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February 25, 2012

day 11 yesterday went well! Not 100% successful but still good! I got really antsy and was touching my face a lot but I did not pick a lot! Today WILL be a good day! I can do this!
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February 26, 2012

day 12 Yesterday was great! I didn't pick at all hooray!! So today I must strive for this as well! i am going to focus on keeping hands away from face :)
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February 27, 2012

day 13...I was at work all day and I did not touch my face! hooray! keeping busy really helps. Now I'm home and i have to make sure to steer clear! I did pick one on my boob but thats okay! it'll heal up if i leave it alone! Covered with a band aid so I don't touch it again! I have been journaling for about a week now and exercising and eating very good foods for my body. Im ready to make this life change and I think I am getting closer and closer day by day. By really focusing on what I am putting into my body and focusing on making sure Im treating my body with respect, it gives me a greater responsibility in life. No more taking the easy route...this is a journey and its very difficult but with the right mindset, support, and tools, I can do it and so can anyone else :) I believe in everyone!!
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February 28, 2012

Day 13 continued...dun dun dun...I literally just got done with an hour and a half picking session. It's hurts. Literally and figuratively. You know this is hard. too hard. I had a very emotional night with my mom...we fought but then we resolved our problems. I think I just let everything get to me and I didn't let it out properly. Well, tomorrow is a new day. I can do this. Any support helps. Thanks guys.
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February 28, 2012

I hear ya! Seems like any kind of friction with my mum seems to set me off, even if I don't think it's got to me, I end up picking. It's like it builds up without me realising. Good luck with the rest of ur week! We can do this!
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February 29, 2012

day 14. obviously I was a little upset today, but i guess luckily i have mastered how to cover my skin and look pretty good. haha. I tried to keep confident...i pretty much succeeded. I picked at a few just by scratching but nothing serious. time for a new healing!
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February 29, 2012

Hope it'll be a better day today!! :)
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March 01, 2012

day 15 No pick day! woot...I admit i literally just scratched one but i caught myself and told myself no more today! i have the gym rehearsal and then bed time to worry about. I can do it :)
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March 01, 2012

Hi Toomuchpressure, Just found this site today and I can't stop reading I am inspired by your open & honest way of dealing with your issue! I always thought I was alone but thanks to you and others I now have hope that I can overcome this & a place to visit, to hear and share stories. Congratulations on making through the day! As with all things, we can do it, " One day at a time" after all nothing really exisists except this moment and there are a million other ways to spend our time and relive our stress other than destroying our own skin and ultimately making ourselves feel worse than ever! Currently I look worse than I ever have in my life, due to spending several hours in the bathroom with tweezers over the past couple of days. But today was different. I found this site, registered, commented and followed some valuable and inspirational advice! Thank you for sharing. You will succeed and be scar free soon! As will I! My prayers are with you and I look forward to your daily updates! Sincerely grateful, Savannah
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March 19, 2012

I am exactly in your position, today! Thank you for this comment, I feel like I am you, lol! Wow, I feel like crying... okay now i am crying... I will start being accountable today.
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March 01, 2012

I'm so glad for your progress! We can do it! As long as we are trying we will get to the "pick-free" destination.
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March 01, 2012

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March 01, 2012

day 15 continued. Man! I did it again! I kind of picked up where i had "left off" from the last session. Tomorrow is a new day. I can do this!
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March 01, 2012

day 16 a new day! I bought some calamine lotion...i read it might help heal stuff! Here i go!! :)
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March 02, 2012

best of luck with the calamine lotion tmp. can imagine it might be soothing. i used it for chicken pox years ago. funny how old remedies, with simple ingredients (chalk i think) can still beat the high-science stuff produced now. hope it works well. best wishes :)
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March 02, 2012

Hi there toomuchpressure! I'm so happy to read that someone else is giving the calamine lotion a try... I've been using it for 4 days now and my skin is healing up nicely. Please let me know how it works for you. It would be really wonderful if we've stumbled across something that can help make this struggle just a little bit easier to overcome for all of us. Best of luck to you! :)
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March 03, 2012

absolutely! I used it last night and it seemed to already make a difference on toning down the redness of my scars. I still have lots of healing because of my more recent session, but ill keep you posted :)
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March 02, 2012

day 17 I just woke up for the day feeling really positive! I think its because I got a haircut yesterday...DO IT! it made me feel so confident! lol. I on the other hand do not feel to well...note to self, don't overeat on your diet's cheat day...your body will hate you and rebel!!!! Happy days to all!
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March 03, 2012

day 18 major relapse last. UGH! its okay new day!
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March 04, 2012

