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November 07, 2012

Ok at lunch...moment of truth. Not picking however demon spot was looking dry. So i applied a little polysporin then a light dusting of powder with a qtip. Now I am hightailing it back to work before I mess with it more....grrrrrrr
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November 07, 2012

I went a whole hour without looking in a mirror!!! Can you believe it!!! Also Day 1 so far no picking!!!!
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November 07, 2012

Brilliant!
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November 07, 2012

I did it! No picking! Ready for day 2. On my way home i took some polysporin and massaged it on my demonic spot. 1...hoping it will heal faster. And 2...hoping to break up the forming scar tissue from over picking. Was still self concious at work but I am working through it in my brain. Trying to stop the obsessive checking it in a mirror...baby steps on that. Sitting here with sudocrem on. Hoping this pink fades fast. Please please please.
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November 08, 2012

Do you guys find a that you have a loss of appititte? When I am feeling low about this I dont eat. Plus I am afraid If I move my jaw to much where my demon spot is that it will crack and break open again
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November 08, 2012

Day 2. Things are looking better. Ladies I have found that massaging polysporin on the spot especially the ones that will not heal because we wont leave them alone is helping me. Not only am I not picking it but by massaging it am getting the satisfaction of picking. I am fooling my brain into thinking I am picking when I am not. I have also being putting on a glob of sudocrem at night. These 2 things have done the following. Polysporin is keeping it from being over dry and the massaging is helping break up the scar tissue...I think.... and the sudocrem is taking away the red/pinkish color helping it blend in a little bit more each day. Trust me my spot is far from gone but damn it looks better. And that is what counts. Seeing that it is getting better stops me from messing/picking at it. Oh and I almost forgot I have also been putting on a layer of aloe vera at night. This is acting as a moisturizer without making my skin oily. As when I use any oil free moisturizer my skin is like an oil slick so gross! Good luck to all of you with a no pick day and healing healing healing!
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November 08, 2012

This hole in my face is causing a hole in my Soul!!!!
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November 08, 2012

How many of you have been left with scars? If so I how do you face the day? This is really more upsetting to me than the picking.
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November 09, 2012

Make up. Lots and lots of make up. I moisturise then apply foundation all over my face. Sometimes I allow to dry and then reapply to the problem areas. Then i use concealer on specific blemishes. Longer term try bio-oil. Plus, please bear in mind that the scars are sure to be much worse to you than the outside world. xo
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November 09, 2012

Day 3....I can do this. Almost the weekend and I am going to let my skin breath for 2 days. Only using the aloe vera. Good luck today ladies and gents hope you are healing and have a pick free day!!!
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November 09, 2012

SpottyFace where are you?
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November 10, 2012

Hey Girl! So glad it's the weekend!, How was your day at work today? MIne was a little better..I'm hoping that I can really let my spots heal over the next two days and the next two weekends. I need to go to a dermatologist, but I'm gonna have to come clean about my problem when I go. There's really no other way to explain these spots. I did buy some bio oil and neutrogena exfoliation kit thing..maybe that will help...
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November 10, 2012

Work was ok. So glad it is the weekend. 48 straight hours of healing! The only good thing about this scar/healing wound is that I went to pick a spot saw the scar and told myself I would have another scar like that if I picked again....well that worked...boy did i step away from the mirror. I tried the bio oil but it was to oily for my skin. My skin felt itchy after using it a couple times. I have ordered rose hip oil as I have read that works to even out the skin and to help deminish scars. Glad you had a better day at work and yes I too still want to work from home. :)
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November 10, 2012

