another episode

Im so very depressed I just picked at my face agian I went 48hrs without doing it and I just ruined my face again. I wanted to buy a book on compulsions because at this point I really dont know what to do. My boyfriend thinks this is just a bad habit but really he has no clue as to what this feels like. I think about it all the time it helps when i get on this sight and read what people are going through. Does anyone want to try and quite with me we can do it by the days as a reward we can talk about it. Let me know Im going to start right now this is getting worse for me. It is so depressing. I do notice when I set goals on my daily planner I do tend to go further without picking!