Hi toomuchpressure. Just logging in after a few days out of town to see how it's going and absolutely, it's all about pickin' ourselves up, dustin' ourselves off, and looking toward the new day. "Relapse" sounds a little self-critical, no? Maybe it's just where I'm coming from these days but reading these boards has really given me the sense that "counting days" only to berate myself for slips only makes my picking more likely/my self-esteem drop. I just ordered "SKIN DEEP" by Dr. Grossbart off his website (maybe $13, i think) and a quick flip through the pages looks super-thought provoking. And it talks a lot about scolding ourselves less and instead trying to break down where things went a drift, even minute by minute (like in a journal or something), so we can better look out for similar triggers next time. And really, your willingness to share your journey, the good, the bad, and everything in between, is so helpful to so many right now... I hope you can start your new day with that in mind... that with each struggle, and accounting of, you help those of us also in the trenches feel less alone. Which reminds me to update my journal at my topic, "Valentine: I'll Be Mine"! To new days!
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March 04, 2012

Thanks Valentine. I have been journaling every night for about two weeks now and I say it has been helping tremendously. Not to make excuses, but it IS hard to really keep yourself in check and make sure you are focusing on everything but what is/isnt lurking beneath the pores. I think being tired and i mean emotionally makes everything really difficult. I know now that I have to be extra careful during these times to make sure I am controlling myself...I am so grateful to have this site and all these people who understand! thanks for checking up...I look forward to your next update :)
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March 04, 2012

day 19. Its a new day. I did well last night and i hardly touched my face. I need strength. I know i can do this...life is getting very overwhelming but i have to remember to breathe. Its comforting to know that i can go out of the house and not be judged because of what is on my face. REAL TRUE PEOPLE don't look on the outside! they look on the inside. Encouragement for the week!
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March 05, 2012

day 19 continued. I did laundry again and was caught by the mirror...luckily it was only a small pick session. Going to do a calamine "treatment" I'm at a really rough spot in my life right now...im applying to colleges the second time around..it is really hard and taking a toll on me emotionally. Im trying to stay strong.
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March 06, 2012

day 20...NO PICK DAY! I'm getting back on track with my diet and exercise plan! and also my picking plan...i need to stick with it...its hard but i can do it!! I'm buying some pants from my work on friday and I'm getting them a size smaller so i can be motivated to fit in them! hope it works!! I also noticed that when we do nice things for ourselves...we feel better about the way we look and therefore not want to pick anymore! it helps! do it, shave your legs, get a tan...dye your hair, get a manicure!!
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March 07, 2012

day 21! new day...skin looking better :)
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March 08, 2012

day 22 hooray i resisted urges today! still fighting getting back on track with living a mentally, physically, and emotionally healthy lifestyle...I AM trying to get back...but I NEED to try harder. Need some more understanding... watch demi lovato's STAY STRONG...i cried pretty much the whole time..she gets it. its the same thing we are going through! Watch it. its beautiful and of course very cheesy documentary, but well done! i think i might go to college for rehab services...i think it would be so beautiful. just a random thought
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March 08, 2012

day 23! totally ready to be positive about today. I got this new face wash that is actually clearing my skin and I'm loving it! its like neutrogena stress wash or something lol... I feel more confident with myself when i am strong and i resist the urges. I know I can fight this. and when I do, i hope to help others cope and fight it as well :) I wish each and every one of you a special good luck. I believe in you. God believes in you. We are a special people and we have this so we can be stronger :)
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March 10, 2012

day 24 today was great! i scratched a little but caught myself AND I am a proud owner of a fully developed zit on my forehead...its my goal to let it heal naturally! hooray! i did however learn something about this whole process. I eat when i am not picking. if you have been reading you know that i am trying my best to be a conscious healthy eater and to exercise and treat my body well. When i am not picking i binge eat! just because! its horrible. so now I'm really working on total self control wish me luck. Im scared you know, because i have been doing well with my picking. i really don't want to have a session :/ wish me luck!
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March 15, 2012

I did notice the same. When I don't pick I want to eat all the time. My psyche is trying to cope with the anxiety... The thing is that when we stop doing something that has some function (for example picking is "calming") we need to find a constructive substitute for it. And do the substitute until it becomes normal. It's simply some connections in the brain which have to be weakened and other connections strengthened instead. I am glad to see your improvement! Good look!
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March 10, 2012

day 25. so i actually did pop that zip BUT it was the only one! it was hard because i was at a friends house and of course she has mirrors posted everywhere which i can't help but i did successfully get out alive! yay! I feel good about it and today I'm not wearing hardly any makeup. I am deff having withdrawals and all i want to do is feel my skin and look at my face and it is horrible! but i am making it through!! So good stuff! the one thing that is so hard to manage is my eating...its so hard to take care of myself as a whole person at once. That is my goal at the moment...to manage my whole person and not just one aspect of it!
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March 11, 2012

day 26 so my grandma said my skin looked good today! hooray for progress. I deff caught myself though...since i have limited my access to mirrors and i haven't had a session in a while, I'm having withdrawals like legitimately. it is so hard. i went to ross and i tried some close on and also looked toooooo close in the mirror. popped a couple of pimples but i stopped. i consciously made the decision to stop which is so important. Im beginning to realize that! Anyways, while my musical theatre college search may seem to not be going well, i DID get accepted to penn state as an education major woot! so happy days! my life does have a track after all!
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March 15, 2012

