Hi - I just found this site this morning after searching on skin picking. What made me search was that this morning I looked in the mirror and discovered 3 different 1/4" ugly scabs where 3 white heads had been a few days ago and I was disgusted with myself. As I drove to work I picked them and several other scabs on my face and neck. I thought, "Why to I do this?" and that prompted me to go looking. I am relieved that I am not alone in this behavior but horrified that it is actually an OCD.
My history with this has been as long as I can remember but I think it may have started either when my sister was born (I am first born) I was 1.5 years old or when I started school. So it was either triggered by lack of attention from my mom or the relentless teasing I got at school - I was a timid, shy, small-for-my-age kid. I remember my mom making me wear mittens to bed so I would not pick. Also when I was a teenager and she gave me perms she would put vaseline on one spot in my hair that I picked into a scab after a mosquito bite been there. Mostly as a teen I would pick pimples into scabs on my face, neck, chest and upper arms. Currently I still pick pimples, squeeze black/white heads and pick at them when they scab over, squeeze out in-grown hairs on my legs and pick at them, I have even taken to tweezing the hair on my legs and if a hair has not broken the skin yet I will squeeze and scratch at it until it is out no matter if it breaks the skin or not - I just have to get the hair out! Any bump on my skin feels like a zit to me and I will squeeze and pick at it. As a kid I was constantly told to stop picking by my parents - my dad would get frustrated and say that they should just buy me a big scab to pick for my birthday.
This is not a jab at anyone here but I am relieved that my picking seems mild in comparision to some of the stories I have read. Just reading this forum has really made me aware of what I am doing and I have stopped my hand several times from scanning my face while reading the threads here.
Some things that I realize I can do to keep from picking are: Doing crafts while watching TV so my hands are busy - I do this already to keep from snacking also.
Does anyone have a good deterant for picking while driving? or while reading?