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To start with, I have decided to post all of my updates on one page from now on. I figure it will be easier to track my progress that way. Today is day 5 of my journey to stop picking. I had a bad day yesterday and all I wanted to do was cry after I was done mutilating my face. My skin under my eyebrows was a mess afterwards. I'm not sure what triggered it, but I can't let that happen again. So far I have managed 22 hours without picking. I find I wash my face too much, so now that I am home I am not even going to bother. I have already washed it enough for a day and not washing one night won't kill me. I know I will be tempted to pick. I have REALLY big news for everyone though. I went to my bartending course today WITHOUT makeup! Yes, I did make up a huge story about a bad waxing experience however, but no one treated or looked at me differently and I was in a bright florescent room. It made me feel better having people think I didn't do all of the damage to myself. I feel I can let my eyes heal even if the dryness shows because the people I will be around for the next week have an understanding. I usually get very anxious about going out, but not that that anxiousness is gone for the next week I feel I can do some real healing to my skin. I just need to give it time. I'm always under the impression that everything will look better after I pick it even though I know that isn't true. It's hard when I feel like I will be stuck with the dryness forever unless I pick it off. I just need to give my skin enough time to heal and all of the ugliness I've caused will go away. I think I will always struggle with this, but once I get a decent hold of everything, and my skin looks normal, I won't want to go back to my eyes looking like crap. I can't hide away forever, so happiness here I come!