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December 19, 2011

Day 1 On my way to work, wearing no makeup.. Afraid of meeting someone I know. Hoping that they won't think I'm too disgusting at work.
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December 19, 2011

i am the same-have been picking for about 11 years but have improved big time since postin here. wat do u mean it is best to squeeze acne 5 days before mens, period starts. thot we should not squeeze at all??
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December 19, 2011

It's best 5 days after start because of hormone levels and less risk of inflammation. I need to have a date when it'll be legal to squeeze, otherwise it's too overwhelming to stop. It feels like leaving a friend. It's so psychological, grrrrr!! I am though happy with my day today - I put the mirror inside the closet so I didn't pick. At least the face. I have been examining my back and did scratch a bit, but it was really minimal.
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December 21, 2011

Day 2 went so well!!! I didn't touch my face but my back and arms a bit, but not too much. I made a mud mask yesterday and felt like a winner. Day 3 Today is not so good - my skin is flaking (because of all the skin that I didn't peel off the last two days) and I'm kind of nervous. Really want to peel the skin with my nails but understand that it will only worsen the problem. So I am struggling now. A really fun thing happened to me yesterday! I went to "doctor fish" with my husband - it's 300 small garra rufa fish who peel your dead skin from the feet. It was so much fun! I am definitely going to do the whole body peel by fish soon!! I've read that they are really good for people with acne/psoriasis and other conditions.
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December 21, 2011

Gosh, it's hard!!! The only thing I am thinking about is to "clean" my face and shoulders now... :( I have examined my skin on the back and now feeling really anxious... Please pray for me! I'm going to make manicure now, hope it'll help!!!!!
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December 24, 2011

Get out of the house if you can and do an activity.
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December 22, 2011

Day 4! At work again :) My skin looks much better, but the pores are already clogged and there are five inflamed pores... I've found some advice online about how to stop picking, and one of them say: Tip #3 Bribe Yourself When I was a child, my aunt helped me to break the thumb-sucking habit by rewarding me with a quarter for every night I went without sucking my thumb. Before I knew it, I was free of the bad habit, and I had a pocketful of quarters. You can motivate yourself in the same way by paying yourself for every day or week you go without picking. This reward could come in the form of new makeup, skin care, or even a new outfit or shoes. If you can’t keep yourself honest, refer to tip #2 and call a friend. I have promised myself that I will give myself a cosmetologist treatment when I'm done with this challenge.
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December 22, 2011

My anxiety levels are very high now - I'm eating all the time, I'm trying to stop my hands from picking my back and shoulders. I've never really realized how much I pick. It's ALL THE TIME!!! I
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December 23, 2011

Day 5: It went really well today! I haven't touched my skin too many times, I'm happy! But I had bad dreams tonight and was in a really bad mood today, just thought it is awful how many bad things I went through as a child...
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December 24, 2011

10 days: I went and it was hard. I have not gone that long in years. My friend made a deal that I would have to pay a set amount of money to her and I kept increasing the days and was doing very well but then the black heads got to me. Nothing else not the bigger ones but the black heads because I just could not get rid of them with the products I was using. Does anyone have suggestions for black heads. I feel bad because I tore up my face tonight. Lame. I try again tomorrow.
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December 24, 2011

Hi! I've ordered some peel-off masks and clay masks in hope that when the blackheads are very big, then I'd use that. When I used clay mask the other day, I steamed the face for 10 min first to open up the pores and put the clay mask right after, it did suck some sebum out of the pores.
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December 24, 2011

But something tells me that I need to learn to live with the blackheads! My skin does produce more sebum that other people and I'm just lucky that the pores are open (that's why the sebum gets black). Just need to bleach them and suck sebum out of the pores regularly. The lesson here is to learn to NOT TO BE PERFECT and strive for 100 perfect skin. What's your intention behind cleaning the pores?
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December 25, 2011

Day 7 I have 7 infected pores all over the face now and want actually to pop them. But I won't do that. The urge is also smaller than some days ago, so I'm quite ok with that now.
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December 26, 2011

Day 8: I didn't get new inflamed pores since yesterday and it's wonderful. I've made a picture of the progress today, hoping that it'll motivate me even more. I don't know if it's bad, but I haven't told anyone that I'm struggling with this, I'm ashamed.... Thinking about the reward I'm going to give myself. On the 24th of January I'm going to a specialist who's going to look at my skin and analyse the condition and find a good cream for me. So I decided that my reward would be to buy this cream no matter how much it's going to cost me.
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December 27, 2011

