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Today is the start of my second day (I picked my face yesterday), and right now I can tell just how tough this is going to be. I hate the way the scabs look above my eyes. :( I have to get ready for my younger brother's grad in a few minutes and it saddens me to know I have to go there looking like this. Afterwards, I have a family dinner which I will again be in public for, and then tonight I will be spending the night with my boyfriend which means I will have to take my makeup off. He supports me, but it's so hard to let him see me like this. I have put seeing him off since sunday and he knows that this is why. I can't keep doing this to him. This is going to be a challenging journey. I want to heal without wearing makeup which is going to be the hardest thing I will ever do. There are 2 days I will wear makeup. One is today, and the other is for work on Sunday. When I attend my bartending course on Monday-Thursday however, there will only be a small group of people, so I will suck it up and make up a story about a bad waxing experience. I am okay as long as they don't think I did this to myself. Even this morning I had the urge to pick at my skin, but I know that I can't. I am so glad my boyfriend will be taking away my tweezers tonight, but I'm worried about the dryness of the skin. It usually starts with me using tweezers to pick off the dry parts so it's easier to cover up. I guess I will have to suck it up and live at least a week of looking ugly for a life looking beautiful. I love myself, I just HATE this. I hate how I mutilate my body. I am going to be posting progress photos, so here it goes: DAY 1: http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb121/sarah-108/Dermatillomania/Photoon2012-05-24at18434-1.jpg DAY 2: http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb121/sarah-108/Dermatillomania/Photoon2012-05-25at1102.jpg It looks horrible I know.