So, I have been trying for years to figure out why I pick. I do it in my sleep, when I am wide awake, at work, at school, etc. I try and hide it or I tell white lies about what really happened...(ex. it's poision oak from my dog, or it's a food allergy). When it boils down to it, this is what I can come up with.
I JUST DON'T KNOW.
When people who know about my picking ask why, I can only tell them that I am like a housecat that sits on the carpet and sees that little loop sticking up. He has no other option, no self control, no way of stopping himself from scratching at that loop. He settles in to claw and pull even though he knows he will be scorned if he is caught. But he does it anyway. He just does it anyway.
I am that housecat.