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July 30, 2013

First day of no picking done.
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July 30, 2013

You can do it, I am currently holding myself accountable by using this as well! We can support each other on here and it gives me guilt to have to admit on here that I picked again. Keep it up! I am also on my second day. We can do it! :) Also, I don't know if this would help you, but I mainly pick when there is something dry there, like a scab that I can grab onto. I have been putting lotion on whenever I run my hands over something that feels like I want to pick. I immediately run to the bathroom or reach in my purse and pull out my lotion and put it on there. That smooths it out and softens the scab, so it's just not as appealing. You could try that. It also keeps my hands busy because I am still doing something with the spot, just not picking it. :)
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July 31, 2013

Thanks for the support, I'll definitely try using lotion.
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August 01, 2013

No problem! I am really getting excited about this. I have not picked since posting this. I have been using both lotion and vitamin e oil. I feel healthier and happier when I don't pick. I am crossing my fingers that we can both keep this up! :)
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August 01, 2013

3rd day of no picking done! I'm feeling better already, I figure after about a week or two of absolutely no picking I can break the habit for good.
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August 02, 2013

I would definitely say a week would be a great goal! After that, change your goal to a month with no picking! Woohooo, you are doing awesome! :) The 3rd day for me was not as successful as yours! I got a small whitehead, but I pricked it with a needle and just barely pushed (not squeezed) the pimple. It drained and I immediately put some medicine on it. I hate to say it, but I was actually a little proud of myself for that. I would normally dig it out until it was completely flat and raw. Instead, I left the raised bump alone with the medicine and VOILA! The bump subsided and now the skin looks almost normal! It is finally starting to register that you don't need to dig it out until it's flat and instead the swelling will reduce on it's own. I got tested today, and I think I passed (barely)! So, I can't say I didn't pick, but I still resisted. You should start rewarding yourself. I keep telling myself that if I can stop picking, then I can go get a dress I have been wanting! :)
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August 01, 2013

Do you guys mind if I comment here too?
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August 02, 2013

Go ahead, it's a public forum, we are here to tell our stories and listen to others. I feel like it's cheap therapy! :)
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August 05, 2013

Yeah, it makes me feel better for some reason.
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August 02, 2013

Well it's been I think 4 days of no picking so far, I've been making great progress I have no more scabs on my arms and my back acne is gone but there is still red marks left over from the scabs. But I gotta admit when I was taking my shirt off to take a shower I picked a 5 KP bumps on my chest and then I realized what I was doing and made myself stop, it's like I subconsciously do it before even giving myself time to think. It's pretty demoralizing that I can't even go 4 days without picking something, I guess this is attempt 2 day 1. Some things I'm gonna do differently: use lotion on chest: I've just been using it on arms and has been working great, but haven't used it on chest which is where I picked. Stop looking in mirrors: before I go into the bathroom to take a shower I'll tell myself to just go straight to the shower and not look into the mirror seeing any bumps on my skin makes me want to pick. I'll also write something on my hand reminding me to not pick hopefully this attempt will do the trick. @rubberducke: Yes please do!
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August 05, 2013

Sorry I have been MIA, I went out of town this weekend (I know, it's dreadful going out of town with friends when you have this!) But, don't only count the days that you do not pick at all. To be quite honest, at this stage in the game, since we are both on our first week, I have just been working on telling myself "no". I will pick a little, especially if there is a white head, but I will not allow myself to sit there and dig the entire thing raw. You are NOT on Day 1 again, so don't even try saying that. If you stopped yourself and walked away, then count the day and move on! I popped a white head on my cheek, but normally I would dig and dig until I thought that I got it all out. I am so afraid of waking up in the morning to a HUGE pimple that I try and dig every last bit of puss out. Instead, I wake up with a huge scab! So, this time, I only popped it and put Salicylic Cream on it and walked away. I woke up and there was another white head there. I popped it, then put a little makeup on it. Tonight when I washed my face, it was flat and healing. SO, just because there is a whitehead and it comes back, don't dig and dig, instead, just keep slowly draining it, even if it takes 2-3 times. THIS IS MY LESSON TODAY. Keep your head up, this is not day 1.
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August 05, 2013

