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May 30, 2011

Welcome Tweezert! I feel for you so much. Reading your post was like a punch in the stomach, I felt as if I wrote it myself cause I've had the EXACT same problem for 15 years and thought I was the only one. I'm 31 years old and my picking began with plucking out my eyebrows, literally digging them out, then it escalated to the rest of the face and body. So I'm pretty confident that what triggers me are mainly ingrown hairs (always had a bunch of them). I've stopped picking at my body about 3 years ago and healed. Now I'm trying not to pick at my blemishes on my face even if it's hard, cause I tend to get whiteheads and cysts deep within the skin and suffer from PCOs, so before my period my skin gets so much worse. In the last months I've been pretty succesful though, but I still didn't manage to find a way to STOP digging out my eyebrows! I never magaged, even when I was on the pill and my skin was pristine I was always picking at my eyebrows. It's horrible: I can literally see them even if they are only a teeny tiny point under the skin, and dig them out with my tweezers creating bloody sores and terrible scabs and then scars. And it's a shame because I have very big beautiful eyes which are my best features. :( My parents verbally abused me and treated me like a freak for years, while my husband is much more supportive and loves me anyway, but can't really understand why I do it (heck, neither do I! All I know is I can't "just stop"!!!). I feel very lonely because this kind of picking is pretty rare even on the dermatillomania sufferer: many just pick at their pimples but don't touch their eyebrows. The thing is I get super deep ingrown hairs all the time and I know it's MY fault: of course the hair can't get out from the thick scar tissue I've created!! It's a vicious cycle: ingrown hair --> digging the hair --> wound --> scab --> scar tissue --> ingrown hair I hate this... I'd like to be able to figure it out and simply STOP caring about these freaking hairs!! I've plucked my eyebrows so much during the years that I have lost my natural arches and now they won't grow back, they look horrible if I don't draw them everyday. I'm always caking on makeup to hide the sores and scabs but it looks horrible. I'm trying to stop picking and I can manage to leave the deep whiteheads alone, but not the hairs. I'll never stop trying, but it's been so long I can't even remember my life BEFORE picking at my eyebrows. I'm feeling hopeless. -_-
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May 31, 2011

I'm shaking reading your post! You sound exactly like me! The teeny tiny hairs I see that I can't leave alone and the ingrown hairs, because of the scar tissue. Right now my left eye is swollen because I had an ingrown hair that became infected and of course I picked it which left a huge painful sore! I use to pick my body to my stomach mostly I have scars there to now. I really don't have that much acne but if I do I will pick those to but mainly my eyebrows and like u I have no natural arch anymore. I have read alot about picking but never like ours I wonder why that is? (I feel like I'm rambling but I'm excited to know I'm not alone!) My family doesn't really say anything to me about it other than why dont u stop or why do u do it. I tried to get my husband to take my tweezers once but I feaked out the next day and he loves me and can't stand to see me upset so he gave them back. I know this is a funny ? to ask you but where do pick at? I have a magnified mirror on my in table and at night while I watch TV I pick fir hours. Sometimes putting my self in positions that hurt just get that damn hair!! I use peroxide afterwards and neosporin I guess it makes me feel better. In the past 5 years I can't think of a time when I didn't have sores. I could ramble on forever but would LOVE to continue to talk to because like I said before I have known some people who picked but not like me! Today was the first day I have really looked into getting help. Thank you for replying to my post I think I will go cry now!!!!
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May 31, 2011

