I am 26 and have been picking my skin for about 4 years. Like most people on here, I thought it was just something weird that I did, but its nice to now know Im not the only one out there!
Anyway, I really want to stop. Why today? Because today is the first day I had to take off work because of this. I just couldnt face seeing people because last night was probably my worst picking session ever - I now have 4 big scars on my face. And that really made it hit home that I need to do something about this before it starts to take over my life.
I have no real reason for picking - I have a good career, a great boyfriend, friends etc etc. But every now and then I do it - I dont even realise im doing it, its like I go into a trance in front of the mirror or something - it only takes 15 mins and then my face is wrecked for a week!
A number of trends I have noticed though:
- I tend to mostly pick at night when I know I wont be disturbed by my flatmate
- I never pick when I stay at my boyfriend's or he stays with me
- It has nothing to do with my mood - I can be feeling great and then pick, and I can also be feeling bad and not pick. However, I always feel great when picking and really crap afterwards
- I am really embarrassed about it and wont talk about it to anyone. No one mentions it to me, so i dont know whether they just dont notice (unlikely) or whether they are just as embarrassed as me.
So.....I have decided to keep a record on here each day to see if publicly having to admit I have picked will stop me from doing it!
I would also be really interested in individually emailing someone with this problem on a regular basis to see if we can help each other - please let me know if you would be interested.
So here goes....
Today my face is bad (due to my picking last night mentioned above). So I spent today trying to put as much antiseptic cream on it as possible to get it to calm down. However, I have managed not to pick more today...so 1 day of progress I guess.