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September 11, 2012

Hi arkag, welcome to the forum. Although I'm a 23 year old male, your story is very similar to mine. I started picking in high school but it didn't get really bad until my junior year of college. My 22nd year of life was a disaster. I picked my arms like an obsession and now I have hundreds of scars that riddle them. It basically looks like I've been putting out cigarettes on my arms for the last two years. It's embarrassing and quite hard to live with. I like to be active and enjoy the outdoors but im too ashamed by what I've done, and can't imagine what people would think, so I haven't been able to enjoy a lot of the things I love lately. However I too am committed to quitting, but i also accept that the damage i have done is permanent, I think that's an important step in moving forward. I also want to do it on my own, because I'm pretty sure a doctor can't help much and I don't want to be on medication. I just want to offer some support your way and let you know you're not alone. The journal is a good way for you to keep tabs on progress and reflect back in the future. It's also nice to be able to talk to people who are struggling with the same thing. I can tell you from experience that this forum has really helped me come to terms with CSP, so you've done a good thing by posting here. Just know that no one here will judge you, your honesty is applauded, and we're here to talk if you need us.
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September 12, 2012

Hi! Thank you so much for your response I really Appreciate it. It's almost comforting to know that I'm not going through it alone but I hope for the sake of everyone that we can all make improvements in our own way. It's an unfortunate outlet of destruction for anyone who is doing it. If you ever want to talk about anything feel free to message me.
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September 12, 2012

Day one Alright, long day! I had my final interview for a job which I think went really Well despite my skin not looking the greatest it could have. I didn't not pick any problem areas at all today which is awesome, but I can usually get by day one of trying to quit pretty easily. I think a BIG goal for me would be making it To one week! I know I can do it though. Talk soon, night.
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September 13, 2012

Day 2! Alright, today has been harder as I expected -- I worked all day which was a good distraction but after coming home I have literally been fighting off the urge to pick so badly. I have so far been successful in not going into a 'picking trance'....which is what I will call the times when I sit down and pick and totally lose track of time. I just need to shower and head to bed and I will be through Day 2 Successfully. I'm hoping I will hear about my job interview tomorrow, I REALLY HOPE SO! That would put me in great spirits. A lot of people on this forum say it takes 28 days to break a habit so I would like to make that my long-ish term goal as of right now (2/28 days = 7.14%) BUT my first big achievement will be if I can make it to one week, which I have faith I can!
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September 13, 2012

Hello! I too am starting to quit! This is my "Day 2" also! All the best to you. I agree-posting on this forum has helped me tremendously to come to terms with my issues. I also go into "picking trances" and have been catching myself and trying not to do that. I have phantom itches in my pick spots that are driving me a bit nuts. I've been massaging my hands and using a smooth stone to rub my fingers over, and those seem to be helping the urges. Good luck with your new job!! :)
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September 13, 2012

Olivegreen, A little tip for phantom itches, try softly itching the skin around the spot. Just make sure you do it when not in a trance as you'll most likely pick it if your trancing, but its a really helpful technique, its basically the skin around the spot working on healing the spot that's itching, there's no harm in gently itching the skin surrounding it. :) It helps with keeping your sanity. :)
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September 14, 2012

This is great advice. I think the hardest part is the mentality where you think 'I'm just Going to pick this one spot to make it look better then I won't touc anything else' It Never happens that way for me, though I feel like I can get better on this self control thing. Im just going to keep trying
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September 14, 2012

I have that problem, Lately I have been stressed and have started picking my face again, I Don't feel guilty about it, just annoyed cause my skin was finally looking good, but I find myself saying that I will just pick this one, it will make it look less hideous, then it bleeds and my make up comes off and then its obvious because its red. No fun, But ill get there again :) Im only going to scratch around them. :) and get my vitamin e cream on to them asap! haha
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September 14, 2012

Thank you, Emmi! I'll be using this technique all day. :)
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September 14, 2012

Good luck to you too! I am on my Third day and I have scratched a few spots but again I have completely avoid going Into a full on picking trance and have definitely avoided my problem areas at all costs. It's crazy to see how fast the skin can heal when you just don't pick it. One side of my face isn't looking so great right now because I had a breakout and picked at it last week, which is unfortunate especially because although I tend to pick my face I don't usually pick it bad enough for it to look like it does now. I am going to see some friends on the weekend so I'm hoping that no makeup and keeping it Moisturized will help to make it look alright. I'm sure that with makeup it should be ok. Again thanks for your support and good luck!
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September 14, 2012

Thanks, Arkag! Have a great weekend and enjoy your time with friends!! The great part is, you won't have to be thinking about your skin!!! haha! Yay!
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September 14, 2012

