Taking the first steps to recovery :)
Posted September 6th, 2012 by little-love
I have decided that enough is enough. I want to beat the skin picking this time! I have set myself the challenge of stopping completely. I'm not going to delude myself into thinking this will be easy, but I KNOW it is possible. I have been thinking back through my life, thinking of all the times I have missed out on things because I didn't want to show my face, thinking of all the times I have not enjoyed myself as I am constantly thinking about my face. I think I am closer to understanding why I do this to myself. I am always trying to please others and be what they perceive as perfect. But no more.I want to be me and do what I want to do. I want to get my nose pierced and get a tattoo and dye my hair crazy colours, but I don't because I worry what others will think and I will draw attention to myself and my skin. I am on my 4th day of no picking. These are always the worst because my skin is in the healing process and I get dry skin and stuff and I want to correct that, but already I can see the healing happening. I am going to keep a photo diary so I can see the change and I also have a paper diary in which I write down how I am feeling. I have also painted my nails (which I used to bite all the time, but some how I have gotten through that) so it detters me from picking as I don't want the polish to get ruined. I can do this, I really believe that this time will be the last.