Nothing traumatic caused my skin picking
Posted October 18th, 2012 by mschafer87
I want to preface this post by saying that my heart goes out to all of you that can site traumatic events as the cause of your skin picking. I've read many posts about people having difficult childhoods and abusive relationships that lead them to pick their skin. However, I just can't relate. I've been a "picker" for as long as I can remember and as far as I know, nothing caused me to be this way. I grew up in a very happy household with loving parents and lots of friends. I was totally "normal" except for the fact that I always picked my scabs and pulled out my eyelashes and strands of hair. I didn't know why I liked doing those things and didn't understand why I couldn't stop. I don't recall picking much or pulling hair from the ages of 10-12 but it started back up when I got teenage acne. My skin wasn't even that bad. I would just become totally transfixed on any spots and pick for hours. I'm 25 now and at this point skin picking is so deeply engrained in my day to day life and thoughts. It sometimes feels like another being that I always have to carry with me, weighing me down and plaguing my thoughts. Because I've dealt with it for so long, skin picking has become somewhat of a crutch - I pick when I'm sad, I pick when I'm stressed, I pick when I'm lonely, I pick when I'm tired, I pick when I'm bored, I pick when I'm excited... I feel like I never learned how to properly deal with heightened emotional states because when I felt ANYTHING, I just picked. How do you break free of something that is such a part of you?