Hi Everyone, and btw HELP!
Posted July 26th, 2012 by isabell1
I'm surprised and releived to have discovered and be joining this forum-finding that there are people out there that have a problem like mine! I've learned a lot so far, like the fact that picking my skin obsessively can actually be a form of OCD..it explains why I feel powerless to stop something that I desperately want to stop! My issue is that I'm a young woman with an embarrassing, life-interfering problem: I pick my facial skin- a problem compounded by the fact that it's the most noticable place on my body. I have suffered some minor acne-nothing in the least that stands out. My sorry, obsessive problem is that for some reason, I compulsively pick at any minor acne or abrasive skin I come across.I use tweezers as a concession because if I don't keep them handy, I simply tear my skin apart wtih my bear nails. I feel like a freak show! If I have the smallest, upturned flake of skin, I HAVE to smooth it at all cost. If that means tearing a huge layer off my face, I do it. I hate myself for it, and every time I suffer through a particularly large wound, I tell myself I have learned my lesson, only to discover I have not. Right now, I'm sporting a large, perfectly-picked flat, cherry red spot covering the entire tip of my nose. Absolutely horrible. I'm having a very stressful time, and on the verge of being promoted at my restraunt job-where its imperative that I look really good to fit in with the other managers. This huge, ugly, horrific spot was the result of nothing other than rubbing my nose, then peeling away the upturned tear in order to "flatten" the skin. I knew what would happen, I knew that I couldn't afford to look this way, and I did it anyways. AGAIN. Of course, in those desperate I-have-to-cover-this-weeping-blood-red-wound-with-concealer moments , I continue to pick it flat again and again. It had a healthy looking fresh layer of skin healing over it this afternoon, and rather than leave it well alone, I could not help but rip it off again. I am my own worst enemy with this. I know that I tend to get obsessive when I'm tired, stressed, not eating well, or otherwise agitated. From visiting this site in the past I've learned to recognize my cues and proactively try to stop myself from this horrid habit. Now I'm in the mess again, and I cannot afford to look this way next to my picture-perfect future co-managers. I know that I will soon have to deal wtih the issue of why I do this-and how to stop-but for now I would settle with any help some comrades here could offer: Is there any specific healing products/remedies you've discovered fighting this problem that I could use to lesson the redness of the wound? It roughly resembles a burn mark. Anything regimine I could start with to speed along the healing process? Believe me, anything would help!!!!! (thanks for your time)