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I am glad to have found this site and feel slightly better to see that others suffer from this condition (not that I would ever wish this on anyone, but at least I'm not crazy!). Here is a little info about my skin-picking disorder: I am currently a senior in college and regret not being strong enough to overcome this to fully enjoy the experience. I rarely go out and have had a very low self esteem for the 4 years I've been here. But let's start at the beginning. I got my period early. I was in 6th grade, and with it came the acne. I can't remember exactly when I started picking, but it feels like I've been at it forever. I was an athlete growing up (soccer) so the sweaty lifestyle plus puberty was just the perfect formula for cruddy skin...lucky me. In 2004, I found out that my mother had breast cancer. I think this is what put me over the edge, anxiety wise. Not only did I begin to pick, but I suddenly developed very bad allergies and asthma. As someone who spent a lot of time outside running, this was not easy to cope with. I had to get allergy shots once a week for three years. After going to numerous doctors we discovered that the asthma wasn't really asthma, but severe panic attacks. Despite everything, I was recruited to a top 5, D1 college for soccer where things only got worse. The stress of competing at such a high level at a school that was also academically challenging was a nightmare for my skin. I picked all the time, and still do. I spend hours in from of the mirror, even on nights when I know I wont have much sleep. I unclog pores, go after ingrown hairs, and get a lot of hard cysts that require some extremely damaging attacks from my fingernails, tweezers, and even needles sometimes. I now even go after small bumps on my shoulders, arms, and chest. My face is ALWAYS swollen, red, splotchy, and peeling. To make matters worse, I am half Asian, and when I drink the redness from where I pick intensifies and I look I'm having a severe allergic reaction. Needless to say I have never had much of a social life. I'm always very stressed, very tired, and very very depressed. I know this is psychological and am 100% OK with admitting that I have a problem. It's what to do about it that I can't figure out. I swear to myself everyday that "today's" the last day, but it never is. When I'm stressed, I head over the the mirror as if I were programmed to and don't have a choice in the matter. Mentally, I zone out, and stand there picking for hours. It's almost like its therapeutic while I'm doing it, but most definitely not when I'm done. My skin no longer takes makeup well, being that it is so uneven, so I can't even cover it up well without looking like I have a pound of never-the-right color coverup on. Skin cleansers and lotions are difficult too. Some will work, but after a few days it's as if my skin builds a tolerance to what I'm using and I see 0 improvement from there on. Other products are too harsh and make me peel uncontrollably. My cheeks, nose, and forehead are super oily while around my mouth and my chin get super dried out. I can't win!!! I hope this site helps me. My goal is to look "good" for graduation in a month. Thank you if you read this long novel. I hope you don't have this condition as bad as I do. If you have any tips/suggestions/words of encouragement I would really appreciate them!