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I've had dermatillomania for 4 years now. I mostly pick just my face. It started with my nose and then my forehead and now my chin. About two years ago I got the courage to tell my mum about my problem but she said that i was being silly and that if i want to stop then i should just stop. After that I never wanted to tell anyone ever again because i was scared they would laugh at me like my mum did. I pick every night probably around 30 mins - one hour. sometimes my skin will get so bad that i dont want to go out the house or see my friends and i try and sleep a lot so my face will heal. Finally when my face is almost healed and looking a lot better, i start picking all over again till it looks really ugly again. Like i want my face to be perfect. But the thing is that if i didnt pick my face it would be almost perfect anyways. i'm 19 now, and i dont get pimples anymore but i can't stop picking at my face when theres even the slightest bump or mark anywhere. I think most people think its acne, but i think my dad must suspect something because hes walked in on me looking in the mirror sometimes. After i told my mum 2 years ago i kind of accepted that I would have it for the rest of my life.. but theres this guy that i'm in love with, and i dont want him to see me like this. I dont want to hurt myself anymore. I dont want my face to be scarred and I'm sick of having to cancel on my friends and wearing heaps of make up everyday. My family probably haven't seen my face without make up in a long time. Every once in a while I go to these camps for church and you can't really pick on camps because you're never alone, your sleeping in a room with 10 other people and theres one huge bathroom. At every camp my skin clears up and by the end of the week its looking really good. And i say to myself, when i go back home i'm not going to pick anymore...but as soon as i get home i go to the bathroom and and an hour later my face is covered in red marks and its like... what have I done... i cant even stop myself its like i dont even realise what i'm doing. Anyways, i don't want to do this for the rest of my life... im 19 now and i can't pass it off as pimples anymore...especially when i just focus on one area at a time.. like my chin will be ruined but then the rest of my face will be perfect. I just want to stop... I want a cure for this horrible habit!