Hi, I'm Rachel. I have this thing where I pick and rub at my head, then I will eat my scalp. Its disgusting and disturbing. I've been doing it since I was like 6, I think. Now I'm 12 and I'm STILL doing that!!! Its like I try and try, but no matter what I do, I can't stop. I really need some advice, But I do NOT want to go to a counsiler. It's embarrassing and humiliating. I have really good parents. I've been raised well. But I did read about why people usually do it, and As it says, I have had some emotional-traumatic experiences. I still remember everything. And it makes things even worse because I have red hair and I heard that red-heads have sensitive skin. So now, I have some acne. But, I already am getting some treatment for that. I don't pick at my acne, just my scalp. And I eat it!!! Thats worse than picking at it, alone. I am so ashamed at myself. My friends have already questioned me, and so have family members. I don't think I'm insane or have any mental disorders... Well, apart from ADD and ADHD... I think I might have paranoia because Whenever i walk past any windows or Go outside, I think I will get killed, and I freak out.... But I have also been watching tons of crime shows,,, soo. and when ever I think about getting killed, I start doing it. :( and since i've gotten back to school, There has been a lot of drama and they are all trying to pull me into it. So, thats counts for more and more stress. so maybe thats why I'm doing it.? I don't know. But its become almost on a regular basis. I have gotten to the point to where I go to school, I don't do it, much. Now and then at school, I will pick and eat. But, not so much. Now, when I'm alone, I will do it constantly and I will eat it. I don't know why. Can anyone help me? Is there more than just counsiling? and does anyone else do that, too?