Day 9: I did squeeze the worst pores yesterday.... :( but I stopped RIGHT AFTER doing them. I'm sad that I picked but glad it didn't get out of control as it usually does. I didn't touch my face nor anywhere else today.
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December 27, 2011

9 days is huge Basta, I only hope I can make it there! Keep going...you are well on your way. Your skin must look really wonderful at this point.
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December 27, 2011

It does look MUCH better! I want to get rid of this terrible addiction to pick, I understand the reasons why I do it and now it's just really important to just STOP.
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December 27, 2011

I am ready to make a change in my life and want to end this horrible cycle of incessant picking. It's at its worst right now and my face is proof of that. I'm trying a new acne medication but it's slow to work. I want to make a commitment to stop and hope that if I log on and post to this forum every day that I'll feel more accountable. Although I've already picked numerous times today I'm going to start now and count today as DAY ONE.
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December 27, 2011

I will follow you! What are you using on your skin during the day?
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December 27, 2011

Well, I have been using a RetinA cream at night which is supposed to take up to two months to reach it's full effect. So far, it hasn't really been able to work it's magic because I continue to pick. I am inspired by your 9 days. It seems like an eternity. I was exercising more self restraint (ie not picking at the very small pimples, just leaving them alone) but I struggled more over the past few weeks. I have been picking at every tiny blemish on my face and haven't conjured any self restraint. It's at the point where it looks so bad that I tell myself "what does it matter if I pick some more". I know what a remarkable difference a few days can make so I am determined to let my face heal. I use a tinted SPF 15 lotion from Kiehls during the day with a mineral powder on top. It covers up fairly well but the real nature of my face is evident once I wash it off. I have a dermatologist appointment on the 6th so I'd like to go in there without obvious evidence of picking... Thank for responding to my post.
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December 27, 2011

I'm going to use A-vitamin creme tonight too. It's probably the same as retin-a. Promise yourself just 5 days, you'll see a difference. The thing is, the more we pick, the more sebum the skin will produce because every touch will stimulate the production.
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December 27, 2011

5 days is a good start. I am going to take it day by day, but I'm determined to stick with it!!
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December 27, 2011

I understand! Take a "before" picture for yourself- it may be motivating to get results for a good "after" one. Hope you'll stick with this forum, I'm looking forward reading about your thoughts and reactions!
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December 28, 2011

Day 10: I am not picking the skin. My face feels like it's not mine anymore when I don't touch it all the time. It's a strange - and new - feeling. I used A-vitamin creme yesterday and it was my first time, I'm looking forward seeing a change.
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December 28, 2011

Today is day two. Made it through last night and this morning. Only compulsion was to remove dry skin caused by the retin-a cream that I use overnight. The cream really makes my skin peel because it causes a higher turnover of skin cell production. Afraid that I'll be plagued by the dark red spots/superficial scars caused by my picking. Early morning and late night are awful times for me. I put up reminders on all of the bathroom and bedroom mirrors. One day at a time. Coffee also seems to be a trigger. Took my "before" pic (per Basta's suggestion). One day down, 29 to go....
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December 28, 2011

Thumbs up! I'm glad to hear from you again! I've read that to reduce peeling of the skin while using retin-a, you just need to use lesser amount of the cream. Peeling of the skin is my biggest trigger, so I understand now that I need to keep the skin moisturized and not irritate it too much. The skin will peel a lot because of all the dead cells caused by picking, that's why please just don't touch the skin until it has finished flaking. I have read too that it's good to combine retin-a with aha/bha cream.
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December 28, 2011

Ugh so difficult. Especially because after I apply makeup it's clear that the dry, flaky skin is being covered up. It's not a pretty sight! Does it help you to put up reminders in the bathroom/near mirrors? I'll try using less of the cream. Part of me thinks that the peeling is good because it means that healthier skin is growing underneath. I have a fairly low dosage- .05% tretinoin. I am only supposed to apply at bedtime. At the end of the day I know that the products I use aren't really the main issue. If I got the picking under control my acne would be minimal at most. The retin A is helping but I have been using it for 5 1/2 weeks already. Is the cream you are using prescription?
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December 28, 2011

