The good news: I am safely in bed now I was able to stop this picking episode finally. But tonight was bad. I haven’t been this bad in honestly months and months. I actually was feeling like I was in the road to beating this. This was a bad relapse. I couldn’t seem to stop and I haven’t felt that way in awhile. I picked at two pretty significant places on the side of my face, then around my mouth and chin in many little spots more than I care to count. I picked a little on my cheek too...this is where I have been soooo good at restraining myself because I know my cheeks and center of my face are what get to me the most when I pick There. I pushed at all the little black heads on my nose leaving it red and irritated but thankfully no skin was broken. I also have a healing picked spot from yesterday on my forehead (when this whole episode started creeping on and I picked a bit). I have hydrocolloid bandaids allllll over my face. Eleven to be exact because I started to need to just cover anything that was remotely bugging me. I have trentinoin cream all over as well trying to heal the damage ASAP. I cleaned my nose with tea tree oil after all the extractions and then put snail gel on it in hopes to disenfect and soothe. I am so mad at myself. I have an extremely busy week ahead of me and honestly have been going nonstop for a couple months. I feel like I can’t catch my breathe and I know that’s what triggers it sometimes when I am over stimulated. I have a plan in place to try to get back on track. I just have to stop again. I have to go back to my timed getting ready for bed routine and not give myself the freedom to just go ahead and pick the second I let my guard down. Praying for a miracle tonight.