I'm a woman and I pick my breasts! Does anyone else?

Hi there. I've been a fairly serious skin picker ever since I was about 13. I'm now 42. Also saw the A&E Obsessed show and could totally relate. I pick pretty much anywhere and everywhere on my body but my 2 MAIN areas are my face and MY BOOBS! It's just awful! Do any other women have this problem? It's so sad because it really is a beautiful part of a woman's body and here I obsessively destroy it. Anyway, I just discovered this site and forum. It's great. Hope to chat more.
I'm so very sad and started crying reading all of this. I have been picking for 10 years. I'm 20 years old. I do believe it started when I was molested and since that point, I've felt dirty on the inside. I've been on anxiety and depression pills, and developed Mersa when I was 16, but I felt like I couldn't stop ever. I pick everything that has pores!! I usually don't repick scabs, but I can count 100's of scars on my body. BELIEVE ME, YOU ARE NOT UGLY!!! No matter what, I've noticed men don't look at our skin like we do. If they care, they point it out, but if they love you, they see past it. NEVER FEEL UGLY AND NEVER GIVE UP ON A RELATIONSHIP! We can fix it somehow. I think meditation helps the most. You get to find your inside, and maybe, if we can find that, we will stop needing to do this. There is always a way. Reading this has helped me realize that I'm not the only one, and if they can find a cure for the most terrrible epidemics, we can find a cure for this. We're beautiful!!
I do too. I pick and pop little pimples I find on my boobs :(
I do it too! I thought i was the only one.. I pick at my breasts mostly, and my face.. It's hard to stop and wish I could sometimes.. I'm only 16 and I've been doing it for about.. 5 years now? I've had breasts pretty much since I was 10.. But it started when I was 11 obviously.. But if anyone has any tips on what to do to stop? It's just so hard sometimes.. Especially when I get an urge to... Even though I know all you ladies say you do it, I still feel a little weird and dumb for doing it.. I am happy that I'm not the only one though!
Tomato's! Honestly rub a tomato all over yourself and leave on for 15 minutes. Wash with warm water. This has helped me a ton when I pick. I have been an obsessive picker for over 10 years now. This is what really helps me. Also when you wash your body, wash it with cold water or with a cold cloth (sponge dont wipe) to close your pores. This will help lessen the amount to pick at. Hope this helps!
I'll try the tomatos, thx.
YES. Me too. My most picked places over my lifespan has been my shoulders and my boobs. I always try my best to stay away from anything that a v-neck shirt might see, but I have some scars. It's just that they're right THERE. And I can't NOT see them. And it's just really easy to pick at. I had an ex who was very understanding and told me he didn't want to see me hurting myself, and if I took too long in the bathroom he'd come looking for me, or get me out. But I'm single now, and it's always a place I go back to. I worry I'll ruin one of my best assets! LOL, but I can't help it!
Hello I am new to this forum, have been picking my breasts and other areas for a long time now. I can relate a lot to everyone's posts and it does feel good to know I'm not alone.
Hi, I was so glad to see your blog. I just started on this site and I have been picking my breasts also. I pick at my arms and legs for the past 10 years. I just started picking my breasts a couple of months ago. These tiny red spots starting appearing. I only get itchy at night. I take atarax for itching but it has never helped. Does your boobs get itchy? I take valium for chronic anxiety but I still pick. I guess I'm not much help but knowing I'm not alone makes me feel better. Skin doctors haven't helped they just say in disgust to go to my Psychiatrist! Oh well, I'm going to pray for an answer for both of us. Take care!
I got breast reduction surgery when i was 16, because i had so many scabs i picked at them so badly that i had chunks of skin missing. I almost gave myself merca (spelling?) i was sared no one would ever like me because my breasts were so ugly and horribly scarred. I completely destroyed my skin and kept picking both breasts till they were almost covered. I ha to sleep with band aids on so my shirts wouldnt get bloody. Id hate myself for it too but it would feel so good to pick. Ive since gotten control and they are completely healed but ivr left horrible scarring. Its quite humiliating and i dont talk about it much but im thankful im not alone and u can conquer it!