My cream is not with prescription, but supposed to be only used at night - I'm using Beauté Pacifique Booster (http://www.beaute-pacifique.co.za/super3-booster/) - it's quite strong and has 3 A vitamin types. I don't put the reminders, because I've put the mirrors away. The light is rather dull other places where I have mirrors (on purpose), so I can't really make this ritual in front of them because I simply don't see that much. So maybe it could help to change the bulbs? I don't use makeup anymore because of the same reasons - it doesn't look good with flaking skin under makeup.
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December 28, 2011

Slightly less successful afternoon. Found myself washing my face and saw a new, small blemish. Did minimal damage but still picked at it. In comparison to other times, certainly a lot better as I didn't have an extended pick session. One small blemish. Not a perfect day but I'd still consider it progress from the past week. Still have a commitment towards not picking for the rest of the day and for the future 29 days to come.
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December 29, 2011

That's good! The most important now is just to go on!
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December 29, 2011

Day 11: I'm struggling today! It's difficult to have attention all the time and I have touched the skin a few times today - not picking, but touching and a kind of scrubbing it with the nails. :S I will make a mud mask tonight, because it feels like my skin is dirty...
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December 29, 2011

You have already made it so far Basta, Day ELEVEN! Go look at the before photo that you took on day one and use that as a reminder not to scrub at your face with your nails. That skin is still healing, let it continue to do so and take a deep breath. Try to figure out what is driving you to touch your skin today. Remember Day ELEVEN. That's SO wonderful!!!
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December 29, 2011

I know the feeling. I think that you have good tactics...different masks, creams etc. to help soothe your thoughts. Trying not to touch any of the dry skin although that's a real battle. Not picking seems like a huge mission already so I rationalize that as long as I am not leaving any mark on my face, that I am allowed to touch/remove flaky skin. This whole discussion seems so gross, it's embarrassing to admit to these compulsions. At the end of the day, however, it is more shameful to have a face that's been picked incessantly. Had an argument with my boyfriend which triggered negative feelings/despair. Noticed that the urge to pick was greater. Resisted. Can't believe it's only day 3 for me! Maybe you can try to identify why (yesterday) was more difficult for you. Did you have any extraneous stressors?
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December 30, 2011

It's more difficult the days when I don't like myself, like criticizing for being dum, lazy and so on... It's something I need to go in therapy with, otherwise I'll continue self-destructive behaviors... I totally understand the dry skin - it's too difficult at this point..
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December 30, 2011

Day 12: I'm beginning to be more confident with the "project" and believe I'll make it through those 25 days. I am quite amazed, that the A-vitamin creme helped to stop inflammation - I haven't had any inflamed pores the last two days. Yesterday evening I felt asleep very early - I didn't wash my face in the morning (didn't make it before work) nor in the evening (felt asleep and didn't want to stand up anymore) yesterday. The good thing is only that I don't wear makeup anymore, but the bad thing is that I'm afraid now that some of the pores will become clogged and inflamed. I washed the face as usual this morning and then took some clay (green) powder and used it to peel the face. It felt nice and was very gentle in comparison to scrubs. Scrubs always give me inflamed pores.. Let's see if the clay is better.
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December 30, 2011

Day 4: Already seeing the benefits of just a few days respite from attacking my face. My retin-A cream is helping with the inflammation as well and now I just have to give it time to let the redness/superficial scarring fade. I bet it will be much better with a full week under my belt. Part of this whole process is just about discipline for me. I made a strong determination not to pick and so far, I have made some pretty incredible strides. It's amazing how powerful that discipline and accomplishment can feel in comparison to the apathy and grief that I feel after destroying my face. Clay masks are great for soaking up oil Really interesting that you didn't feel the need to wash your face yesterday, it's almost like the compulsion is slowing down or something. Less intense. That's good. I don't use any scrubs but I have a *fabulous* cleanser/brush. It's called the Clarisonia Mia and it's basically like an ultrasonic face brush that gently releases all dirt and sebum from your pores. It also exfoliates very gently. Look it up online. It's pricey but definitely worth it...
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December 30, 2011

I'll definitely try to find it online. My cream makes my skin flake too and I did examine the skin with the fingers but not long time and very gently. I guess I'm getting used to not touching the face that's why I could just fall asleep yesterday without washing. But I'm still struggling with the wish to have a perfect skin... I'm so glad that you are with me here - that means we'll enter 2012 more beautiful than before :)
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January 02, 2012

