I've picked my face probably since I started high school. I'm now a sophmore in college. I do notice I pick when I'm bored or before/after I get into the shower, before/after I wash my face and when I'm studying which obviously causes me to become stressed which triggers me to pick my face when I should be studying or doing homework. It's gotten harder and harder for me because I pick on a daily basis and my family notices and i feel embarassed. I don't want my friends to notice ever, I'd feel even more embarassed if they knew what I do sometimes instead of going out. As a result, I use countless make up products just to cover my skin imperfections from picking. My parents always tell me I could stop but honestly I feel like I have no control over my face picking. I used to pick my back, chest, and shoulders but since have gained control over picking these areas and shifted my picking to my face only.
I've read alot about CSP and how it can be linked to an eating disorder or BDD. I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder or BDD, but I have to admit I have serious issues with food. Ever since I was in my sophmore year of high school I've become obsessed with dieting and I have frequent urges to be on a diet. I've dedicated alot of time and energy to losing weight. My weight has fluctuated from 110 pounds to 135 pounds probably. I know the anxiety I have about food and the self-esteem issues I have about my body can very well be causing me to pick my face. I definitely have a problem with perfectionism...I just want to be able to stop picking my face and I feel like I'd feel that much better about myself.
It scares me that this can be a lifelong condition but I know sooner or later I will have to admit to this "sickness" and get help. If anyone can identify with my face picking and/or possible BDD please share your story with me.