It's like I've only just realised...

Wow... I was just surfing the web for cuticle creams etc and some how got here and have just realised what I do... Literally it's like a light has just gone on in my head. I've been sat at my desk for the past half an hour picking at my already sore thumbs and now they're bleeding. And now starts the vicious circle of trying to heal them and then picking at the scabs that are trying to heal. I didn't even realise this was a problem until now. My boyfriend regularly grabs my hands and tells me to quit it... I don't even know I'm doing it. I have had CBT in the past as I'm quite a anxious person. I want to stop, I want lovely skin like everyone else. I feel like people look at state of my hands and then judge me by that. I'm a clean person, but my my nails look like scruffy old hands. How could I have not seen this till now :( X