DAY THREE Alright, I have scratched a few spots but nothing really in my problem areas which are healing REALLY well. I'm so happy! I bought some heal fast polysporin today to help the process go along. Nothing is more satisfying than seeing the spots start to heal I think that is my biggest motviation. I have picked a bit on my face but I am more concerned about focusing on stopping picking the other areas of my body right now. Like I said before my face is usually fine it just so happens to be broken out and now great at this moment. I'm going to exfoliate it tonight because they is some dry skin that is flaking off / bothering me and doesn't look great under makeup. ALSO, I GOT THE JOB -- very very very exciting news. This is my first 'real' job ever so its a big change in my life and I hope that with these big changes I can also end the need to pick my skin. Start a whole new chapter - new job, new home, new habits -- a better me. I hope everyone else is doing well! I'm not sure if this forum allows private messaging but if any of you want to talk you can email me at laekqu@gmail.com (For privacy I haven't been using my real name on this forum...also my email is not my real name..since my real name is very uncommon it would be easily searchable)
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September 16, 2012

First off congrats on the new job, and it seems like the healing process is off to a good start for you. I too got a new job that I'm excited about, it starts on Monday (tomorrow since its 2am here), but sadly I had a really bad picking day today and now I'm dreading the thought of my first impression being the way I am right now. If it wasn't a potential dream-job I wouldn't even bother going in. But now i dont know what they're going to think of me. Ugh, feels like sh!t. Anyways stay strong, you seem to be doing really good, and I might just have to take you up on that offer to chat one of these days.. It's just nice talking to people who understand the compulsion.
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September 17, 2012

Thanks so much! I hope your first day goes well, try not to over stress About what your skin looks like, try to overshine that with personality! I was with friends all day yesterday and today so that always minimizes my picking to about zero since I'm too distracted and busy to even bother which is a great thing. I haven't been completely perfect about not picking (have picked some things on my face) but I have definitely reduced picking a ton especially in my really bad problem areas which are starting to heal well. I almost talked to my brother about my skin picking tonight. We were talking about how I have a lot of stress and anxiety and I hinted that I felt like I also had some compulsive tendencies but then I just told him I didn't really feel comfortable discussing it in detail yet so he dropped it. I have two weeks until I start work. I'm helping Spots heal by using polysporin and will try to wear no makeup for the next two weeks to help the healing process.
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September 18, 2012

Just got back from a great weekend with friends. Spending the next two weeks at my Parents house before starting work so I plan to avoid wearing makeup at all costs which will hopefully help my face heal. I have avoided picking my really bad problem areas almost entirely which is great! I am now going to make more of a conscious effort to avoid picking my face. I'm hoping my current breakout will start to go down because I tend to pick less when y Face is clearer.
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September 18, 2012

thats really great to hear :) good positive attitudes are great for healing :) good luck, let us know how you go with it :)
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September 20, 2012

I want to cry right now, I'm so upset. I had a major picking episode in my worst areas and it just looks like shit now. I feel like I've ruined most of the progress I've made. I feel sick about it and so guilty. I am at such a loss about what to do. I don't know if I can do this on my own I don't know if I should go see a doctor or if they'll be able to do anything to help. At this point it's impossible to have any close intimate relationships because I'm to embarrassed to ever explain my skin issue or have anyone actually see it. I feel like this is destroying my life.
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September 20, 2012

Arkag, please dont beat your self up, everyone has moments like this, I had stopped for 7 months, but theres stresses in life and things got to much, Ive found myself picking again, its OK, the progress you have made is still worth something, its shown you that you can go a certain amount of time without picking, it take 28 days to kill a habit. So, tomorrow start again. as of tomorrow I want you to aim 1 day longer then your last achievement, if you can go two days longer thats great! but even if you make it only one, or even the same amount, your still achieving something. your doing great, dont beat your self up over it. :)
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September 20, 2012

Hey, thank you so much for your response. I'm feeling a lot better today and I'm making another concerted effort starting today to reduce and stop picking. I posted 4 post it notes on my mirror with '1' '2' '3' '4'. My goal is to get to 4 days without going into any periods of extending picking. In the morning I look in the mirror and if there are any offensive whiteheads on my face I tend to deal with them quickly then commit to leave everything else be for the rest of the day. No picking no scratching -- nothing! I will let you guys know how the progress goes. (On the plus I have not been wearing any makeup so I think that's definitely helping the healing process)
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September 21, 2012

This is a great way of helping your situation! well done :) keep up the great work :) Im so glad to hear your in a more positive mood :)
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September 20, 2012

