Posted March 20th, 2012 by Allie4u262
So I just got done picking at my face for an hour... Seriously, its like a never ending cycle. I literally sit at the mirror, and its like my mind and body are completely separated. In my head I'm asking myself "Why are you doing this" and "Okay that's enough" but my hands just keep on picking. I'll think about other stuff while I'm picking too, mostly stuff that I need to get done and other things that happened that day. I couldn't even bring myself to go downstairs to eat dinner with my family. They kept yelling my name, and I just told them I felt sick, when really I was up in my bed crying. i don't even want to think about going to school tomorrow. ugghhhhhhhh. Picking isn't my only problem... acne currently occupies my face and has been for quite some time. Picking only emphasizes the problem. I want to tell myself that its going to be okay, but this has happened so many times, the words have lost meaning, and instead i'm asking myself whether it'll ever get better. I have no idea how I'm going to get through tomorrow..or the next day...or the next month for that matter. I know that having clear skin wouldn't solve all of my problems (even though it certainly seems that way) but my other problems would be tremendously easier to handle if this didn't take up so much of my life.