavior as "okay" to do. Where can you draw the line? It's comforting when friends call me pretty and i don't ask...obviously i am caked in makeup but it still boosts my confidence. can't wait until my next therapy session. Obviously this is something so deep...i am officially going to a good college and i believe it is God's path for me but there is some issue or issues that lie beneath and they are eating away at me...I need to stop this. Everyday I fear marriage and finding a loved one who will accept me for who I am...picking and all. Hmm maybe i will have combatted it by then! who knows. Wish me luck. I love you all and thank you for being so supportive!
On April 8th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 38...it is so hard for me to focus and NOT pick...im so tired lately that i just don't have the energy to stop and it takes a lot!
On April 7th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
37 cont...i picked even more.. love my show but i really need some time off so i can settle in and focus on myself!
On April 6th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 37...i picked ugh!
On April 6th, 2012 noskin said:
My English is not very good and I am new here. Me too, I need a commitment. I am gonna battle with you. I can imagine what you are going through. My day one is today! I picked a lot today. My aim is to pick only on one day a week (monday). And I'm gonna write a post every day. I'll keep my fingers crossed for us!
On April 6th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
thats wonderful! Just know to not be so tough on yourself if you slip! we all do! I will keep you in my prayers:)
On April 5th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 37...staying strong!
On April 5th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 36 did well today...a couple little scratches but nothing bad!
On April 4th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 35...deff just picked...staying strong! :)
On April 3rd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 34 cont...totally picked... ineed to learn to let the ones i already picked heal!!
On April 2nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 34...trying not to pick...scratched some off my back...but no where else!
On April 2nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 33...needless to say i picked here's to positive thinking!
On April 2nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 32 was horrible! i picked my breasts, back, face, and chest...i knew it was coming! right when i sat down it happened so fast! Ugh. day 33 went well though! :)
On March 30th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 31.... staying strong...i have this new log that i have to fill out when i pick...its making me not want to pick! hooray!
On March 29th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 30...staying strong...first therapy session in about 30 minutes! :)
On March 29th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 29...ugh i picked! in some way I'm punishing myself for being a bad christian...ugh ugh. tmrw is a new day.
On March 28th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 28 This has been such a wonderful place for me to pretty much journal my feelings so thank you all for being so lovely towards me and my journey. I had a day off and i was doing pretty well until i just sat down and had a small session...nothing too bad but my mom freaked out! oops...heres to a better tmrw :)
On March 27th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 27 No pick monday! woot!
On March 26th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 40! Did not pick! hooray!
On March 25th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
okay seriously! i was just about to get in the shower and i picked! ugh curses!!
On March 25th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 39...just did my first show of hairspray tonight!it went well...i got fast food but i did not pick! woot :)
On March 24th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 38...ugh i picked...not a whole lot but i still did it! Tmrw is a new day :)
On March 23rd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 37...going to bed without picking! HOORay
On March 22nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
okay! i caved... a little. NOT a whole lot...I am proud because i consciously stopped myself....My first therapy session is next week...im really excited! Ps...i need to stop eating like crap! NO more taco bell at midnight...ugh...hehe i CAN do this! :)
On March 22nd, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 36... staying strong...taking shower then bed!! no pick for me!!!!
On March 20th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 35...relapse last night. UGH they seriously suck so bad and i eat so much and then i get all sad! like i don't get it...i was happy i was texting someone i liked...i had a really nice conversation with someone at rehearsal..i diddnt even talk to my dad! ugh well here we go...pick myself back up. ITS A NEW DAY! :) I will seize it!
On March 21st, 2012 sunny55 said:
Good for you. Keep going. Tomorrow is another day!
On March 19th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 34...trying to stay strong! i have to call my dad today so hopefully i won't get too emotional about it and pick! Wish me luck!!! :D
On March 19th, 2012 sunny55 said:
Wow, thank God for you and others in this forum. Tomorrow will be my day one, and I hope to be as persistent and determined as you! Don't give up because you are my inspiration now!
On March 19th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 33...ugh my skin needs to clear up! I'm trying my best...i just lost a little self control lately...trying to do better :)
On March 18th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 32 did better today...gonna keep trying :)
On March 17th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
continued...ugh just had a relapse...not horrible but still there and working...ugh. its okay...breathe in breathe out. new day tomorrow Why now did I feel this urge. obviously i want whatever is in, out...but it goes so much deeper. ugh.
On March 16th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 31! I picked a couple little whiteheads last night but its okay! i stopped! i got my upper lip threaded and i started breaking out! ugh stupid hair that looks ugly but keeps dirt away! haha I'm doing good...tired as heck but trying hard! diet and exercise have not exactly come back into play but i am doing a show so I'm moving every day and working my body in that way!
On March 15th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 30! holy moly again! well today is good! i did not pick and WILL not. I just got my moms approval to go visit penn state and i am super excited...i will not pick my emotions or eat them however :D i can do this! we all can!
On March 15th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 29. HOLY cow its been a month. wow. well i think i have made a lot of progress :) even though i had a session the other night I'm okay! it wasn't THAT bad! now...i need to get back on track with my diet and exercise...i feel like crap! God is amazing...i think i have decided where i want to go to college, again. I'm glad i took this year off but now I am antsy pantsy about going to visit etc. i was strong today! no picking! i even didn't scratch but i did eat a lot...lol. trying to control all of my urges today...its so hard...i can do it! its my little brother's eighth birthday today...i love him so dearly...i only want the best for him.
On March 14th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 28...man! i had a relapse! I don't know what came over me. i think ia am just tired and frustrated...and confused. Lots on my plate. Its hard to have self control...the bible says that a like a city who's walls are broken is a man who lacks self control...words to live by. Im trying. can't wait to start therapy. wish me luck in my "days after" I can do this. I know it :)
On March 13th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
So i went to rehearsal and i did well! i scratched a couple off BUT the important thing is...i came home and i told myself before i do laundry that i will NOT pick and success!!! hooray!
On March 12th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 27 i slept like all day oops. I had my first free consultation with annette and she was fantastic!! I am hoping to be able to continue on with her! I did a little back picking last night and like two on my face! so I'm happy! i did pick my chest but its not noticeable and i will try my hardest to let it be! hooray!
On March 11th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
just kind of random but you guys, i hope to one day help you and us and me in this dilemma. i went to the doctors about a year ago to seek medical attn for this disaster that we face and you know what he told me? oh i about flipped my lid, busted a cap, cussed him out. He goes, you are a beautiful girl ( me of course with a crap ton of makeup on) don't destroy yourself like that. JUST STOP. literally how many times have all of us heard, just stop. its like the worst phrase for us. anyways, its my dream to get this disease if you will out into the open and so it is easier for people like you and me to get treatment! :) yay a
On March 15th, 2012 Basta said:
What a doctor! I still can't understand how doctors ignore the psychologic aspects of many of the conditions they are presented to... I REALLY don't understand it.
On March 11th, 2012 toomuchpressure said:
day 26 so my grandma said my skin looked good today! hooray for progress. I deff caught myself though...since i have limited my access to mirrors and i haven't had a session in a while, I'm having withdrawals like legitimately. it is so hard. i went to ross and i tried some close on and also looked toooooo close in the mirror. popped a couple of pimples but i stopped. i consciously made the decision to stop which is so important. Im beginning to realize that! Anyways, while my musical theatre college search may seem to not be going well, i DID get accepted to penn state as an education major woot! so happy days! my life does have a track after all!
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