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somuchpain , 05 Feb 2017

scared!

I've been lurking on the site for a while now and finally decided to join. I can't take the pain and embarrassment anymore! Just got done squeezing and digging at what was probably a nonexistent acne cyst on my face. I know I need to stop doing this. The deep scars are embarrassing and I can't deal with another skin infection. Now I'm just icing my forehead down. Not much else i can do. Any tips on how to stop. I'm too embarrassed to tell the doctor I'm creating these infections myself. But I'm also tired of hiding. It's been a year from hell trying to hide this disorder. I need to stop!!

145 Answers
snipzie
February 12, 2017

Hope you're happy with the 'do!
Curious what antibiotic wash you use?

somuchpain
February 12, 2017

I just use regular antibacterial hand soap or hibeclens.

somuchpain
February 12, 2017

The cyst or whatever is on my chin drained more pus today...yuck! Did a couple of rounds of heat on it to encourage draining. Only a little squeezing. Have to run some errands so icing it down after putting ointment on it. Can still see one little area of puss but not going digging at it. Really want to but i know it will drain out when ready

snipzie
February 12, 2017

Good plan! Are you mot using the mupirocin onni9t at this point?

somuchpain
February 12, 2017

I'm using the bactroban on it. So angry at myself tho. Left it alone most of the day and finally gave into temptation. Lanced the area and dug out a few white plugs. Did find a really long hair in the area So really hoping that was the source of all this. Still looks way worse than before. Icing it now

somuchpain
February 13, 2017

Grrr! So angry at myself. Why do i keep doing this to myself? My whole chin burns! I'm sure I've irritated all the skin in the area with alcohol. Trying to freak out and go into panic mode. Just put antibiotic ointment on it. Trying not to look at it every 5 minutes. Hoping i didnt just create even more of an infection on my face

snipzie
February 13, 2017

Yeah, alcohol can definitely burn an already highly irritated area. Hope the hair out now will allow it to start to heal. Try not to overly scrub/clean the area. Using a cotton pad with some apple cider vinegar quite diluted in warm water might help prevent furher burning of your skin.

somuchpain
February 13, 2017

I did a couple of rounds of warm moist heat to make sure it was done draining. No more fluid draining out so some of the redness and swelling is going away. Icing it down to help with rest of the swelling. The hole i dug isn't as deep now. Hoping it will close up now that eveything is out. Just so mad that i can't leave it alone!

snipzie
February 13, 2017

The reason I can't leave it alone is because it's not approached the "healing" phase that I accept. Does that fit in with what you do?

somuchpain
February 13, 2017

Yes. I can feel that something is still there so i want it out. Usually just end up creating a bigger mess tho

somuchpain
February 13, 2017

My chin isn't as swollen this morning. Still a little sore and red but most of it scabbed over. One little area is still moist but hoping that dries out quickly.

snipzie
February 13, 2017

Probably as the outer areas reduce inflammation and heal inward, the plug will be more isolated and easier to extract if you need.

Hang tough! Have you tried using a different face wash? Have you tried just aloe vera?

somuchpain
February 13, 2017

Don't have any aloe vera. Just trying not to irritate it. Going to lay off the alcohol on it for a while. Just going to use the antibiotic ointment

somuchpain
February 13, 2017

Cleaned up my chin when i got home. No big hole like yesterday but the scab in the middle of the area came off. Was white and a little gooey. It bled for a few minutes and already started to scab back over. That was the area where the original pus lump was. Hoping that was the end of the infection. Just icing it down now. Almost grabbed for the tweezers to pull out little white speck and dead skin but stopped. Just gotta let this thing from hell heal

somuchpain
February 14, 2017

Went ahead and went to urgent care for antibiotics. Pretty sure made the area around it irritated as hell from putting alcohol on it that's why it looks so bad. Just took my first dose. Will continue with the bactroban too. Should be way better in a couple of days...

snipzie
February 14, 2017

Sounds like you make a good decision...hope the antibiotics help it healing noticably in a few days. What ones did you get?

somuchpain
February 14, 2017

Have so much flaky skin! And red skin too. Have a nice burn around the healing thingy on my chin. Icing helps to ease the burning. Just need the burned area to heal quickly. Causing more pain than anything else. Did just put some calamine on the area to calm it down a bit.

snipzie
February 15, 2017

Careful with ice since it can burn/damage skin as well. Maybe cold cloths? Have you tried a .05% hydrocortisone cream? That should help to heal the area.

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