I've noticed that they tend to come back when you pop them. Then I end up popping the same one multiple times until it gets infected, because I'm to hard on it. But that is a good lesson, although I am on day one right now.
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August 05, 2013

I can't even go one day without picking my face. I can't go a single minute without picking my fingers. You're doing great.
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August 05, 2013

I went on a short trip with my aunt, and mostly avoided picking, except last night. Then I covered my face with my hair and refused to look at anyone, then got into bed facing the wall. It was humiliating, because I was pretty sure they knew what I was doing. School starts in ten days and I really want to have decent skin, because most people at school probably know me as the girl with weird scabs and I hate the looks I get. People usually don't say anything, although no one has a problem with telling me that my chewed up fingers gross them out. It makes me want to wear gloves all the time. Maybe a ski mask too.
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August 05, 2013

I know how you feel, I just got back from a weekend with friends and at the end of the night, I told them I was taking a bath. I filled the bath with water, washed up and got out ASAP. I spent the rest of my "bath time" reapplying my concealer over all of my old scabs, just so I could face them again. This is the only time I sleep in makeup because I cannot face them at all, even in the dark with these on. So, you are already braver than me! I ended up on this site, after last week when I mixed several acne medications on my face until I was left with a gash the size of a quarter on my cheek along with the entire left side of my face completely swollen. It was so bad that I was put on steriod cream and was given injections at the Dr. I had to walk into work looking like this and told my boss I had an "allergic reaction" to Mederma because I cannot face my acne. After that lie, I had to tell the truth to my Dr. who just could not believe it. After Googling hundreds of things, I found this outlet. Stay up on here, it has really helped me. I read just about every post because it makes me feel less alone. I have opened up about it now with my mom and sister, who ACTUALLY HAS THE SAME PROBLEM. I almost died when she said that. You will have a couple rough days, but hold yourself accountable on here and confess everything. I always think about @Iwillpickneveragain when I get in front of the mirror and how bad I will feel cheering him on, but then going and reeking havoc on my face. I haven't dug into my skin in 5 days now. I have picked, but only to gently pop a whitehead with a small needle and drain it with tissue. Things I think "normal people" do. I have left my scabs alone too. One thing that I suggest doing is when you run your hands over a scab and you feel how dry it is and you just want to rip it off...put a dab of lotion on it. It softens the scab and it makes it a lot less appetizing to me. It may work for you too! Stay up on here! We need each other. Since I got on here and my picking has gone down, my skin has started to heal. It is no where near perfect, but WAY better. In 10 days, we can have you looking better, just come on here instead of picking. When you get the urge, read about others on here. It helps, I promise!
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August 05, 2013

I agree. I read what other people say, and say things myself, it comforts me. But I confess, I picked last night. Literally, I was on this site, locked the computer, and went to the bathroom for a half hour to pick. I felt terrible because while I was doing it, I kept thinking of everyone on here, and how we all want to stop, but I couldn't fight it. I always have something on my face to "help". Last night I washed it and but on benzoyl peroxide, but it still looks bad. I have to spend today with my dad. When I went on vacation with him to see his new wife and family, I didn't pick at all. Maybe because I felt like I had someone to impress, and I didn't want them to judge me. But the very night I got back, I picked again before bed. But I still didn't stop picking my fingers. Picking my face makes me feel worst, and is most obvious, but my fingers are hardest to stop. I only need one hand to do it, and even as I type this I'm still doing it. I think it's hardest to stop because it's so easy to do. I'm gonna go put on lotion.
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August 06, 2013

So I've officially gone a day without picking my face, but I still have a few hours left to go. This is when I pick the most, so I have to distract myself. Avoid mirrors at all costs.
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August 06, 2013

