newly diagnosed and incredibly hopeful..
Posted August 28th, 2012 by always.sunny
I began picking when I was about five years old.. I turned 30 this year. I have had a lifelong struggle with this disorder and it wasn't until today that I found out it had a name. I have spent my entire life hiding this from everyone, and I've also reached out for help to no avail- doctors, friends, my parents, even my husband. It was easier for them to ignore my problem than to help me find answers and a way to stop. I have also been battling clinical depression for the past 12 years, so that obviously hasn't made my life any easier. But, as I'm sure many can relate, I'm a master at hiding not only my scars, scabs, and band-aids, but hiding my emotional turmoil. The past two months have been incredibly difficult (more so than usual), but having found this website feels as though I've found light at the end of my tunnel. I have a new found sense of hope now that I know I'm not alone. Please feel free to write me- I'm not terribly good at posting things (especially if its my deepest, darkest secret), but I encourage open dialogue, as I'm sure it will help with the healing process.