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It's 6 am in the morning, and I haven't slept the past three nights... I'm new as in a few minutes, but I never realized how much of a problem I have until I looked at this forum. I spent the last three hours totally destroying my face. I couldn't stop myself, armed with nothing more than my nails and a small metal instrument, I scoured every millimeter of my face looking for all the tiniest of imperfections. Oh! and it wasn't just my face no; it was my face, my chest, my legs. Every time I plucked, picked, or gouged made me feel just a little better. I couldn't stop myself I was on fire, it was a picking fantasy! Yes, it felt good when I did it, but I was so ashamed after I did it I wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. As I write this my face radiates heat from the sores on my body. I'm not sure I will be able to look at myself for some time after this. Whats worse is that tomorrow I will have to look my poor mother in the face and show her the damage... The stress release is what I crave, but the psychological damage will rip and hack at my self esteem... well whats left of it. Sorry, i'm off to a morbid start. My venting is over so i'm going to bed. Hopefully I won't dream tonight.