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I have dermatillomania and have been picking since I was 3 or 4, I'm now 17.... so as you can imagine I have A LOT of scars, mostly on my upper arms/lower back. The only people that know about this are my parents and one friend. Well, this friend has been bugging me all summer to go swimming /w her, I've used every excuse in the book to avoid a bathing suit. You'd think she would get the hint that I don't want anything to do with swimming or bikinis.....yet once again I've been invited to the beach for a "girls day out". My girlfriend is in town, /w school and work I don't get to see her much plus it's almost fall and this might be the last chance we have to go swimming this year, so I finally agreed to the "girls day out".....and I might just maybe, wear a proper bathing suit instead of my usual t-shirt and shorts but I'm terrified of my girlfriend noticing my scars (they're pretty noticeable.....) I don't know what to say or how to explain it. She used to cut, I've herd cutting has similar emotional effects/triggers as dermatillomania so maybe she'll understand? I've never told anyone about my scars or talked about it /w anyone. my parents found out during a check-up a few years ago and my bff walked in on me picking once, the've never treated me any different because of it but I feel my parents are forced to accept it because they're my parents and I'm not dating my bff so it's different. My girlfriend means a lot too me and I'd hate to loose her over something retarded like this, I really need some advice but don't know were to turn because my parents don't know I'm dating her, that's a completely different story so I'm not even going to get into that and I can't get the courage to talk to my bff, even though she has this condition herself. I don't know what to do, I feel like cancelling this whole "girls wknd" crap and spending the wknd in bed just to avoid talking to my gf. Can I get some advice please?