My progress

Posted July 1st, 2012 by iwillbecauseican.

This is my diary of how I'm doing every day. I hope it inspires myself and others to behave differently! I want to finally get my life back, recently I've been getting close, but it's not enough yet. I will not stop until I'm 'normal' and can wear whatever I want when I want, not be afraid that I'm permanently damaging my body, and not be judged or stared at by others. I want to feel great when Iook in the mirror or think of what I look like, as every person deserves to. Please feel free to join in whatever I do, I hope this can help others as well as me!

On July 5th, 2012 iwillbecauseican. said:

Day 5-Yesterday and today I fell back again, it's disappointing and angering and after years I feel like there's just no end to this and never will be. But I'm determined to not stop trying, from this second I'll pick it back up.

On July 7th, 2012 AnonPicker said:

That's the right attitude! Pick it back up! Hang in there. We WILL beat this one day.

On July 3rd, 2012 iwillbecauseican. said:

Day 3-I began today with the aim of not picking even once, which I'll try to do everyday. Ignoring one or two tiny scratches, it went really well! I had two mosquito bites yesterday which made it difficult but overall it was good, I continually raised my hands to pick but managed to stop myself. Feeling really proud, I'm just impatient to get to a point where I don't even have to stop myself and I don't do it at all.

On July 2nd, 2012 iwillbecauseican. said:

Day 2-It's going well, I keep going to scratch and then remind myself not to. I have done so a few times but it's tough breaking a habit! I hope a day comes when it doesn't even occur to me to scratch/pick.

On July 1st, 2012 iwillbecauseican. said:

I managed not to pick in the night too much, except near my eye (not my actual eye) , but I think it was more because I was tired. Clenching fists and not doing anything is a huge test of willpower, especially when before it's what filled your days.

On July 1st, 2012 iwillbecauseican. said:

I read online that a scratch takes around a week to heal. A week is a long time for me not to scratch, but I'll try! I'll discount one little scratch, as long as no big ones happen and I don't scratch more than once, rather than trying something I can't realistically do.

For information on the skin picking disorder (Dermatillomania), symptoms, causes and treatment methods, get the Complete Guide to Skin Picking Disorders.