OMG... Tweezert, I'd like to hug you tight! You really sound like me. I know what you're going through, it's so painful. :( I too asked my husband to hide my tweezers in the past but it didn't work for me, I was always asking him the tweezers back. And he really can't understand just how SEVERE this problem is for me. I mean, of course he sees the sores and knows I make them myself cause I told him. But he can't imagine just how much I struggle with picking! My mind's always wondering and thinking about the ingrown hairs and whiteheads. When I was a teenager I used a magnifying mirror in my room, now I usually pick at the bathroom's mirror or using a pocket mirror. But I can pick almost EVERYWHERE: right now I'm at my parents in law's home and I pick even in front of their bathroom mirror. I could spend hours and hours ripping my flesh to dig out a single ingrown hair, I can't stop even when the wound I create starts to hurt and bleeds heavily. Sometimes the holes I dig are so deep I think they'll never heal and I worry I could die for an infection. Luckily I'm very careful to sanitize my tweezers, hands and clean everything, and when I'm over pickinI always use a Clyndamicin antibiotic gel on the wounds. In the last years I've been picking at the part of skin between my eyebrows above my nose, which never heals completely so I look like shit all the time, even when I don't have pimples. But this terrible habit is killing me inside and it's also visibly aging me outside. A part from the ugly scars I'm always pulling and stretching the skin so I'm getting a lot of forehead and undereyes wrinkles. :'(( I feel so ugly and disgusting and don't know what to do anymore! I'm crying too right now. I don't know what this kind of picking could be, I've always heard of people picking at pimples (dermatillomania) OR pulling out hairs (trichotillomania). Seems we have like both of them in a weird mix?? (---> Even if I never pulled my hair out of my head or picked at my scalp). I really have no idea. But we're not completely alone, I know of another girl that has our same problem, Angela of "Forever Marked": http://www.skinpick.com/node/1427 In her fb and documentary you can see she has our exact wounds all around her brows! I really hope we could heal one day. Please stay strong, and take care! Hugs.
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May 31, 2011

Thank u so much for your kind words and honesty. I feel like ur reading my mind! It really feels good to talk to someone who knows what this feels like. I would love to keep in contact with you. Maybe we can help each other, I can't afford professional help so maybe having some support could help! I would like to give u my contact info do u know how to do that privatley? Thanks again for talking with me!
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May 31, 2011

You can contact me here: yuukichan80@NOSPAMgmail.com (just remove the NOSPAM thing) If you want we could also chat via msn messenger or skype. It would be nice cause we're almost the same age and share the very same problem! I feel for you, I too can't afford professional help. :( Doctors are pretty expensive for me and I don't have many savings right now, plus here in Japan it's pretty difficult to find a decent english speaking therapist (let alone one that speaks my mother tongue). We could try to support each other and share advices / tricks.
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June 12, 2011

Seriously this is what I do too I currently have three to four red bloody scabs under my right eyebrow and two under my left. I gave up my tweezers last night when I realized this that it was a serious problem I not only do this to my eye brows but do it to my whole body and recently picked off two moled from my skin I dont think its okay for me to do that. I also pick ingrown hairs off my boyfriends skin and face...and he works with wood all the time so he constantly gets splinters and like the thrill I get from getting the splinters out is unreal. Like its kind of a high feeling. And it just feels so relieving to pick at something so long than finally get it. I need help too :( just readibg ur guys posts makes me want to pick up my tweezers which my boyfriend has finally confesgated and tweeze or pick something. -danielle :(
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June 14, 2011

Danielle I understand ur pain! My husband is a machinist so he is get pieces of metal in his hands all the time and I love to get them out for him!!! I know this sounds crazy to but my dog is a little shih tzu and I check him for fleas everyday and when he has some it actually makes me happy because I can pick them off of him! If you can handle giving up ur tweezers I wouldn't pick them back up, but I gave mine to my husband a few times and it didn't work me. The anxiety was to bad and I got really upset. I hate to say this but I don't think it is that easy, the issues seem to be deeper than that : ( I wish it was that easy!! I would save alot of $$ on concelear. If u ever need to talk let me know. It has really helped me to know that I'm not alone even if I still keep picking.
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September 25, 2012

I need help...I'm 16 and its destroying my social life and being generally happy.. I have no idea what being happy is anymore. It all started in year 8/9 i don't even remember how? when the hairs didn't come through I started to dig and dig in my skin to get this hair out. When the hair came out it felt like a relief or like like i've done myself proud. I feel self conscious almost all the time. please reply
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September 25, 2012

Helpme098, I want to let u know your not alone! I do the same thing when I finally dig the bloody hair out I'm so relieved! For me it a vicious cycle. I am proud of my self because right now I don't have any bad sores. Just curious where do u pick most often?
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September 26, 2012

Thank you, do you have a email i'd love to email you about this...and Ive got very bad atm...I just want to sleep until my wounds have healed. I dig in the middle off my eyebrows. Started when I was 12/13 and I dont know why. I've been doctors about it today and they said I should go counselling.. :\ I just isolate myself when i'm like this. Congrats on the stop picking! Glad you got through this. Where do you pick?
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September 26, 2012

