Hey, I'm Alice

I've read your posts, your so inspirational! I am blown away at how well you are doing and so proud of you! Absolutely fantastic keep it up :) Reading your posts made me think maybe I'm not putting in all I've got? I give up too easily and don't have enough will power in me to stop. That's a hard thing to realize and I think I am slightly coming to think that.. I thought I tried everything and failed at everything but truth is now I think that I tried most things but didn't give it enough chance, I have bought Rescue Oil and Cocoa Butter moisturizer for scar treatment and I am hopefully going to start using that morning and night again and hopefully it wont be a 2 minute wonder! I think I just give up because i think.. "whats the use? I'm ugly anyway." I think that is my attitude more often than not, I am stripping my hair color from black to my natural color and will be dying it Plum, when I dye my hair a different color I see it as a new start, something about me always changes, I make sure of that, so this time I will make it my mission to try harder to stop! I'm setting up counselling sessions and when it's payday I will start at the gym, I hope being more active will help, my picking was minimal Thursday evening due to going out for a meal but I still found myself sat picking little scabs off now and then and just bits of my skin, I have been making a diary but now its the weekend that has just gone to pieces! Unfortunately, as that was going well, I found that during the week I start my picking regime at 8am every morning! Always when I am about to leave for work and brushing my teeth, so basically; at the mirror. That thing is unavoidable! I find myself at work for 20 minutes a time in the bathroom! Just because of the mirror. I am going to buy some Sudoku's on payday too, hopefully that will help?? Something to try and keep busy when I would be picking, to occupy that time. I will try to use my stress ball a little more too.. I hope that it will work out, I have a reward for myself if i can do it though it isn't much of a reward as it should be happening regardless! Canada in the summer to visit my best friend, I need to stop by then so I guess I have a deadline that means?? You say you started a healthier lifestyle, I'll be honest, vegetables is my worst! I hate them as much as I would like to adventure with food.. And fruit also, I can eat more of that than veg but still very selective, apples but I don't eat much of them, I like raw carrots though! Maybe that's odd however I suppose I could try a small raw carrot a day and a apple to start with? I need my taste buds changing!! I need to start using my facial wipes on a more regular strict basis too! I've always wanted to do running like you so that's really inspirational also! Maybe I will start jogging at weekends too.. It seems its all about the lifestyle we live doesn't it really? Just need to change a lot in our lives to change the picking, I am going to read your posts again and hopefully be more inspired into doing more to stop :) I don't want to be saying these and have it last a few days as normal, I want to be saying these and be saying these in a years time! Or at least months?! Thank you for directing me to your posts, it helped lots, and I think your doing amazingly!! Well Done you, can't put to words how inspirational you are!