I have the exact same problem. :( I can't stop picking! My breasts are covered in scabs, which often get infected and sore. I always try to have sex with a shirt on so my husband won't see when I've gone on a picking spree. I don't have any ideas on how to stop. I pick at my neck during class, because my hair will cover the marks. I even unbutton my shirt at work and pick at my breasts in my office. I pick while I watch tv, when I'm in the shower, on the toilet, and when I'm trying to fall asleep. I pick at my scalp, shoulders, breasts, back, neck and arms really badly. I've been picking since I was 12, but it got substantially worse when I was 18 (I'm 23 now) I don't know how to stop. Especially since I buy expensive makeup to help cover it up. My husband is disappointed that I can't stop. I want to stop, but it is sooooo satisfying to pick. When I'm in a situation where I can't pick I get really agitated. Oh well. I've seen psychologists about it, but they can't do anything for me. I'm even on citalopram which is supposed to help with OCD problems, but it hasn't helped me at all. Best of luck to everyone.
Oh my God I pick the exact areas on my body as well. I am going through it so bad my boobs hurt and having open gaping sores and scabs all over them. I am scared but I honestly just can't stop. Help!
its crazy so many have this problem!i thought i was alone.by boobs are nasty and i cant even let anyone see them.i am 19,i am incredibly hot too!!, and practicly dont have sex with my boyfriends anymore.i am too embarrassed to show them.since i dont have sex anymore, i am losing my friends and i am not socialy accepted as much. i cant stop this habbit for nothing!!! i need help!!! i need boyfriends!!!! why must boys need to have sex to be friends with me.does anyone else have this problem????
girl I'm sorry to say this to you, but if those guys need to have sex with you to be your friends then they're not friends, they're just taking advantage of your body!!! I'm a girl and I've always had more male friends than female, and if anything I find that sex weakens the friendship, not the opposite! Unless they're like your fuck buddys, I don't understand why would you have to go to bed with them to be their friend :S
i can't believe it has taken me 5 years to even realize that what i have is an actual disorder and not just acne. i started picking my face and then moved on to the shoulders, back, breasts, legs and bum. i'm 19 now and it's not as bad as it used to be, i've pretty much got my shoulders, back and legs back to normal and my bum's getting there but my breasts still bug me. i find that the worst time is in the shower when the skin is soft and i can see them. i get pretty down about it but it's so difficult to stop, whenever i stop for a substantial amount of time and see improvement i always end up going back. its just annoying cause i would love to get more intimate with guys but i'm so paranoid that the only time this seems to happen is when i'm drunk and it's dark. hearing all of your stories has inspired me to try and stop as i don't want to be doing all of this in 10 years time (no offence to any of you long time sufferers)
i can't believe it has taken me 5 years to even realize that what i have is an actual disorder and not just acne. i started picking my face and then moved on to the shoulders, back, breasts, legs and bum. i'm 19 now and it's not as bad as it used to be, i've pretty much got my shoulders, back and legs back to normal and my bum's getting there but my breasts still bug me. i find that the worst time is in the shower when the skin is soft and i can see them. i get pretty down about it but it's so difficult to stop, whenever i stop for a substantial amount of time and see improvement i always end up going back. its just annoying cause i would love to get more intimate with guys but i'm so paranoid that the only time this seems to happen is when i'm drunk and it's dark. hearing all of your stories has inspired me to try and stop as i don't want to be doing all of this in 10 years time (no offence to any of you long time sufferers)
Ok, well my first day wasn't too successful. Twice I picked today... So tomorrow I'm going to be pick free, even if it kills me, dammit!