Yes I have an email tlee0816@gmailNo Spam.com (just remove no spam) I still pick and I have terrible scars. I know what the wanting to sleep till u heal feels like.
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September 28, 2012

I emailed you !!
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December 17, 2013

Hello tweezart! I have the same issue. I am now 20 and have probably been doing this since I was 13 or 14. Under my eyebrows, and a little in between them, I have a little scar tissue which now causes my eyebrow hairs to become ingrown if I do not pick at them. I wear considerable amounts of concealer to cover them and I can't remember the last time I have left the house without it. I'm really disappointed in myself because I feel as though I could be much prettier without this skin issue. I feel very alone! There is not much on the internet for this. Very thankful I found this. Have any of you found a way to stop the picking and to heal the skin? I was deciding on just throwing away my tweezers (or limiting my use of tweezing to once a week, for ~10 minutes), using plenty of gentle exfoliating scrub to help soften the scar tissue, and to use neosporin or scar-diminishing cream. I know this would take a lot of self-restraint and I was hoping this could help. I was wondering if you had resolved this for yourself?? I accidentally posted this before I saw I could reply to a post. I really need feedback on what you have done to make this issue better for yourself!
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December 17, 2013

Hello everyone, I have the same issue. I am now 20 and have probably been doing this since I was 13 or 14. Under my eyebrows, and a little in between them, I have a little scar tissue which now causes my eyebrow hairs to become ingrown if I do not pick at them. I wear considerable amounts of concealer to cover them and I can't remember the last time I have left the house without it. I'm really disappointed in myself because I feel as though I could be much prettier without this skin issue. I feel very alone! There is not much on the internet for this. Very thankful I found this. Have any of you found a way to stop the picking and to heal the skin? I was deciding on just throwing away my tweezers (or limiting my use of tweezing to once a week, for ~10 minutes), using plenty of gentle exfoliating scrub to help soften the scar tissue, and to use neosporin or scar-diminishing cream. I know this would take a lot of self-restraint and I was hoping this could help.
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December 17, 2013

I know how you feel and what you are going through. I have been able to control my picking somewhat. I still have the issue with scar tissue that turn into ingrown hairs.. I don't think that will ever go away. I have started doing puzzles on my iPad I know that sounds crazy but it helps I think I pick a lot because I'm bored and need something to do with my hands. I would see if you can find something else to do that takes your mind off of it. Good luck talking about it always helps!
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May 04, 2014

I have read a few of these posts. I have the same problem. I am on adderall XR and I believe that the skin picking is a consequence of the medication. If you are on this medication or anything similar, this may be the cause. Any type of stimulant medication may cause this. Skin picking is actually listed as a side effect of adderall in the pamphlet the pharmacist gave me. If this is your case, i suggest either understanding what is causing it (realize your not crazy or something) and cope with it (TRY to train yourself not to do it), or talk to your doctor about your concerns. He/She may be able to lower your dose or something. I NEED my adderall to really function during the day so I am in the process of trying to train myself not to do it. Also, if you drink a lot of caffeine or are taking over the counter diet supplements (which contain a lot of caffeine) it may cause you to be fidgety and scabs and hairs may be where you focus your energy while fidgety. I noticed I do it more when I am not busy with something else. Like when I am watching tv or something. If none of those seem to match you, you may definitely want to see your doctor because it could be a sign of OCD... it is a compulsive type action. I hope everyone can figure out how to deal with this. I understand it is a seemingly small thing, but it affects our appearance and can cause emotional and confidence issues (not to mention risk of infection if the skin is broken). Good luck to everyone.
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May 06, 2014

I do have exactly samething...we both are in same shoes.. sometimes i do control myself not to give dem scar also tried to figure out wat causes it..mostly wen im down stressed out. And have thoughts on my mind i found myself lost while i tweeze ..then finding my eyebrows got bleeding already so try n talk with someone while ur doin or interest with somethn..i know its so hard to deal:( also i learnt one drug dat makes impulse go away from pluckin.maybe we pple like us can try hope it works ...here d name is N-ACETYLCYSTEiN
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March 16, 2016