Yeah, I've never really suffered the consequences from my picking as much as I have lately. Between having this new job and having NO time to take off and being left with scars that I'm afraid are permanent, its been really rough. There is definitely no better motivation than to see the end result of my picking! I'm mostly concerned about disapointing and letting my husband down. He is so handsome and wonderful (with perfectly smooth skin, grrr) and he deserves to have a wife with clear, normal looking skin. A wife who he can be proud of. I think that's the driving factor when I start trying to "fix" the scars. Even though I am a loving and loyal wife, and I work really hard, I feel like a failure with these marks on my face. Let me know how the rose hip oil works. I'm going to see about having a tca peel done. It's supposed to really help with scars. What would you do if you could work from home? What kind of job do you have now?..(if that's too personal,.. sorry...just tell me to butt out:)
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November 10, 2012

I know what you mean. My picking is driven by the need to have perfect skin and in trying to get to that point I make it look worse. The oh crap look what I did is followed by I can fix and smooth that out with a oh crap I made it worse feeling right after the fix it moment. I have a deep need to be perfect for my fwb (friend with benifets) ;) ;) I am a customer service rep at a phone company....love my job...have worked there for 15 years...just not loving going in these days looking like a crack head. Your husband loves you flaws and all so you really should not stress over that. You need to stop picking for you...not anyone else...do this for yourself. What kind of job do you have?
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November 10, 2012

I know you're right..this is definitely for me! I want to feel confident and comfortable with myself. This is effecting every aspect of my life and I know that I have so much more to offer than what I'm currently able to give. I think I just need to leave it to the professionals to fix my scars...cause what I'm doing obviously aint' workin'!!! I'm also a customer service rep. and I work for an insurance company. I like it and I'm pretty good at it but I think it's something that I could do from home. How's your weekend of healing going?
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November 10, 2012

Going good so far....I too am letting the professionals do their magic although I cant get in until dec 17th...so until then I am going to rock this scar and stop hiding because of it. And I will not create anymore! One little demonic scar is not going to ruin me. We are beautiful no matter what! We just need to believe that!
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December 07, 2012

The two of you are lucky as it seems you're both seated in offices which is great for your hide out days. I am practicallly doing presentations, all day, every day! That means on my rushed foundation days, my scars accidently get exposed under a beam of light. No exaggeration - I am a Psychology lecturer in London. X
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December 07, 2012

Rosehip oil... Be cautious to never apply it on open sores because many reviewers have stated that it makes acne appear over night, unless the skin is completely closed. I love it for scarring, more than bio oil. How are you finding rosehip oil? X
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November 09, 2012

Everywhere you read they say go to a dermatologist...they can help this they can help that feeling down about scars go to a dermatogist they can help! Well hell what good is that if you have to wait for a month before they can see you. Do they not realize how much damage i can do in a month!
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November 10, 2012

Ok..sample junkie here...lol I have samples of Makeup Forever correction HD primer...Philosophy Keep the Peace primer....Cinique Stay Matte and Clinique Pore refining foundation. I also picked up some more Makeup Forever HD powder this is a loose powder that is white I have used it before and loved it I am hoping I can use this to hold back shine and that it will not settle in and cake up like pressed powder in my demonic scar area! So I am going to give these a try and see what happens.
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November 10, 2012

Hey...so I'm searching the internet for local skincare places and there's a place that offers collagen therapy and also dermarolling. I've heard of dermarolling before and read lots of good things about it. Have you heard of it or ever thought about trying it??
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November 10, 2012

I have heard of dermarolling but not the collagen therapy. I have considered it...... was going to ask my dermatologist when I go in. Are you going to try one of them?
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November 10, 2012

I have heard of dermarolling but not the collagen therapy. I have considered it...... was going to ask my dermatologist when I go in. Are you going to try one of them?
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November 11, 2012

After reading more about it, I think that dermarolling and collagen therapy, called CIT (collagen induction therapy) are the same thing. There's a place close to where I live where I can buy a home kit and a session to have someone teach me how to properly use it. I'll probably make an appointment, but I'm tempted to buy the scienta system. It comes with some vitamins and facial creme which sounds good. If I buy something online then I'd rather buy one of the brands that is a little more expensive that has been featured on tv shows and in magazines. Honestly, if I'm going to spend money, I want to spend it on something that will get rid of the scar, instead of a temporary fix.
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November 10, 2012

