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Jazzy , 17 Jul 2010

I am an artist!

Okay... Here we go. Yeah, I pick and eat like the worst of us here. Is it bad that I don't give a shit? I have problems out the ass. I'm depressed as hell. I don't fit societies wants. I have crazy ass incurable acne. I'm 17, I'm a guy, and I play trumpet. It might be the only thing I live for. To come up with my next good sounding band and song. I think I'm crazy. I had some trouble earlier with a "man in the mirror" about 8 months ago. He used to tell me to forget all my friends so I could study trumpet more. So I could be the best. He's gone away now. Although I know I could see him if I wanted to. I recently drank a few times. I love it. I love the way it makes me so fucking numb and impenetrable. I've been told I have ADD or something. I'm very disorganized, goal setting is difficult for me and often I fail classes cuz of it. Whatever. I know I hold my own future in my hands. Drugs are a popular option, but I refuse. I am an artist. I don't want to lose my self. I feel so crazy. I know I could put a gun to my head and end it. But I won't. Not yet. Maybe because I'm too scared. Or maybe because I want to see wher life goes. Maybe because I love my family and I don't want them to hurt. Idk. I'm a seeker, you know? My whole family is christian. I don't believe that. Idk. I found this site, and I felt like I needed to let this shot off my chest. I've had some difficult shot in life. I just try. I try to see the blue sky. I try to forget the pain. With each scab I eat, I know I'm just another crazy Fuck in this crazy world. I jus wish I had a bottle of something right now hahahahaha lol.
1 Answer
July 18, 2010
You should probably see a psychiatrist to help you with your depression, anxiety and other problems. I am a skin picker myself and suffer from depression and ADD. If you are seeing people that are not really there and hearing them speak to you, then you could possibly be suffering from schizophrenia. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or are severely depressed, pleeeeasse seek help. There are medications and help out there that CAN help you. It is not your fault that you are having these problems but with help you should be able to function better in your life.

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