Has anyone acctually made it?

Live a Happier Life - Free from Picking

Stop picking with online therapy program, based on CBT.


July 03, 2010

Best of luck to you! I have the same feeling...that my skin is dirty when there is a blackhead or blemish present. It feels awful and I simply have to remove it because I know it is 'dirty' and isn't supposed to be there. My mom also picked at my blackheads when I was younger! This told me 2 things. 1) There was something wrong with my skin and 2) It was okay to pick it. My mom and my grandmother were always very hyper critical of my appearance so I think this was a contributing factor for me as well. I have been picking for at least 9 years now and I just turned 22. I have tried many products; Proactiv actually helped for a while but then my skin started peeling off in big pieces; it was awful, so painful and red and I looked like I had a skin disease! So then I was back to square one. I finally tried Neutrogena Advanced Solutions products as well as Neutrogena oil-free acne stress control for the daytime. So I have been using salicylic acid in the daytime and benzoyl peroxide at night (which is part of the kit) for about 3 years now. The benzoyl peroxide is so hard on the skin though. It really dries it out and I can even see fine lines starting in a couple of places. My acne has been under control for the most part with occasional break outs. Also, I was taking birth control for a while...It helped some I think, but the last one I took (tri nessa) caused my skin to break out more. Not good...I have always picked, but in the past few months it got to the point where I was digging things out of my pores with a needle. I didn't really realize what I was doing at the time either until one day some of the pores on the left side of my nose started to look really large. I knew something was terribly wrong and I finally put two and two together. In the beginning of my picking years I only used my nails too, but it escalated to the point of using tweezers to pick scabs off and needles. The needle was originally only for big ones...just to poke the center and make it easier to pop (that sounds gross...lol) but I guess that one day I decided to take it to the next level and dig things out. Not good...! I don't recommend it! Leave the needles out of it! I know I made the problem so much worse because I actually stretched some of the pores which means now they can accomodate more gunk...and it's more noticable to me. So I can see how picking is really a vicious cycle now. For some of us, especially those with acne, we want to pick to clean our skin but really we are making more problems for ourselves by spreading bacteria and damaging the skin. So in the end, it is worse, but I know...at the time it feels so much better to have the 'dirty' stuff out. I totally understand where you are coming from. Ugh! And I do have some scarring. It's not severe but I have a little bit on my chin where I tend to get break outs, a little on the cheeks and now I have the enlarged pores on my nose from my needle digging days. Very shameful. I always knew I was a picker, I just didn't understand how damaging it was to me (emotionally and physically). I still pick, but I don't do it as often and I never use the needle now. I learned that lesson at least! So...I haven't made it but I wanted to tell you I understand and offer you the best of luck. Also, there have been times when my skin was more clear and I was under less stress so I tended to pick less. For me, stress is a big trigger (both for acne and picking). Try to be sure you are as stress free as possible (I know...much easier said than done). I have found that I pick less when I have make-up on. But I know for some people, this doesn't stop them though. Find a skin care regimen that works for you, I know that none of them are perfect, but try to find one that helps to keep some of the acne under control. Stick to it, even when you are so tired that you just want to fall into bed. I was very good about sticking to my skincare regimen and I think that helped the most. Consistency is key. You could always see a dermatologist if you think it will help. They may know of a product or treatment that would be really helpful for your skin type. Mine tried to put me on Retin A but I'm not ready for all the initial break out, flaking/peeling. It sounds like you already have some good ideas about avoiding the mirror and spending too much time in the bathroom. I used to have fake nails and that seemed to help because I couldn't get a grip on the pimple or blackhead (so to speak). Hope that I helped some or at least encouraged you to continue! And yes, our skin can be clear without destructive intervention. It just takes a lot of time and patience. When my skin was clear (in the past), I was much happier. I was proud of myself for taking care of it and for not picking as much. I always feel so guilty after a pick fest (I think we all have been there way too many times!) Much love!