...I think.. I did it

Posted May 9th, 2010 by vacant-mind
I think it's really over. The, urges, the need, the undeniable compulsion to tear off each and every raised, odd, tiny, "imperfect" anything from my skin. Im not saying Im free of it all... but all that I just described, for the most part, is done. And now, Im left with this body of spots. It makes me sick. But Im working for a better me. I stopped taking my anti-depressants and even birth- control. Clean. Cold-Turkey. And it seems like I know I can stop. For the most part, I have. Im working on healing the disgusting mess I left behind. God I can't believe I even did this to myself. Almost 2 years. Im applying Bio-oil twice a day, which I highly reccomend. It nourishes and replenishes you're skin as well as fades and evens out scars and skintones.I'm also trying to get sun because all my scars are so dark and my skin is so light, so that will help to even things out. Fuck im so mad but at the same time just relieved. The prozac must have just given me that push to pick. It helped with other things but created this monster on the other side. Anyway, I know everyone is different, but I just wanted to share this with you guys. Thanks for being here for me to read over when I neeeded it.
‹ An idea for all of you CSP out there. When you have the urge, WRITE IT DOWN! ›
On May 9th, 2010 wildflower said:
awesome !! you mean to say you've managed to be pick free for 2 years now? or were you picking for 2 years? and you did it cold turkey? awesome !! and congratulations. i am in recovery myself. pick free for 72 out of 75 days now and it''s great to hear from someone else that is feeling like it's behind them. i think you should be proud rather than feel sick. you've accomplished something huge.
On May 9th, 2010 vacant-mind said:
That's a really long time 72 days... wow, Im not that far along by any means, but congrats! Theres clear skin ahead!
On May 9th, 2010 vacant-mind said:
I have picked for almost 2 years now and getting off all medication just happened, and then all of a sudden picking .. it wasn't this huge thing anymore... so strange. Makes me reeally rethink prescribing anti depressants to youth. I know all the controversy, and im not saying that i take anyside... because tthey did help me... they just also caused other problems...not that the prozac and picking are for sure directly related but im kinda concluding it as that way.
On May 9th, 2010 wildflower said:
well still .... if you feel like you have beat it, i hope that is the case. keep that mind set. when the urge comes, resist at all costs. that's what i do, because the urges do still come. all the best to you !!
On August 28th, 2012 cr said:
Congratulations, and I hope you're still not picking - but even if you do start again, you seem to be so aware - wow, I didn't think it was possible to fully quit!! You give the rest of us great hope:)
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