Day 4.... i actually went out to the bank...supermarket and sephora without makeup...was very hard but baby steps here....but yeah day 4 no picking!!!
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November 11, 2012

I'm proud of you! what did ya get at Sephora?? LOVE that store!!I've done good today too. I'm kinda scabby but I'm letting them heal..plus I did an hour of cardio and lifted weights!..Hopefully this weekend will be time for all around improvement!
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November 11, 2012

I got myself some primer samples that help with the redness some HD micro powder...love tje stuff and new pouty pink lipstick. Way to go on the cardio and weights...i so go to get back to that. I have been so lazy. Have you tried aloe vera?. I hace been using it at night and I am loving it
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November 11, 2012

I haven't heard of the HD Micro Powder, might need to check that out. I keep hearing about the BB stuff, that I'm curious about.. but I really haven't been wearing a whole lot of makeup lately...especially with my husband gone, I'm just trying to focus on healing my skin...I do love some eye make up and lip gloss though!! I haven't tried aloe vera, but it did cross my mind to get a bottle when I was at walgreens. OK so I broke down and bought a dermaroller kit. It was seen on the RR show and I I'd rather do that then have to go to skincenter and have everyone look at me through a magnifying glass...I got two rollers (supposed to last 3 months each) some skin vitamins and skin treatment cream, so I'm excited!
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November 11, 2012

Whoo hoo....let me know how it works once you get it. I dont wear much makeup either...just a little bit of foundation when I have things to cover. On good days I only wear powder
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November 11, 2012

Dear soembarassed- I feel your pain--I too check my face a million times a day and have missed more social engagements than I can count. I have also noticed that what once took days to heal is now taking months. I want so much to stop and have decided that I would set goals for myself. The holidays are approaching so I want to have clear skin for the first time in years. I did this for my nieces wedding and was successful but the day after the wedding I went nuts. It is a process and the guilt and shame makes it worse. I try not to beat myself up when I have a bad day--I started using Tegaderm films to cover a wound. They keep it moist and most of all I can't keep touching it. Put it on and go on with your day! You can cut them to the size you want--kind of tricky to apply when you cut them but they really make me feel better. They do fill with a little fluid but that is what is helping the wound heal. It is so much better than trying to cover the thing up with makeup or sticky medicine and I have worn it to work and no one seems to notice I have it on. I also sleep with it on my sore. Nexus sells them and I found them in my local Rite Aid. Each minute, hour or day that you don't pick is an accomplishment. Just try to stay busy and tell your self that no one can even see the stuff we pick. Hang in there!
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November 11, 2012

Day 5...this last wound/scar wouldnt look so bad if it wasnt so dry looking. So it could be worse...hell it has been worse...so I guess it is improving.
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November 12, 2012

And each day it will get better and better!! I read somewhere that it takes 40 days for the skin to regenerate itself. Each time you decide not to pick, you are one step closer...
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November 12, 2012

40 days? Myyy God!
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November 12, 2012

My thoughts exactley!!! 40 Days is a lifetime for this skin picker!!!
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November 12, 2012

Looking better - slightly pink...I guess I can live with that. Better than fire engine red!!!
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November 13, 2012

Day 7 and I have decided not to try to hide my scar....truthfully it looks better when I dont. I am hopeful in a year you wont be able to tell it is there. A very loooonnnngggg year!
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November 14, 2012

Hey girl! Glad to hear that you are feeling and looking better!! I know from past experiences and scars that I was soooo depressed over, that I can't even see anymore..(and if I can't see them....) Bet it won't take that long!..Keep it going!
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November 15, 2012