Hoooooly crap. I thought I was the only person in the world with this problem! I've done many google searches but haven't been able to find much relating to eyebrow digging (for lack of a better term). I know I'm a tad bit late to this conversation but I thought I'd share my story. I started picking at ingrown leg hairs when I was about 9 or 10 years old. I'm a woman who has been cursed with my dad's thick Italian eyebrow (yes, singular) and I started to become super self conscious about in it high school and that's kinda when the eyebrow plucking thing started. I'm 33 now and unfortunately, not much has changed. It's actually worse now because I have so much scar tissue from years of digging that my hairs can't break through the skin which means more digging to get them out. Which leads to more scarring, and so on. If I didn't have ingrown hairs, I wouldn't need to pick! But because I pick, I have ingrown hairs. It's a vicious cycle that I don't know how to stop. The area under my eyebrows usually heals fairly well with minimal visible scarring (I'm really pale and my scars usually fade over time). But the area in between...my unibrow...The scarring is so bad that I don't know if it will ever heal or look "normal" again, even if I do stop picking. The skin is so raw and rough looking that it's getting harder to hide with makeup. Sometimes the skin is so raw that it hurts to put makeup on but I do anyways. I don't remember the last time I left my house without concealing my shame. I'm so self conscious about it that whenever I talk to someone face to face, all I can think about is how they're totally looking at my scars and judging me, or whatever. No one has ever came out and asked me about it but I'm sure they want to. I really want to get laser treatments to help reduce the scar tissue or electrolysis to stop hair growth but I'm too embarrassed and ashamed of my problem to talk to anyone about it. I've tried all kinds of over the counter products like Mederma, vitamin E oil, Aquaphor, etc. and Neosporin (which usually does help prevent infections), but nothing seems to really help the scarring and obviously doesn't address the underlying issue (whatever that may be). Anyways, I'm glad to know that I'm not alone with this godforsaken problem. I wish you guys the best of luck in your recovery!
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March 20, 2016

I'm a tad bit late to this conversation too but wow, I relate to every single one of these previous posts!!!!! For me it started with the "unibrow" plucking and digging, scarring, and ingrown hairs, and repeat and repeat. I do not know the trigger to the start of the whole eyebrow plucking fiasco but I started doing this at a time when my face was literally blemish free because I was on acne medication. However I came off the acne medication because I was trying to get pregnant. Well, I started to break out :((( and now not only do I dig at the scar tissue by my eyebrows but I have been "digging" out the pimples as well. My once blemish free face has now become the looks of a battle ground, with both fresh wounds and very thick, ugly scars. I have seen both my PCP, derm doc, counselor, got back on my acne medication and some other OCD/depression meds, and now I'm doing this online therapy which is going alright. Besides this big "problem," I am a what most consider a normal 29 yr old woman, my life is normal, Im married, have a good job, live in a nice neighborhood, etc. Have always been somewhat shy and not the most self confident person but I just can't figure out why I do this to myself. I would say I have a mix of dermatillomania and acne excoriee. I have as well gone after some of the fresh scars to make them flatter yet it only makes them redder and deeper. I've basically turned the problem over to God's hands now, not that I haven't been praying to him all along to help me but now I've really come to accept the problem is bigger than me and so is He. He give's my body the power to heal the wounds I create, I believe with prayer and his Grace and Mercy, he'll heal my mind as well. If anybody wants to talk, I would love to hear how things are going for you. I've responded to a couple other forums but never get responses so I will just keep trying :) Just respond to this forum and we can get in touch that way. Prayers for all of you, no matter what you're all beautiful and you're all loved.
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March 20, 2016

I would like to respond to "what is wrongwithme" since you have a most recent post. Sweetheart, is you read my above note, I've seen almost everyone I can about this problem, I've even left a pamphlet out at my workplace for others to read and understand what I'm going through and I tell you what, it was the BIGGEST relief by doing that, by letting everyone know all the truths, laying it out all on the table. I have learned i can't tell every stranger why I look like I do but doing all the things I can to get help and having people tell me they care and offer help makes me feel good. Also, I don't want to push religion onto anybody but if you read the word of God and read some daily devotionals, it's amazing how much the words lift your spirit and can make you face the world. It's other people's problem if they want to judge but I will always accept them.
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March 20, 2016