Oh my god I can't believe how many comments this forum has! I just found this site because I was googling ways to treat this OCD habit & I hope this place helps me... Since I was about 13, I was picking my breats. Then I stopped in '05 when I visited my grandma for a few weeks & she made me. I got back & started up again, I guess soon after. It's progressed over the years to be all over my legs, my arms have had it since my legs, & then my groin & below my belly button. It's extremely embarassing... I'm now 21, my ex & my current bf have tried helping me stop, & it got so bad that in April, when I first met up with my bf, I gave him some (I got them infected & had a Staph infection). I had to go to the doctor & get pills to treat the infection, & so did he. Thankfully he wasn't too mad & he forgave me, especially since I hadn't known I was infected. I wish I could've stayed on the meds though, because they seemed to put a coating over the scabs, pimples & scars. I know it hurts, even during picking, but I can't fuckin stop! My bf says once we (eventually) move in together, within the next 5 months, he's going to really push me & help me stop. But I have it in my mind that I'm still not going to... I'm scared, I cry about this a lot, I hate how I look, I don't like showing my skin... & I just can't stop... I feel helpless... & I wish I could just go get plastic surgery & cover it all up... But uninsured, & afraid of surgery as is, I know I couldn't anyway... I really hope this forum helps others, & maybe even my own story, because trust me, it's hard to break this habit... & I should know... Almost 10 years, 100's of scars later, maybe unseen to others, but to my loved ones & best friends, & obviously myself, I can attest to this being an addiction... & I'M a cosmetology student... :'/
I have this problem....I just started a few months ago. I do it to my chest. I get close to a lamp or light, take a pair of tweezers and just go over each breast looking for hair folicles. Not even hair folicles, the white stuff inside each one where a hair would be. The stuff that protects your body from infections. I have little scabs here and there on each breast, I am trying so hard not to do it though anymore. I think its a control issue. I am a recovering addict, couples years now and I have a little girl now. So I know deep down I CAN'T go back to that lifestyle ever again and thats okay with me. However, I am learning, even after years, to cope with things that I normally would have done drugs with or called a man for company..yadda yadda. Its comforting...but the end result isn't. So, I think with intense one-on-one chatting with a professional and digging deep (no pun intended) to get at the core of all my issues, this will fade away on its own. What do you all think?
I pick the exact same way at my breasts. It sucks. I hope talking it out works :)
Hiya, only this morning i've come across this site after Googling, In all honesty I am so relieved that I am not alone at picking. Its been over a year now since I started picking at my breasts, it mostly started a month or befor having my daughter, and I keep thinking that maybe by me picking my breasts i wasn't able to breast feed my baby. I know i should go and see my doctor about this but i'm too ashamed and embarrased. My partner knows that I do this and he tries to help me fight the urge to pick, but like some of you I always pick with out fail before I have a bath. In truth it is starting to take over my life. I'm a big women and my self-esteem is touching the floor as it is and i know by doing this i'm ruining the one part of my body I was proud of. I thought that when my partner found out that I was picking that he would leave as once I finished i would get upset by what i done but he says he loves me no matter what. I just need help to fight the urge before i ruin my body completly.
I do this as well. I have one horribly embarrassing memory of this. I was about 14, and my mom had walked into the bathroom as I was getting the shower and she saw my breasts after I had picked at them. She didn't realize that I had done this to myself, either because she was simply oblivious to my habits at the time or because she refused to accept the picking habits I had formed over the past few years. She insisted that we go to the doctor because she thought I had some sort of skin infection or rash. I refused, knowing that it was none other than inflamed skin I had caused from obsessively picking. One day after picking me up from school she took me to the clinic anyway and I remember throwing a fit and crying in the car because I did not want to go inside and face the doctor. I'm not sure what she thought of the whole thing, because I could only see it from my adolescent perspective, and she has only become aware of my problem in the the last year or so, as far as I can tell. I was so ashamed to take my shirt off in front of the doctor, and as kind as she was, saying it was probably just irritation from the material in my bra or sweat or some bullshit explanation, I don't know why she didn't just come right out and say it, because it MUST have been obvious right? I would have been even more mortified, but perhaps things would have turned out differently. Now here I am, more than six years later, fighting my mind to stop these habits. I'm just thankful for all of you here who I can relate to. I wish I could be of more help to the others on here, but I have nothing to give except my own account of this disorder and encouragement. Thanks for admitting to this, because I probably wouldn't have shared this story otherwise.
Hi, my name is Katlyn and I am 18 years old and I pick my boobs. I just have to say that I read everyone's stories and they truly had an impact on me. This only started happening this year, and I have to at least pick my boobs twice a day. I can't stop it. I am not as sever as some of you, and I don't pick my face or other places, and I just told my mom about it and she is going to help me stop before I ruin my body. I pick pimples, and I pick little bumps around my nipple, and I can tell it's hurting my body from the way it stings afterwards. I have big boobs, and unfortunately they hang so it gets sweaty under them and sweat forms pimples. It is an addiction, i have gone a few or so days without picking, i know i am lucky at catching this early, and i just want to wish you all luck!
