ang123 November 02, 2009Log in or register to post commentsPlease do not hate yourself! Please! Even with the scars you are already beautiful. I have also many scars from 18 years of picking. I also hate myself when I pick and demolish my face. Yet somehow I keep telling myself I am learning to deal with this. I will eventually find strength to quit. Just try to look as less as possible in the mirror. If I have to look I just look from 1 miter distance. Second just keep telling yourself that you are beautiful. We all are beautiful, very unique creatures. World would be boring if everybody was looking like a superstar. I used to put so much make up on. Even have my hair all over my face. I just could not face myself. 4 day ago I had yet another terrible picking session for 3 or 4 hours. But I found somehow the courage to calm down myself, and to tell myself that I can do it! And you can do it. And I also pulled all my hair back and no more make up. I said no more. Make up on the scars looks so disgusting. I thing I cover stuff but I end up looking like a Chinese doll. I told myself it is important what I think about myself, not what other people think. I just want to be free and accept myself just the way I am, with all the issues I have. I can just start living, day by day. My face is with scars and red spots which will take months to fade. But I do not care. I love it. So what if I have a spot. Yes my scars are bad, but I was learning to live. It took me 18 years to find strength and I hope I will continue like that, just day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. And you know suddenly my husband told me that I am beautiful, that I look so nice without all that make up. Just believe in yourself, just try to find a kind word for yourself. You are beautiful! I believe in you!