Do I have Dermatillomania?
Posted September 8th, 2012 by StopSarahStop
So I was sitting in my bed just now and realized that after about 10-15 years of picking at mostly my arms, I might have a problem. I remembered something about people obsessively pulling their hair and started by looking that up. I don't pull my hair too much, its mostly picking at my skin. I dont remember when I started picking my skin exactly, I know it was at least ten years ago. I became depressed at around age 11 so I assume it was around then or shortly after, (I'm 24 now) I read that people usually start after some stressful event in thier lives. I dont remember why I started picking at my skin, but basically what I do is squeeze the pores on my arms, especially ones that are sort of a pimple and I squeeze them till they bleed usually. I decided to look into this stuff because I've realized that I've tried to stop myself doing it before and I did it so much without thinking that I gave up trying to stop. Now I'm kind of upset because I just realized how much damage I've caused my skin. The pores on my arms are all scarred so my arms are bumpy instead of the skin being smooth. I look at other peoples arms and I am so jealous and embarrassed. And now I wonder if I should tell my boyfriend, or if he's noticed even. I'm scared to tell him because I dont want him to think I'm making it up or that I'm a hypochondriac. I've been sick a lot or hospitalized and had lots of surgeries and people have told me before that I'm a hypochondriac. Its very upsetting and I'm just upset about this whole thing in general and I dont want my arms to get any worse. What if i start picking at my face worse than I already do? Help? :(