I've been picking my chest too! My mom and doctor made me feel like I was the only person who did this! I have white scars and I get little like dark black he's looking ones that are just blood from picking them, and sometimes they bruise. I am so glad that there are other people who do this! Well not glad but not alone lol. I can do this for a good hour, and I do pick at my legs and groin, and back, neck, face and arms and belly. I am embarrassed to have any intimate moments with my boyfriend as it is because of my body, and I make myself more self conscience with picking, it's a vicious cycle lol.
Wow I'm like the other women here- completely in shock that it's not just me. My mother picked at my face for years and still spends hours picking her face. I wore makeup to school in 4th grade and constantly got in trouble for it. I grew up pulling my hair out and it eventually stopped and switched to me picking my own face. About the time I got to college (and started birth control) I ended up being able to leave my face alone. I had begun picking a few spots on my breasts, but not that much. About last year, it really took off. I use tweezers to squeeze out whatever is in the pockets on my breasts. Unfortunately, I've begun to really worry this summer because the spots have started to become infected. I've tried wearing bandages over my breasts, but I eventually end up tearing them off and picking. However, I have great support. I have been sexually active for a while with multiple partners, but only my first had ever seen my breasts. It wasn't until my current boyfriend that I had the courage to show them again. Now we're not a cheesy couple (dating a year and a half and never even told each other flat out that we love each other), but when he saw my breasts for the first time, he told me he loved them because they were mine. You all are incredibly worthy of a partner who is understanding. I wish you all the best on your recoveries!
I pick my breasts using tools removing skin, pores, I have occasionally moved onto my underarms and groin. It's so embarrassing, the scars are foul and hurt. I'm 29 soon, I have removed my toenails since I was about six and I currently am missing two fingernails. Now these days I am a happy and generally mentally well person, I work full time as a learning disability nurse and despite still being on medication for the depressive illness I function pretty well, why oh why do I do this? Well my reckoning is of course, this is how I display my anxiety and difficult emotions and how I control the uncontrollable world around me. It's not pleasant for those around me to see, but do you know what, yes I pick, but that's just a small part of who I am. I have good months where I can heal and grow and then other times where I go hell for leather and can keep wounds I've made infected for weeks. I'm so glad i'm not alone, my tips are light fake tan, bio oil, distraction and all the alcohol gel you can buy! Try not to feel you need to tell loved ones the graphic details, it does freak them out but only because they worry.My main tip is accept it, try your best but when you indulge and then feel the disgust and guilt, be kind to yourself, it's not the end of the world, don't be ashamed of dating, don't let it define you, you're beautiful and clever and the right person wouldnt care if you had a steak stapled to your face xxxx
I pick my breasts too, as well as dry skin and pimples from my face. My breasts tend to slightly lactate every now and then, and I have a bad habit of picking out dried fluid and oil/ dirt or whatever it is that just sits in the opening of the nipple. I also pluck a couple hairs out. I think more women do this than you would think.
So apparently I am not alone!!!!! I have been picking everywhere since I was 13 - face, breast, hands, feet, bikini line... I love it when doing it but right after I feel depressed. In the summer I wear long sleeves and avoid going to the beach. As for the breast, I managed to stopped the picking a few months ago, but it seems that the scars are too old and persistent to go away. And I did try everything - peelings (but the skin there is so thin that there are no skin layers to get removed from the peelings anymore), also tried good whitening creams - contractubex and elocon with artexan. Seriously the scars are not going away. Please help me and suggest something else if you found a solution. I was wondering also if there is a whitening laser or something that I could try... Really desperate as I am single and I don't feel like getting in another relationship until this is fixed!!!!
I've recently discovered Sandalwood soap and it is working very well for my scars on man areas of my body. MediMix brand is the best. You can find it on amazon or possibly in some specialty stores.
I wouldn't want to either. Hopefully you can find a guy that doesn't mind that sort of past history. I'm currently with a guy I'm engaged to, and he seems more curious than anything, and honestly, he's bothered by picking my face and standing in front of the mirror for hours more than anything. The breast picking, he actually started watching me one time and I ended up slamming the door on him. He laughed of course, and basically just said that I should try not to damage anything important or get an infection. I'm sure there are many guys out there that won't care about scars on your breast. Any that do, would not be worth your time anyway.
