Fourth time it is, time to quit!
Posted October 31st, 2012 by pickingGirl
Tomorrow it´s November 1st and that will be the day I say goodbye to picking for good! Do some of you guys wanna join me? :) I am really determined to kick this awful habit. I do know though, that it´s gonna take some great deal of self control but it´s gonna be soo worth it in the end :) I have so far tried to stop three times. First time went on really good at first, I managed 8 days without picking!! which for me was amazing. Then my skin started to break out with some big pimples, which I actually rarely get. Typical that they had to show up when thing were going so good. I couldn´t resist trying to get rid of them... I actually thought that would be the time I stopped, sadly I didnt. Second time - 4 days and third time about 5 days. Unfortunately since then there have been a lot of stressing and sad things happening in my life which has caused me more anxiety than usual, and that just threw my motivation away and I kept on picking...... I´ve just realized more and more how much dermatillomania affects my whole life and how it totally takes away so much time,energy,happiness and self confidence from me. Also, it pains me to think of how much I am hurting myself. How i make these ugly wounds on my skin which then become scars. My skin that used to be so beautiful. I used to show off my long legs, wearing pretty dresses and shorts. Now I haven´t showed my arms or legs in public for three years. I have been a prisoner inside longsleeved shirts and jeans the last three summers. Time to stop this madness! Anyways, sorry for this long post. Just wanted to share. Hope everyone´s hanging in there, making progresses. You´re all beautiful, dont forget that. X