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!! :)
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March 11, 2012

just kind of random but you guys, i hope to one day help you and us and me in this dilemma. i went to the doctors about a year ago to seek medical attn for this disaster that we face and you know what he told me? oh i about flipped my lid, busted a cap, cussed him out. He goes, you are a beautiful girl ( me of course with a crap ton of makeup on) don't destroy yourself like that. JUST STOP. literally how many times have all of us heard, just stop. its like the worst phrase for us. anyways, its my dream to get this disease if you will out into the open and so it is easier for people like you and me to get treatment! :) yay a
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March 15, 2012

What a doctor! I still can't understand how doctors ignore the psychologic aspects of many of the conditions they are presented to... I REALLY don't understand it.
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March 12, 2012

day 27 i slept like all day oops. I had my first free consultation with annette and she was fantastic!! I am hoping to be able to continue on with her! I did a little back picking last night and like two on my face! so I'm happy! i did pick my chest but its not noticeable and i will try my hardest to let it be! hooray!
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March 13, 2012

So i went to rehearsal and i did well! i scratched a couple off BUT the important thing is...i came home and i told myself before i do laundry that i will NOT pick and success!!! hooray!
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March 14, 2012

day 28...man! i had a relapse! I don't know what came over me. i think ia am just tired and frustrated...and confused. Lots on my plate. Its hard to have self control...the bible says that a like a city who's walls are broken is a man who lacks self control...words to live by. Im trying. can't wait to start therapy. wish me luck in my "days after" I can do this. I know it :)
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March 15, 2012

day 29. HOLY cow its been a month. wow. well i think i have made a lot of progress :) even though i had a session the other night I'm okay! it wasn't THAT bad! now...i need to get back on track with my diet and exercise...i feel like crap! God is amazing...i think i have decided where i want to go to college, again. I'm glad i took this year off but now I am antsy pantsy about going to visit etc. i was strong today! no picking! i even didn't scratch but i did eat a lot...lol. trying to control all of my urges today...its so hard...i can do it! its my little brother's eighth birthday today...i love him so dearly...i only want the best for him.
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March 15, 2012

day 30! holy moly again! well today is good! i did not pick and WILL not. I just got my moms approval to go visit penn state and i am super excited...i will not pick my emotions or eat them however :D i can do this! we all can!
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March 16, 2012

day 31! I picked a couple little whiteheads last night but its okay! i stopped! i got my upper lip threaded and i started breaking out! ugh stupid hair that looks ugly but keeps dirt away! haha I'm doing good...tired as heck but trying hard! diet and exercise have not exactly come back into play but i am doing a show so I'm moving every day and working my body in that way!
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March 17, 2012

continued...ugh just had a relapse...not horrible but still there and working...ugh. its okay...breathe in breathe out. new day tomorrow Why now did I feel this urge. obviously i want whatever is in, out...but it goes so much deeper. ugh.
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March 18, 2012

day 32 did better today...gonna keep trying :)
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March 19, 2012

day 33...ugh my skin needs to clear up! I'm trying my best...i just lost a little self control lately...trying to do better :)
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March 19, 2012

day 34...trying to stay strong! i have to call my dad today so hopefully i won't get too emotional about it and pick! Wish me luck!!! :D
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March 19, 2012

Wow, thank God for you and others in this forum. Tomorrow will be my day one, and I hope to be as persistent and determined as you! Don't give up because you are my inspiration now!
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March 20, 2012

day 35...relapse last night. UGH they seriously suck so bad and i eat so much and then i get all sad! like i don't get it...i was happy i was texting someone i liked...i had a really nice conversation with someone at rehearsal..i diddnt even talk to my dad! ugh well here we go...pick myself back up. ITS A NEW DAY! :) I will seize it!
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March 21, 2012

Good for you. Keep going. Tomorrow is another day!
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March 22, 2012

day 36... staying strong...taking shower then bed!! no pick for me!!!!
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March 22, 2012

okay! i caved... a little. NOT a whole lot...I am proud because i consciously stopped myself....My first therapy session is next week...im really excited! Ps...i need to stop eating like crap! NO more taco bell at midnight...ugh...hehe i CAN do this! :)
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March 23, 2012

day 37...going to bed without picking! HOORay

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