All throughout the day I couldn't wait to get home, and now that Im here, I am miserable. I started feeling out of control the moment I started feeling anger at my husband. He just wants me to be okay with his behaviour, and I want love. I want him to respect me, but I can't control him. I can only take responsibility for myself. I deal with anxiety, fears, and insecurities...and I just don't know why we humans after suffer so badly. It is hard to see the purpose in this suffering.