I've been picking my face for four years and the last few months i've started to pick at my chest aswell. I just started having counselling and taking fluoxetine to get rid of some of my anxiety and it seems to be better. Exercising seems to help as well. I just started a blog where I hope to post tips about what I find helps me to stop picking. http://ihavedermatillomania.wordpress.com/
Wow it is nice to know that I am no longer alone whith this disorder. And this type of picking. I have been picking since I was 11. And have been for the past 30 years. I have alvways picked my breast area for as long as I can remember. Basecally I pick everything. The tineast zit car triger picking. And once I start, I have a hard time stopping.:( I was diagnosed with severe anxiaty disorder and ADHD 15 years ago. 4 years ago I went to see a therapist for a problem I was having dealing with de diagnosis ofm y boys ( 1 has ADHD and the two others have Autism) and I starded to talk for the first time about my picking. In the course of a year I stopped picking. I felt better about myself and was Ok until this past march. After a week on a familly vacaton my stress level became surper high. So the picking began again. Il am hoping to stop again with some more therapy. Dealing with this disorder il tough. Getting to control it takes time, energy and a lot of love for yourself. Each day il a battle. But it can be won. I did it once I know I can do it again!
hi yes I am in my late 30's and have scars all over my breasts i squeeze anything that can be squeezed which then turns to scabs and then the picking frenzies begin so i know exactly where you're coming from. its so tough and people just dont understand and so even in the summer months i cover myself from head to toe including baseball caps to disguise my forehead. I thank god that for my husband who loves me regardless but he does get worried and upset as he knows how this condition affects my confidence and self asteem. I send you support strength and love and hope this site helps as it is helping me and i've only just found it myself. Its just so good to know we're not alone.:)x
OMG PEOPLE ACTUALLY DO THIS LIKE ME?? I AM SO IN SHOCK. i totally feel the same way. im 16 and i have been an obbsesive scalp pickerfor about 3 years, zit picker and popper, breast picker (i squeeze out the white stuff around my areola's) , i sqeeze the pores on my face and just pretty much i can get to. i even get really tempted to do it to other peopleolike my boyfriend but that makes me even more of a freak. it really worries me because i pick until things bleed and it just feels so good to me. i dig at school too. no one knows at all that i do this though, i would REALLy like to stop bc it is the most humiliatiing thing knowing i cant get my hair done without the stylists freaking out and i always hurt myself from it, and it hurts to brush my hair. i spend about 85% of the day picking especially when im nervous and i have anxiety and depression.,and when i get mad, i pick very agrressively and it hurts bad but i like it. is this similar to when people cut themselves? . please someone help:( :( :(
Hi! I have always felt like a freak because I also pick my skin all over my body, including breast. I am 19 years old. I honestly always knew there was something wrong but thought I was the only one with this problem. I also saw the episode of Obsessed on A&E about the woman who was a skin picker, but I felt like I related to the story and not at the same time. There are some guys who say I'm cute or whatever, but I always say I'm not. I totally get what you're talking about. You are so lucky to find someone who is obviously accepting you for who you are, no matter what you think you look like. I just feel like a freak. Does anybody else ever feel like everyone is staring at them when the walk down the street? It's like they're not looking at you but your scars, like your some kind of freak show. I also get depressed sometimes because of it. I get scared this will never end, but I try so hard not to pick and I do. Maybe coming to this will help.
I pick everywhere, including my boobs and my pubic area.. I have this ritual before I go for a shower I completely strip and pick EVERYWHERE! atm I have false nails on so I've resorted to pins and tweezers. It's so embarrasing expecially when my cousin knows I pick but she really doesn't know what extents I go to.
I do to and everywhere. I'm ashamed and embarrassed. I don't see how anyone could love me. I know GOD does and family, but I'm talking about a guy. I'm a freak so....
Totally!! It's hidden (mostly) and it's a pore rich environment. One of my spots to pick. Thanks for sharing the pain.
