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Okay, so here goes. I'm not a big believer on internet sharing but I've reached a point where I can't do it alone anymore. So I figured what the hell, why not share with other who suffer just the same. I'm 29 and male and have been picking since childhood, you know scabs, mosquito bites, cuts etc. Then thru HS, mostly boredom in class and the acne due to puberty. Then it just got crazy off and on for the next 10 or so years. I've got bad skin anyway, the older I get the worse it gets. Rolling up my shirt sleeves, taking off my shirt, pants, looking in the mirror all cause me to look for something to pick at. Like I said, I've got bad skin. I get ingrown hairs all the time, my forearm and biceps are always red,bumpy or broken out. Same for my legs,bottom and now my back. In some spots it's falling out even. It's like infected pores, little bits of white stuff clogging the pore causing it to go red, get infected and then the hairs die off. I'm getting it on my face now too, along with broken blood vessels that just keeps spreading. I'm prone to anxiety/depression and am now believing I have a personality disorder. I've gone weeks and months without picking, thinking I have it beat and then one day I just go off. I can space out for minutes up to hours, just frantic. I just become totally disconnected from my mind/body/spirit. I get really bad cuts that just bleed and scar and I've got them all over. Mostly my upper arms. I've been sinking into this void lately and it's getting worse and with it the picking. Last night I had a bad episode. There no self-esteem, and very little self worth right now. Anyway, I just wanted to share a bit about myself and some background info. Looking forward to sharing with you all.