Hi sweetheart! I completely understand and I am going through the exact same thing as we speak (type). Your progress isn't ruined!! Just pick yourself up and keep going...it's worth it! Think about what caused you to slip so you can be aware of it in the future. For me, it's going into the bathroom with a brightlight and leaning towards the mirror...that has disaster written all over it. However, I'm pretty stressed right now and I slipped on Sunday. I went to the aftercare clinic last night and had to explain to a doctor what I did. (There was no possible story/scenario that I could have come up with to explain it) So, here I sit at home, called in sick from work, horrified at what I did to myself. But I'm healing with antibiotics and forgiveness (forgiving myself). Just know that you are not alone!
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September 20, 2012

Thank you so much for you response. My trigger is the exact same thing -- bright lights and mirrors. I just need to stay away from them. I hope that your healing goes well. I'm getting ready to restart my progress again. I am so determined to stop this or get it to a level that is manageable for me.
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September 20, 2012

You Can! You can absolutely stop this and take control, so can I , and everyone else who wants it. Once these current sores heal, I'm determined not to create another one. I'm so tired of always being embarrassed of how I look and hiding inside. My sores are starting to really leave scars and this staph infection has scared me. I'm hoping and praying that the antibiotics work and that it will heal, even if there is a scar. I'll keep the scar as a reminder of this frightening and humiliating experience...as motivation not to do it ever again! Hope you know that you have at least one person rooting for your success...please let me know how you're doing.
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September 21, 2012

I've also gotten a staph infection before, they are super horrible. I hope it gets better quickly for you. Feel free to email me if you ever want to chat. laekqu@gmail.com
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September 21, 2012

Hi arkag!! Keep a positive attitude! Here's my (probably maternal) attitude about your relationship comment--if you get into a relationship where the other person doesn't accept you for who you are, and where you don't feel comfortable (maybe in time) to explain your skin issue, then that person isn't the person for you anyway. You can do it, don't give up!!! :)
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September 27, 2012

UPDATE I am feeling really good about my picking, the last couple days I have been completely pick free- not even consciously, I just have not felt the compulsion to pick for some reason. I almost did today -- I was so close but then I just stopped myself. I think that NOT having tweezers or anything near by to pick with helped me to reject the idea because I would need to consciously get up and go get the tweezers. Thank goodness! A huge motivation for me stopping is also that I really need to see a doctor about an unrelated health issue, but it would require all of my scabs to be seen so I really want to stop that way I won't be embarrassed to see the doctor (I realize this is ridiculous but it's the honest truth about how embarrassed I am about the situation)
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September 27, 2012

yay! Good for you! Hey, any type of motivation is good, even doctor-related! :) :)
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September 30, 2012

arkag, Congratulations on your progress. You mention, however, that you still have tweezers in the house (not nearby, but still somewhere, that is) which, for me, anyway, sounds like a picking session waiting to happen. One way I've gotten around needing to tweeze my eyebrows but not keeping tweezers around 24/7 is to buy a super-cheap pair of tweezers, like 3.99 or something, when I need to tweeze my eyebrows and then I break them in half and throw them out. It might seem wasteful, spending that much every three to four weeks or so, but I figure it's a lot less than an actual salon visit for eyebrow waxing would be. Anyway, just a suggestion. Keep up the good work!
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October 01, 2012

Hi valentine! Yes, I agree that having tweezers out of the house would be ideal. I was stating with my parents for a bit and so my mom had tweezers around and I also live with 7 female roommates so its almost unavoidable. Though I am seriously considering throwing away my own pair now that you've brought this up, seems helpful.
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October 08, 2012

HI, I hope everyone is doing well. Just wanted to update on my progress! I have been almost entirely pick free for the last week, today I did pick a bit which is unfortunate but other than the spots I just picked my skin is healing really well. I looked good enough at the end of last week that I was able to see a doctor without being embarrassed of marks. As I mentioned before my biggest problem area is my bikini line area....I hate saying that outloud but that is my issue. Luckily for this I can hide it on a day to day basis which almost makes it harder to stop picking because I know there are few times when the area actually has to be seen. With that being said --- laser hair removal has helped tremendously; this is because I know it is the whole female hair maintenance thing (shaving / waxing) that causes irritation and then picking. By removing the hair entirely I am able to get rid of the initial irritation and thus my picking is reduced so I am thankful for this. I plan to go this entire week without picking even once. I am going to try to exhibit all the self control I can possibly find to do this and I'm sure it is going to go well. Here is to healing and recovering!
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October 10, 2012

Good for you! Keep up the good work! :) xoxo