Day 15: I haven't picked at all the last few days - had a huge party at home and had no time to sit down and exam the skin. But when I eventually touch the skin, I can feel that the pores are all filled out with the sebum and are ready to "go". It was a struggle yesterday to avoid picking, so I made a green clay mask in hope it'd help. I have of course forgotten to wash my face after the new years party (got really drunk with all that vodka :)))
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January 03, 2012

Day 16: Baaaaaaaaaad, too baad. I couldn't resist and did all the face!!! Every pore. :((((((((((((((((
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January 04, 2012

The day went well. I didn't wear makeup on purpose - my face was really red today!! I am glad that I only have two really small infected pores.
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January 06, 2012

hi basta. just sending a little note of encouragement and hoping that all is going well. know that setting goals is effective in lots of ways. i am working on principle that every day i dont pick is great and when i do pick i target areas that are going to cause me least distress. i have done it loads around my hairline and this started years ago and did result in losing lots of my hair. awful. i had beautiful long shiny hair (people told me this after i had lost most of it which wasnt exactly helpful!). did grow back but happened again. v traumatic as the very feelings i was trying to avoid caused what i feared to happen. ie i looked 'different'. now fortunately my hair is long again and i am able to leave scalp, etc alone working on a hideous distress vs habit ratio. (for the moment anyway!). i am also working hard to find positive things - sounds as if you are too. like the idea of the nails. Anyway i just wanted to check you are ok and sending you positive vibes and to everyone else with our predicaments. we may have different areas we pick but we all have the same thing in common. we want to stop. this site is like a friend of the most understanding kind, loyal, supportive, empathetic, etc. bye for now, sarah
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January 06, 2012

Day 19: I am very happy that I've still not picked since that episode. I came to the same conclusion too - any day is good. Have recently read a saying "Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat." It makes lots of sence for me. I have bought Murad's pomegranate exfoliating mask, exciting if it will do any good.
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January 07, 2012

hi basta. how did the new face treatment go? guess 13th january is looming close - hope you are feeling positive about your challenge. yes the quotation you mention is true! important to remember this in the weaker points of our picking. i am doing well and have only had little scratches here and there but compared to how it has been in past, i am doing brill. boyfriend is away this w/e (climbing Snowdon in uk) so i am going to see friends and having sleepover will be so much easier! am v conscious that i dont have the 'shame' feelings that have accompanied me for years. so great and no coincidence that it is since posting on here and also the final pick i did was so bad. best wishes
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January 08, 2012

It's been really up and down for me for the past 5 days. Got to day 5 or so and then started picking again. Tried to start again but haven't found the resolve in myself to really go for it. I rationalize picking at the small things. I felt like I had actually made some progress..and then I regressed again. Every day is a new day. I will keep my goals attainable and shoot for today - the rest of the day - to be free from picking. This means from now until I go to bed at night. It's really that much of a struggle. I am so ashamed and have no one in my day to day life to share this with. I have a dermatologist appointment tomorrow and am dreading what he will say...
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January 08, 2012

Day 21: Yesterday I picked again :( every single pore. My biggest mistake was to have the mirror out. Now it's in the closet again and I'm hoping to never fail again (:))))) This is so exciting with the dermatologist!!! Please write about it tomorrow! I'm going to see one on the 24th of January. After these 25 days I'm going to make a new challenge. So far I have been able not to pick for 8 days in a row. So the plan is to make it 80 days!
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January 09, 2012

Day 22: the day went really well - I didn't touch the skin at all. I'm having high expectations to myself and my skin now.
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January 10, 2012

Day 23: I didn't pick today, it feels wonderful :) I hope that one day it'll be natural for me not to pick.
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January 11, 2012

well done. can tell by your last entry that you are excited. i do think so much is habit and cracking that is a challenge and it really sounds like you are breaking that habitual cycle. fantastic. seeing results of non-picking is great too and helps endorse the many reasons why it is so good to 'give up' picking. v pleased for you and best wishes.
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January 11, 2012

Thank you! It feels like I will have to struggle much more to break the habit completely, but I'm really happy that I started to do something about the problem. Realizing that it's a problem and coming to this website is really important for me!
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January 11, 2012

Day 24: It's a fiiinaaaaal cooountdoooown!! :) I am happy today even though there are a couple inflamed pores. I I'll give myself a reward tomorrow, it is going to be a body scrub and a manicure. By myself of course :) It took a bit long time to decide what the reward will be because I just thought that the best reward would be to pick :( Initially I wanted to buy a cream, but it costs $100 and I just don't have the money this month. I have some samples of this cream and I expect there's enough for a couple of months ;)

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