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memek2009 , 12 Oct 2008

I wish...

I wish I knew more about this disorder before now. I felt so weird before, like nobody could possibly understand what it was like to try and stop picking. I've been trying for several years now... and nothing sticks. It's scary to think about not being able to pick anymore, but also to think about what will happen if I continue to. It's not like cutting, eating disorders, alcoholism, etc. because you don't ever have a near death experience as a result of picking. You just feel bad about it and ashamed. Yeah I hate covering up the marks, or being unable to wear tank tops and such, I hate the time I waste doing it... but it isn't killing me. Also, there are not as many resources for people with compulsive skin picking as there are for so many other problems. I really really want to stop, I've been trying to for several years now. It's so hard though, because I feel like I am not in control of my hands. I've tried keeping my fingernails short, but that didn't work; I've tried knitting, but I got distracted; I've tried relaxation exercises, but that also just didn't take or work. I'm giving zoloft another try, and I've started trying to keep a direct light off of me. Because if I can't see what I'm doing, I am less likely to do as much damage. Sitting in dark rooms is depressing though, so I'm not so sure I want to keep that up. I think I'm going to give gloves a try while I'm at home, I'm trying to think positive thoughts about how well it will work... I feel bad when I pick around my family, or when I know they know I'm picking, or have been picking. My little brother tries to subtly distract me, by coming and talking to me while I'm picking. It makes me sad. He really wants me to stop, and I feel guilty because I can't. I saw that vaseline ad about protecting your skin shield, and almost cried. My skin shield is crap and needs protecting from me. If you have any more suggestions for things I can try to stop picking, please let me know.
2 Answers
October 25, 2008
it is like cutting and those other behaviors u mentioned. for many, picking is a way for pickers to cope. if ur condition is not medical or more ocd (chemical issue) than its psychological. talk out -figure out what ur beliefs are and get to the root of why you feel like a wreck inside. its extremely important for skin pickers to have support. i used to get yelled at which made me feel worse and want to do it more. when i started to feel accepted and people tried to help and listen i noticed i started picking less. of course this is only part of it. the first part is just as important as this. so if u need someone to talk to feel free to email me
November 11, 2008

In reply to by whathaveidone

Yeah, I know its similar to cutting and such, but what I mean is that people don't see it as being as serious. People who pick there skin are treated as seriously as people who are cutting themselves or not eating because skin picking isn't deadly. My dad used to scream as loud as he could whenever he saw me picking. Actually, he still does sometimes, but just thinking about it stresses me out. I told him that since the picking is the way I relieve stress, screaming and startling me only makes it worse. He isn't someone to listen to people really, so he kept doing it. He would say "the doctor knows what's best" and I would say "you're not a doctor" he thought it was all a fun joke, but it really wasn't. So I completely agree, being yelled at only makes it worse. I used to go to therapy and try different types of antidepressants and anti-anxiety medications but none of it really worked, but I think that was just because I didn't keep up with it. You're supposed to take it everyday, but I would forget on weekends. Also, for some weird reason, I don't do as well in school when I take those medications. Then I also take a medicine for ADD which I have take to be able to get anything done, makes the picking worse. I'm sick of all of the work involved in quitting, but I'm also sick of picking. I'm tired. I always come to these conclusions late at night that I'm just not going to do it anymore, that simple, I'm just not going to. But that never works. I've started to try to stay positive and such, but I'm sick of making excuses like "I don't pick anymore, it doesn't count on my legs." blah blah blah.

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