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Hi, I am a 32 year old female who has a problem with skin picking (with tweezers). I have had this problem for 7 months with isnt a very long time considered to some people however it took over me at a rapid rate. I have suffered with psoriasis since I was about 16 and have always squeezed spots if I see them on my face and shoulders. I can recall my mother sitting me down from about 13 years old to get rid of blackheads she could see on my forehead and chin. I remember been fascinated looking at what came out. Last year I separated from an abusive partner of 12 years and early last year I was the victim of a sexual assault. I recall getting depression and being swallowed under quickly suffering with very low mood, no motivation, breaking down ad crying a lot. I also stopped going out with my friends on a Friday night. I don't even know how it started but I recall going out one night in September and noticing some scabs on my chin and side of mouth which I presumed had come from me squeezing spots and feeling disgusting compared to how lovely all my friends looked. I must have picked these scabs because I can also remember seeing a white thing deep inside the wound that wouldn't come out and I got the tweezers to see if I could pull it out that way, but every time I pulled a white thing out another appeared solid pick that, and the next, and the next resulting in me having the biggest round sunken wound in my chin, making me seclude myself, not wanting to go out because i felt ugly and ashamed. I have only been out socially 3 times in the last 7 months and I've not even wanted to go out, I've gone to please my partner. I now pick anywhere I can find these white things/follicles/spots. I feel out of control likei can't help it even though I know what I'm doing it wrong and that I will look a mess after. I pick my face, shoulders, back, breast, armpits and vaginal area. I spoke to my go about this who called it pathological skin picking and has referred me to a psychiatrist and to have CBT treatment, however my first appointment isn't for another 2 years. I no longer work and I find that I can sometimes be up the entire night. I also pick during the day and i always have tweezers and a pocket mirror in my pocket so I can go anywhere for a sneaky pick. I put my head down in shame because I can see people staring at me. All I really want to do is stop and be normal again. Any advice anyone can give me will be greatly received.