I am disgusted by what I do. I am 23 and have been picking my skin since I was about 10 years old. At this age people expect you to be going on many dates and hanging out all the time, but I don't do that stuff...at all. I sit in my room after work and do my own thing. I am used to that. Being in "my world" is comfortable. But it's a world where I pick my skin CONSTANTLY becauce it feels soooo good to me in a weird way, which is hard to explain to anyone who doesn't have the same problems as me. I always feel awful afterwards. Like I am cheating myself. It's a vicious cycle:
I pick a bump--> I clean my face-->bump turns to a sore-->I pick the sore-->it bleeds, so I clean it-->it scabs over-->I pick the scab--> my face has another dark spot!
I want to STOP so badly. I told myself I would 'quit' after college, because it was the only thing that helped me deal with stress, but I continue to do it even at my job now.
I don't know what to do to. Should I start smoking or something? I feel like people appreciate smokers more than skin pickers. =/