I am new to this forum and came across it by accident but it quite literally took my breathe away I am a 36 ur old Mother of 2 boys 12&15 in a 20yr relationship with their father just not married and have several health problems which all seem to have genetic factors as the women on mothers side all have some type of auto immune disorders from minimal to quite severe. I've also been diagnosed as a manic depressive since age 12 next was OCD diagnosis then ADD and alotta other acronyms I have a cousin with severe trich and when my eyebrow pulling started and rapidly progressed to NO eyebrows at all plus a crazy waxing compulsion (upper lip, under chin etc) my therapist at the time (I was 14) said it was trich it is now I realize it may be but I know I have a skin picking habit that has scarred my chin, browbone, neck, legs, bc I suffer from ingrown hairs as well as dark thick Italian hair and pale skin I cannot stop digging and picking until the hair is gone. Not only that bit any bump, at all has to be eradicated on site. Eyebrow hairs barely get a chance to appear as a speck beneath the skin before I attack. My boyfriend gets soooo furious he's thrown out magnifying mirrors, bent tweezers he does not get it. I thought no one ever would. Right now my chin and nose are completely covered in brown scab from a black head massacre that ended in a skin massacre. The worst part is I'm very vain, I won't leave home unless my makeup is perfect and I do this to MYSELF knowing that I'm going to be upset and stuck in my room basically until this gets better bc idk how to cover THIS without making it worse If I did I'd exfoliate all the scab put creme on pink skin and makeup on top and that is awful for skin and looks awful after a few hours bc it crusts up. I cannot count things I've missed bc I just cannot leave and be looked at like that! I feel like I've just found a lost sister as I'm reading some of the forum posts I am stunned that other people really do go thru this and have every intention of talking to my doctor this month about this he is my general physician whom I love and who listens and helps when no other doctors seem to want to. If anyone has tips to how they heal the aftermath of picking and or what type of concealers, foundations etc work I'd really appreciate it.
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March 21, 2016

Hi starshortyrock, just keeping in touch with whomever wants to talk on this forum about our lovely complusion. Just like you, I have some awful dark scabs as well as some large dark scars on my face from this terrible disorder and pretty much become homebound (I do go to work though) because my vanity gets the best of me. But I have since been trying hard to overcome the vanity and I do go out in public with NO makeup on displaying my sores, scabs, scars and all because I'm sick of having to feel perfect and trying to look attractive for people I will probably never meet again. And it's hard and exhausting to cover up this stuff ! not to mention time consuming! just as time consuming as it cost to make the sores etc. and then it just interferes with the healing process and I fear the makeup will cause infection. But my doctor has kindly put me on amoxicillin twice a day to help resist the start of an infection. I have tons of different types of concealers and foundations, from neutrogena acne concealer, to clinique, urban decay, bare escentuals, tarte. I do like all these products though! they are kind to my skin and have not caused breakouts for me which nearly about any product i put on my face does. Right now my focus is healing my sores and scabs, and diminishing the scars while using products that will kepp my "other" skin looking healthy. I use this Silver gel on the sores which is great! and i use paula's choice scar reducing serum on the scars plus murad's spot correcting serum which are both great as well.
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January 12, 2017

Sarcastically, Im glad to see there are others like me out there, because its a sad and painful place to be. My problem is facial hairs...upper lip, chin, neck, and eyebrow region. and the cycle of seeing or feeling hairs, pulling, picking, and usually digging hairs out at any cost, and leaving behind deep bleeding infected skin that is so sore that my skin hurts, and then trying to cover it all up with makeup without caking it so thick (impossible), which I think causes a delay in healing. A trip to a dermatologist, also hard to face, face to face, revealed I have permanently scarred the skin underneath where those pesty hair follicles are, and that scar tissue itself is why my facial hair doesnt grow out like they used to. I am so embarrassed and ashamed. I do not leave the house and actually have tape over my computer camera. I dont want anyone to see the freak mess on my face i have made. But since there are sadly many of you like me......what can we do to heal, change, repair, whatever, the scarred skin underneath so the hair follicles can go out correctly, or at least not as bad? I think if i could go thru some home made treatment to help repair the damage i have done below the skin surface, I would be better able to handle this. Like some of you, I do not know of a time in my life when my facial hair was not the #1 priority and obsession in my life. I always thought it was hormonal, and my skin had toughened from aging, but now I see I was doing it to myself all this time. I had a partial hysterectomy at age 29, and a total hysterectomy at 36. I am now 61. I have even instructed my husband at my death, keep my casket closed because of the sores and scars Im afraid I will have, up until my death. So stressed
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January 13, 2017