So nice (not sure that's the right word) so know there are more people like me. I am a 24 year old vet student and I have picked my skin for as long as I can remember. My picking definitely gets worse with anxiety, I was diagnosed with epilepsy at 15 and from then on I have incessantly picked at my face. In the last 4 years or so this picking has spread else where including my shoulders but mainly my boobs, this has worsened especially in the last year since my epilepsy reared its ugly head once more and I was diagnosed with a benign pituitary adenoma (all this as long as studying at vet school as made for a very stressful year!). My breasts are so scarred, to the extent that I dont want to wear a bikini anymore, they are covered in red marks, I often have scabs on them from picking (if anyone spots them I often blame them on my rabbits claws scratching me!). So I have decided that I am not going to do this to myself anymore!! I have had enough and need to take control of it! I have bought myself some well rated scar reducing gel and am going to write a diary every night (i usually pick when I get into bed, so if I can focus on something else I am hoping this will help). Everywhere I read they say that dermatillomania is not easily cured, but as frustrating as it is i KNOW it is a habit, and it is so self destructive, not only physically but mentally as well. I am determined to turn this around for myself, I have become so quiet and lost a lot of confidence. I feel like I am behaving the opposite to how a normal 24 year old should! Has anyone on here manage to control their picking? I want to stop and feel like a woman again! Hope that people on here can inspire each other to try and break the habit as hard as it may be!
WOW! It's amazing to know there are others that suffer from the same condition. I truly thought it was just me. I'm 26 and have been picking since the age of 14. I don't know what triggered it (I'm guessing the stress of starting high school and the peer pressure of fitting in). I started out picking my shoulders and my chest (especially around the nipples). I was able to veer from picking at my shoulders as much when I became a lifeguard at 16 (the sun really helped dry out any potential bumps, and the tan helped cover any scars ). However, I simply cannot stop picking at the area around my nipples. The rest of my chest is fine. I have the self-control not to pick at any other part of my chest because I want to be able to wear swimsuits and low-cut tops. I have large boobs and have all sorts of confidence when I go out...until I get home and my boyfriend was to get intimate. I've never told him about my picking, and I can only hope he hasn't noticed. I always wear sexy bras with the hopes that he'll want me to leave them on during sex. In college my friends would flash their boobs for free drinks and shots when we were at the bars or on float trips. I, however, always just sat back and pretended to have fun, but on the inside all I could do was think, "What would these people say if they saw my scabby, bumpy nipples?" My friends would always tell me how big and perfect my boobs were and ask me why I wouldn't show them off for the free drinks. I KNOW I shouldn't do it, and I don't WANT to do it, so why can't I stop picking?!? Would it help it I went to a dermatologist? Or is this something psychological that I need to battle internally?
i feel the same way, i also have big boobs but it would be awful if anyone ever saw, they look disgusting. have you tried any lotions to heal the scars? i want to know what will work on breast tissue :\
Bio Oil works well, and so does Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula Skin Therapy Oil. (Btw I also have big boobs and I pick at the pores/where ever I can get that white stuff to come out.) The only problem with finding lotions/oils to heal the scars and help with the appearance is that if you continue to pick, it's not going to get any better. I'll have times when I can go weeks without picking, and with the help of the oil mentioned above I feel very comfortable going out in more revealing tops (for nights out on the town), but then once I have a relapse and start picking again, all that progress goes out the window. So for me, it's more important to find out how to stop picking once and for all, and then start working on how to improve the appearance of my chest.
I'm almost 15, I started picking half way through last year when I was really stressed and things weren't going very well at home. I started picking at my face and arms at the bend in the elbow. It has now spread and I am picking my arms, legs, face, back, shoulders, and breasts. Most of the time they start as pimples and I have the impulse to pop them, I then pick them. A few of my friends are aware of the problem and the only thing they can do to get me to stop is hit me and tell me to stop but I almost immediately start again when their not looking, my teachers are starting to notice and help as well but no matter what anyone does I do it still. It normally happens when I'm stressed, upset or angry. It's good to know I'm not alone
Same here. It is nice to see there are others like me. No offense but as a picker I know my family and friends mean well when I'm picking and they hit me to stop, but when I'm in a trend in picking I hate it when they hit me lol it really pisses me off. Does it piss you off to...???