Just kidding. Sigh. So just now I picked a little, mostly around old scabs. But still, I hate that I am so weak. Fortunately, I managed to leave before I got totally sucked in, so I'm not too mangled, but I'm still pissed at myself.
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August 06, 2013

Damn that sucks. I used to pick daily as well, using this site and having people know about my problem is the only thing really keeping me from picking more, I guess it makes me feel guilty when I post that I've picked. What helps me is carrying a little bottle of lotion and whenever I'm about to pick (always in the bathroom) I rub some on the bumps I was going to pick. Also if you don't mind having short fingernails trimming them daily so that they're too short to pick with helps tons for me because no matter how much I want to pick, I cant.
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August 07, 2013

I am so glad that you are doing so well! I am doing so much better and FOR ONCE am looking forward to taking my little cousins to a waterpark. I am not as worried about my makeup running and showing my scabs. Right now, I have pimples, but they are normal-people pimples, not the raw, huge craters I used to make in my face that would bleed everytime I smiled. Now that my wounds are closed up, I still have some red marks, so I switched the lotion to Vitamin E oil. However, when I talked to my Dr. about it, she said to be careful with the natural oils. Coconut oil is apparently really bad on the skin because it helps bacteria spread! Which, I didn't know, so I was mixing Vitamin E with Coconut! I then checked my Vitamin E oil and Coconut oil was also an ingredient. I went and got "Nature's Bounty" E-Oil 30,000 IU and instead of Coconut oil, it has Lemon oil! So, this has been helping tons and does not make me break out. If you want, you could try this too! The bottle was $10 at Walgreens. Congrats! I am so glad we have each other!!!
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August 07, 2013

I'll definitely try that, don't know if I can post links but this is it right? http://images.iherb.com/l/NRT-00810-2.jpg Do you just apply it all over your face?
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August 07, 2013

Yes!! That is it exactly! Don't put it all over, only on the spots. Try and massage it on there. I have been massaging oil on my spots when I watch TV instead of picking them. I would try it on a small area first, just to make sure you don't have a reaction.
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August 07, 2013

Will do :)
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August 07, 2013

Yay! You stepped away! That is awesome! You are not weak because you were able to tell yourself no! Consider the first step in the process complete. Now, you KNOW that you CAN stop and you just need to remember that. Every time you want to pick, distract yourself and remind yourself that you CAN step away because you have done it before. Don't be pissed! Be proud because this is so much harder than people make it out to be. Normal people don't understand, so we have to help each other on here. Tomorrow is a new day, so just stay positive!
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August 06, 2013

It's been 5 days without picking, this is the longest I've ever gone. I also got a tan in my backyard which is helping a lot with red mark/scars on my chest and back.
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August 08, 2013

My problem is that whenever I manage to let the scabs heal, I get real zits and blackheads. Then they get bigger until I crack and pop them all. Then it takes me a month or three to stop again.... until I start again. That's my cycle of sorts.
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August 08, 2013

I've gone two now, three if you count Monday. I have a really annoying blackhead on my shoulder, but I'm not going to pick it.
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August 09, 2013

Four. We're all doing good right now.
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August 10, 2013

This really is great. I can't believe how much easier it is to over come things when talking about it. I am not going to lie, I still pick, but only for a brief second. Literally not even a minute. I don't use tweezers, needles or any tools anymore. All I will do is gently pop open any white head, (WHICH HAS ONLY BEEN 2) and barely press on it. I used to dig and dig until I left a bloody pit in my skin. BOTH of those white heads are completely gone and healed up so quickly! I do still have some dry spots from old scabs that are finally healing over, but I have NO RAW SKIN. I cannot believe how much better my complexion has gotten from not touching my face all the time to pick it. Keep up all of your great work too!! :)
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August 10, 2013

That's great! It's awesome because I feel so much less self conscious when my skin is mostly clear and I'm not thinking about it constantly.
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August 10, 2013