Tweezert / mfklaren 686 / starzshortyrock / whatiswrongwithme / merve / jmetz / helpme098 / katiegardner / Danielle527 / Yukki I need your help....something we all need I think from all your comments. Any ideas anyone????
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March 23, 2018

Shit I thought I was the only one.. I sit here with a sore spot above my left eye.. I was doing so good and my eye finally healed but it feels like my face is tightening from the hair(s?) That are growing under my eyebrow. I just thought f it I'm getting that hair out.. or at least breaking it so I feel some relief.. Needless to say, I didn't get it out nor break it and my eye will be once again f'd up for 2 weeks until it heals. I feel like I'm going crazy... ;( my doctor is a dick and says it's in my head.
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March 24, 2018

Oopsididitagain...What is particularly alarming is when you wrote " it feels like my face is tightening from the hair ". This sounds like a form of delusional thinking. Some sort of sensory overstimulation which possibly makes you perceive the hair to be tightening your face when that is not the case. Do you experience any sort of bodily or skin sensations or tingling? An overstimulated nervous system can create such sensations...and then your mind can go to work manufacturing reasons for the stimuli. This in turn creates the picking behavior...which is meant to dispell those sensations by visual assessment. In other words, you try to eradicate the sensations of a tightening face by visually removing the "offending hair follicles". And in doing so, you force yourself to believe that you are helping your body. The visual appeal of having pulled out a hair serves as proof to you that you were able to get rid of the culprit of the problem...a form of purging. Yet the problem was never the hair in the first place. You simply convinced yourself that it is the hair at fault for how your skin feels. Can you in any way relate with that description?
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August 06, 2018

I need help
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August 06, 2018

Hi honey, I relate with you on every level of your picking habits and husband/people not understanding me until I sought help and stared to openly discuss the disorder by excepting it and educating those around me about it. Where you’re at right now is the exact way my disorder began!! My tweezer does not leave my side!! I’m 3 years into the disorder unfortunately. I’ve stopped the eyebrow digging but instead my disorder is now focused on spots or blemishes on my face that I literally attack. I don’t know where to begin even explaining my past present and future affects, actions, emotions, progress, fall backs, treatments I’ve gone through for this disorder. Let me know if you would ever want to talk more!!
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August 07, 2018

Im new to the forum as I've just been diagnosed. It's obviously not a new 'thing' but giving it a name seems to have helped. Would love to talk to other sufferers
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August 08, 2018

I to stand in the bathroom mirror and tweeze out my eyebrows to the point where there are none left only hairs trying to grow back into the deep deep craters I've created. Hell like you all I don't even stop when the blood is rolling down my face. One time after work I picked for 6 hours non stop and the next day my eye had actually swollen almost shut, but did I stop no I picked those tweezers up that morning and started over even through the pain. It's true that if we feel like we get all the hairs somehow it will miraculously clear up and go away it's a visious cycle. Mine all started when my boyfriend would let me pick the ingrown hairs off the top of his bald head, back, and face and eventually just picking at him wasn't enough I started picking at myself as well. He eventually grew to hate the picking and yells at me alot and even threatens that if he would leave me that I still probably wouldn't stop. He is always telling me how my eyebrows (or lack thereof of) look like shit. You'd think I'd wanna stop but it only stresses me and I run to the bathroom mirror and start "trying to fix them" I feel like I'm in a lonely place with no one who understands that's why I'm so glad I ran into this forum and like tweezert had mentioned the thought of giving up my tweezers makes me sick to my stomache. It's getting harder to hide from the outside world because my make up is no longer wanting to cover it all up unless I cake on thicker and thicker each time. Does anyone have any advice for me? I forgot to mention that I manage a restaurant for a living so I'm constantly in public talking with my guests. And starting to look like the ugly person I've become.
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August 08, 2018

Hide the tweezers or put them in something that makes them hard to get at like wrap them in cling film and then put in a zip lock bag. Might give you a chance to think about what you are doing. If it takes you a long time to get to the tweezers maybe it might make you change your mind. If your anything like me picking them up and attacking is so easy to do. So making it harder helps me. I've also started using hydrocolloid patches to create a barrier and help heal. I've also seen others taking mirrors out of bathrooms etc. I've just moved house and when the mirror was wrapped up to move I didn't obsess so much. Obviously I don't know your relationship but it sounds like your boyfriend isn't very supportive. Telling you you look like shit is not very helpful for people like us. What I've discovered lately is that the only way I can try to tackle this is focus on myself (in a positive way rather than hack at myself) and surround myself with positive supportive people. And remove negativity that makes my condition worse. Only you know what's right for you but start putting yourself and your recovery first xx
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August 09, 2018