I cant believe that there are actually other people that do the same thing! I seriously thought that i was a psycho. I think that mine started when i was 15 or so and this idiot i was "dating" saw my boobs and i had some black hair growing around my areola. When we broke up he told everyone that i was hairy and started calling me "sasquatch" . I think thats when it started but has only in the last 5 years or so (im 28) it has gotten really bad. Every time i get a chance (on the toilet, in the shower, when im home alone) the first thing i do is pull my shirt and bra up and start in . I search for little black hairs to dig out. Doesnt matter how deep its gotta come out. I have dug craters in myself but feel no pain. I have a panic attack if i cant find the tweezers. I bleed and have to wear bandages. I also squeeze the white bumps on my areolas and get excited (not sexually) when "a good one" comes out. I used to have my nipples pierced and i still have holes on either side of my nipple. If i squeeze really hard white puss stuff will come out . I have no feeling in my nipples anymore. Wow i have never told anyone that before. I am happily married and my husband knows that i pick and is very understanding. I am going to call tomorrow and find a therapist who deals in OCD. I want it to stop!
Your lucky to have a husband who is understanding. My ex use to accept me, and said he would love me and my marks, but as time went on and it got worse. He told me to start covering up. I don't blame him. I'm embarrassing looking. I'm a freak and I get it.
I've only figured out there was a name for what I do. When I'm stressed, I pick my face and between my boobs. It has progressed to legs, arms and stomache. I try to keep my hands busy now. For some reason, denim material helps me. When I was a kid, my blanket felt like denim material and when I rub it now, I'm soothed. My sister makes fun of me because I keep a piece of a jean in the car to rub as I drive. If I don't, I pick my face. I've also figured out that if I wear acrylic nails, I don't pick as much. I can't get a hold of the scabs well enough to peel them off or to squeeze the bumps. It's just so expensive to keep up, especially for an unemployed woman. I am glad to see that I am not alone now.
Your not alone doll. You do not work...?? Is it because you have no confidence, self esteem, picking, or something else? Me work is a sore topic. I just wish I was normal and wasn't me sometimes.
hey girls, whoa - good to learn you all are out there! I'm 26 year old picker from switzerland, in the "business" like so many of you since my early teens. I know pretty much what everyone's talking about, and I'm coming to the conclusion that it's way more then just a bad habit. it's in fact a sickness and it has a name: Dermatillomania. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dermatillomania) of course, like in all addictional/ compulsive behavios, causes might differ: traumatisms, not coping well with stress or your own body... psychological or neurological (like a lack of dopamine in your brain)... but the main thing in my opinion is you recognize there's something there, and it's nothing to be more ashamed of then any other medical condition. knowing that I have a very low discipline level and I like to give advice I don't follow (no, I'm not over it and still struggling, not ever making it more than 3 days without picking)... I still think we need to stop feeling sorry for ourselves. like what I just said about discipline: that's feeling sorry for myself because I still think it's a discipline issue and that I'm just too weak to get off it. it's not, and we're not going to help it by changing outside circumstances and making stupid contracts with- and promises to ourselves, to "be strong - stop picking - from now on". that's bullshit because you don't get rid of a condition like that, the only thing it will do is to make you feel worse when you (obvisouly) start picking again - because the underlying causes don't dissapear with a promise. it'll make you feel worse each time you break a contract, worse about yourself, and that'll make you want to pick more... it's an evil circle. so I say: heads up, gals, let's all come out of the closet and talk to a freakin' professional! good luck and success to all of you ;)
You are right hunnie but at least there coming out and there trying something. Then doing nothing. Not everyone can afford a specialist either. Myself as one of them. It's easier said then done. Especially if you beng doing it like forever. Me from 14 to now I'm 26.
I'm 19 and have been picking since I was a little kid. when I hit puberty I got acne on my chest. But a lot of it was all in my head unfortunately. So I would pick at little specs that i thought were a growing pimple or a blackhead or something. My chest is now completely scarred with white scars because I guess after repeated picking it took out the pigment. My dermatologist says they are little cysts. Thanks to birth control and some hormone medication all my acne has gone away. Which did wonders for my chest. But about a year ago I started picking around the nipple, I feel like it's such a disgusting habit. My mother used to constantly check my body, mainly to see for infections and saw that I had started to pick around the nipple. I told her that something does come out. Like a pimple. But she told me that it's nothing like a pimple and that I could get a serious infection and that I'm damaging my breasts. I've tried to stop. But the thought of knowing that if something is under the skin and I can pop it out, it must be done. I'm extremely self conscious. I won't wear bathing suits just because I have all these white scars on my chest and I'm both embarrassed and disgusted by myself.
For information on the skin picking disorder (Dermatillomania), symptoms, causes and treatment methods, get the Complete Guide to Skin Picking Disorders.