I now how you feel, it seems like just yesterday I would pick every single bump, whitehead, whatever on my body and it would be covered in red bumps and I wouldn't even want to leave my room so that any of my family would see me. But now It's been like my 8-10th day? of no picking, my face is completely clear of zits, I still get little white bumps on my forehead and cheeks but they're small bumps that are just natural that about everyone has. I feel great I no longer worry about leaving the house or anything I just gotta stop the cause of this back acne I still get a couple big zits every week around my back, maybe that's just normal for most people my age. Glad to hear we're all doing so well we can keep this up :)
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August 11, 2013

Just creeping on your topic haha and I just want to say how encouraging it is to read. I'm sitting here feeling so proud of you guys and want to up my game because of your success. Well done, keep it up :)
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August 12, 2013

Thanks :)
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August 12, 2013

I just picked my face again a little, and I've been picking my fingers all day. I'm so pissed at myself right now because I had been doing really good.
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August 12, 2013

Just focus on one area and dedicate your time to that. Once you no longer pick one area move to the next. So I would stop picking your face and make that a goal. Let it go for a couple weeks and then make a new goal to not pick your fingers! It takes time! I got fried at the water park this weekend, so I am praying I don't start to peel bc I know I will relapse if I do!! Fingers crossed that I don't peel!
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August 12, 2013

This is true, when I have a scab free chest it makes it so much easier not to pick at it because I don't want to ruin my scab-less chest, same goes for arms and back. But if there is a scab or two I start thinking "it's already messed up, so picking some more won't hurt" Anyway I'm on my 12th day without picking, I'm concentrating more on weight lifting so my mind has been occupied with that rather than picking.
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August 13, 2013

Yeah. Okay, I'll try not to do my face.
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August 18, 2013

15 days of no picking I think? I lost track. I have still been picking a bit occasionally but I have made through many days without picking once. My main concern now is my back, seems like I just scratched it a few times and about 10 red bumps popped up overnight, whether they are actual pimples or not I'll have to find out. Hope everyone reading is doing good.
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August 18, 2013

I'm starting to do really bad again and I don't know why. If I stopped right now, my face would probably heal fairly quickly..... but I keep picking. I don't know what to do.
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August 19, 2013

It just occurred to me that I haven't been taking my antidepressants lately and I've been pretty moody and unbalanced, so that might also be why I'm starting to pick more.
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August 20, 2013

Just now I started picking again, but l was like "noooo". So I only picked a little and now here I am. This sucks. I don't know why I'm starting to do it so much again.
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August 24, 2013

Just as it seemed I was breaking the habit I picked again back, shoulder, chest, everything. School is in 11 days so I'm gonna try to not pick in that time, hopefully all these sores will heal by then.
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August 25, 2013

it made me happy to read these posts. i stopped picking two weeks ago. never been happier. i feel free and 'normal' again. goodluck and keep it up! :) x
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August 30, 2013

How did you stop? I've been basically trying to stop cold turkey but it don't seem to be working too well, but definitely getting better. Thanks for posting.
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August 28, 2013

I keep picking! Every time I see a mirror I lean in close and pop a blackhead or two, then get sucked in and pop ten more. I'm so mad at myself! I cut my nails really short today, and that makes it way harder to pick. Problem is, I chewed them off, so I'm worried about that becoming one of my picking areas again. I reeeaally want to stop before it gets awful again.
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August 31, 2013

i know how frustrating that is! it really is self control and its so hard to physically stop yourself. for me personally, i just think of the consequences and think of the things i will be able to do and feel confident with if i dont pick, for eg my boyfriends coming over tomorrow itd be nice to not have sore swollen wounds on my face and spend time with him without feeling self conscious, or the weather is going to be nice this weekend itd be great to be able to go swimming without worrying about makeup coming off and my skin being red and sore on show for the world to see.. etc. i have not picked since my post about stopping and starting a new happy life. anything is possible xx
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August 29, 2013

Where are you from? Which country?
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August 30, 2013

US
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August 31, 2013

I'm finally starting to look better. I still pick a few zits every day but getting better.
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September 04, 2013

Good to hear, keep it up.

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