Hi Scooby Thanks for the advice I've literally just spent another 3 hour on a digging frenzy I'm so angry and disappointed in myself right now and have one hell of a headache from it. I constantly tell myself I'm done doing this and fail every day. I've even actually thrown my tweezers away and then go buy new ones. The only thing about surrounding myself with supportive people is I haven't told d anyone except my boyfriend and my therapist. I have my therapist convinced I'm ok because I don't want her to be disappointed in me it's gotten so bad that at my next appt. I'm pretty sure the make up isn't gonna hide anything tho and I'm gonna be exposed and I'm super stressed about that. My daughter knows I don't have my own eyebrows but I don't think she knows the severity of why however my face is soon gonna show because like I said I can't even cover this shit anymore. Thanks for responding tho I'm at an all time low and I'm glad you took the time for me. Gonna take some excedrin and try to get some sleep.
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August 09, 2018

I have noticed that a big trigger for me is getting to know new people in person. Or having to be in close proximity to someone. After years of avoiding the dentist I had a whole bunch of appointments lined up...and it was the most stressful experience for me recently. Basically two years of having to see my dentist regularly, try to form a dentist-patient relationship, have him work close to my face, etc. It increased my picking and made me constantly stressed. I couldn't handle it at the end and had a meltdown/ left in the middle of treatment. Same with meeting new people. Recently I stopped going to the dentist and stopped being social...and my picking decreased. It becomes worse with close proximity and the social norms of having to form basic attachments in the form of social relationships. I fear closeness, both emotional and physical. The picking correlates with that. Sickening.
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August 09, 2018

I have noticed that a big trigger for me is getting to know new people in person. Or having to be in close proximity to someone. After years of avoiding the dentist I had a whole bunch of appointments lined up...and it was the most stressful experience for me recently. Basically two years of having to see my dentist regularly, try to form a dentist-patient relationship, have him work close to my face, etc. It increased my picking and made me constantly stressed. I couldn't handle it at the end and had a meltdown/ left in the middle of treatment. Same with meeting new people. Recently I stopped going to the dentist and stopped being social...and my picking decreased. It becomes worse with close proximity and the social norms of having to form basic attachments in the form of social relationships. I fear closeness, both emotional and physical. The picking correlates with that. Sickening.
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August 09, 2018

I also have to point out that your boyfriend might be contributing to your increase in picking. That's not ok for him to put you down when obviously this is a serious issue. I don't know...if I was in your position I would think whether it's best that I let such person go.
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August 11, 2018

Thing is he is extremely good at turning the situation. Around and making me feel guilty at being hurt because he said when it gets to the point that the make up don't cover it up he won't be seen in public with me. I think I mentioned that I pick at his bald head (with his permission) and he said that all he is to me is my fix then I end up feeling really guilty about that. I don't want to blame him for anything because I have to own this and take control. I'm just so tired of failing at it and fighting with him about it. He feels like he competes with the tweezers and says I don't spend time with him because I chose to pick at either him or myself and now I'm feeling guilty because I've made him feel this way. I don't feel like I'm good enough. At this point and at this moment I just want to turn around and not look at any of this and have a new persona one that never picked up a pair of tweezers. I hate myself right now.
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August 12, 2018

Being blunt and honest with you....that's not a supportive individual. He will only cause you to pick more. He is ashamed to be seen in public with you because of the picking? That's just sad. In my life I learned to discard that sort of person quickly and efficiently. They simply don't understand and don't care to understand. Plus, it's pointless for him to try so hard to change you. You have to be with someone who you can accept... otherwise the relationship will suffer. Skin picking is a chronic disorder that is extremely difficult to beat .... The relationships you choose have to compliment your struggles. For example, I chose to marry my husband because of his patient demeanor and his understanding of skin problems. He battled cystic acne when he was a teenager and therefore understands the hardships others go through when it comes to skin issues. I knew that with him I won't have to face constant judgment...and I feel "safe" and calm knowing that he won't think low of me when I do pick. Your main relationships have to be supportive because they affect your overall mental well being. The more criticism and judgment, the more likely you will pick as a subconscious form of self punishment.