Ok, I dont want to go into so much detail without knowing that someone is listening (actually reading). But basically, I am so thankful for finding this site & forum! It is so nice to not feel alone. I have been dealing with an anxiety disorder all of my life (I am 30 years old) and have recently began coming to terms with having symptoms of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder in particular- severe skin picking. I have ALWAYS been a picker of sorts, but it has been more severe in the last few years. My arms are destroyed, my face and back are scarred and my chest has been my latest problem.
My husband knows I am a picker. If he catches me, he makes me stop. He reminds me of what I am doing to my body and has even been known to take pictures of my back when I dont know so I can see the damage. He is trying to help. I have noticed our sex life has been non-existent. He has recently told me how unattractive my skin is to him and how he is sad because it doesnt feel the way it used to and how when he sees what my picking has done to my skin it makes him sick to his stomach and therefore decreases his sex drive. My first reaction was anger...however he is right! I want my sex life back, I want my self esteem back, I want a lot of things back! It's really hitting me now. I have been searching the web for info and came across this site. I am proud to be a member of this forum! I think it is good to put words to your hidden fears, bad habits and compulsions, because then you can begin to stop!
I hope someone else can identify with my personal situation, and I look forward to sharing my thoughts and reading everyone else's to help support me in my decision to stop picking NOW.