im so weird :(

so im 19 and in college and when i think about it i must be the weirdest person in the world. i pick everything and usually eat it. basically any by product of my body; dandruff, boogers, mucus, skin, scabs, blood, ear wax, dried puss, dried urine, vaginal discharge and vaginal blood clots. i also fairly recently began pickiing split ends, but i dont eat them. i have been doing most of these things ever since i can remember and am worrried i have some severe psychological problem. i do it everyday and its like second nature. no one knows i do all these weird things either. i know its really really weird but i cant seem to stop. im worrried about permanent damage to my skin but even the worry isnt enough to make me stop. i dont know what the rooting of my picking is but i wonder if it is a psychological problem. writing this has really helped me and i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders, its nice to know im not the only one doing this. perhaps writing this and getting it out will be the first step to stopping my picking or at the least diminishing it...i hope so.

hi hayls. It's so good you have found this forum and that you want to change. I wish you the best of luck! It sounds like the best thing for you to do might be to focus on stopping one area at a time? So perhaps begin with allowing yourself to pick but NOT allowing yourself to eat what you pick? Or if that is too hard, start with an area that you pick or eat and stop doing that first. It can be difficult to tackle all areas at once - I know a lot of us who pick start by stopping picking the face for example, and don't focus on the rest of the body til the face is under control. Also, don't give up if you slip up - I am back to day one again today and have been part of this forum for nearly two months. I try every day to stop but every few days I am back to square one! Am making progress though and can manage longer without picking than I used to. If I were you I'd start by stopping eating any of the vaginal stuff or urine because this could really affect your health! I know it is hard - when I pick my skin I always forget how many scars I give myself. Good luck and welcome to the forum.
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