Warning: sorry, this post is very graphic, please DON'T READ if you're easily triggered! I'm prone to hormonal acne, I usually pick at my face (especially blemishes on cheeks and chin) and dig out ingrown hair from in between my eyebrows.
As a result my face is often swollen and red, I have fresh wounds, scabs, plus many red / brown spots and scars.
So yeah, basically I look like sh*t most of the time, I guess if only I'd manage to really STOP picking for like 2 weeks, my skin will probably clear up and look even better, but I'm still working on this goal.
Anyway, lately all the blemishes I'm getting are some very weird small spots around my smile lines, jaw and in between eyebrows. They don't hurt and don't seem to go away on their own. If I manage to squeeze them usually they just grow back after a while, over and over again. They look VERY deep, like whiteheads under the surface of the skin. I'm sure they're not milia, cause milia are very close to the surface, while these spots are under layers of skin. The skin over them isn't smooth, they look slightly bumpy, which of course makes me crazy! When I squeeze them, sometimes they get out easily: the content is white and very runny, almost liquid, and exits from many pores nearby. Other times I have to take my tweezers and dig them out, which is very hard because they're so deep rooted! These ones look more solid, like a white embedded core of sebum or something. I didn't get these things 1 year ago, what in earth could they be?! Cysts? Clogged pores? Hair follicles? Underground scar tissue? Collagen? Do you get them too? My dermatologist said she didn't know and to use Differin cause they're "just pimples". ---> totally NOT! Pimples, blackheads and whiteheads look different and surface after a while. I'm afraid I might have damaged my pores so much they've scarred all over, so the sebum stays trapped inside. :( I feel sad and hopeless, like I've mutilated myself. If only this could be a wakeup call for me to never pick again!!