Day and 8 & 9 no picking...but let me tell you last night I almost caved. At lunch yest the quy I am sleeping with told me he is getting married!. Really? Seriously? I knew he was seeing both of us...but really did not think that he was thinking of asking her to marry him! It was all I could do not to pick my face....boy did I want to just demolish the hell out of my skin. She of course has perfect skin. Maybe that is why he is choosing her over me?!? I am in a really bad place right now and hope I dont relapse.
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November 15, 2012

Soembarrassed I am so amazed you've managed to go 9 days without picking. I struggle to go 9 minutes! I'm going to venture some comments on the above but please understand there is no judgement here... Firstly, it sound like this guy is a total **** (insert appropriate swearword here). If a relationship is meant to be built on trust, imagine sleeping with 2 people and then deciding to make one of the women you've been deceiving your wife! Ew. Secondly, please don't think that he is choosing her over you- sounds like you've had a lucky escape! And i'm 100% convinced it has nothing to do with your skin. More likely she's a "safe" option as probably doesn't have your inner strength and is happy to be a doormat to someone like that. Thirdly, why would you continue to see someone knowing that he's two timing you? That can't be good for your self esteem. I think you deserve much much better than that. Finally, try not to relapse but if you do, forgive yourself. Stay strong and do the best you can. sending you lots of healing thoughts. xoxo
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November 15, 2012

hope2heal I have told myself the same things over and over. Thanks for your kind words. Now to just get all that wonderful insperation you gave me to sink in to my thick skull and fluttery heart!!! That is the hard part!!! Especially since I work with the ******* (insert appropriate swearword here) lol) Safe option you are soooo right... more like makes good money. Seriously she is 16 years younger than him....from what I hear lazy and also whiney....BUT she makes good Money!!! So Money over Love is how I am seeing it. He made his bed he can now sleep in it!!! He is not going to break me down and ruin my pick free streak!!!!!So far so good. No picking on my face at least. A little around my cuticules and other areas you cant see....but no major picking. Still holding in there!!!
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November 16, 2012

Well done super strong lady. I'm attempting to keep a visual diary of my progress by drawing diagrams of my face each day and marking the blemishes and number of pick-free days. I've managed to go 2-3 days without picking my forehead or cheek, but i have two holes on my chin which are causing me problems. They heal over a tiny but and then i keep digging them out again! I've no idea why. If i can go just one day without picking it would be amazing, so you are doing incredibly well. Hold your head up high now. xoxo
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November 17, 2012

Hey Sweetgirl!! I'm so sorry about that news...but really...you deserve someone who is devoted only to YOU!!!! I can tell just by your kind advice and responses that you are a fabulous girl and you deserve so much better!! Don't let that guy, who isn't even worthy of you, cause you to relapse! You are welcome to email me anytime!.. almorgan99@yahoo.com
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December 07, 2012

Hi lovely! How are you coping with the man issue at present? Hope he is a distant memory, and you do not attend his wedding as his 'mate' because no one wants you to cave in that night when he is carefree, and you have worked so hard. I have noticed you have succeeded with many non-picking days ever since i.e a fresh start. We are all proud of you and wish we were that successful x
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November 18, 2012

I'm 38 and have picked since I was in my teens. The only thing that helps me stop us fake nails. I guess because it doesn't give me the same satisfaction or feeling as picking with my nails. I took them off because I got fungus and my face, back and legs are horrible. Don't even want to go out shopping and dread going to work tomorrow.
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November 20, 2012

14 days.... only picked one little bitty spot which was gone the next day. Face is looking better boy 14 days sure does make a difference. My scar (from my last major picking) and I are healing. It does not look so noticable now only to me. Hang in everyone....it gets easier. I still want to pick the hell out of my skin...but as of right now I am able to control it....:)
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November 20, 2012

Wow, good job. Wish i could go 14 hours without picking. Admire your spirit soembarrassed. xoxo
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December 05, 2012

I love the way you continue counting no picking days even when you have touched your skin lightly - i should give myself some leaverage too. I have this disheartening response, and then go back to day one. What encourages you to view it as non picking? X
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December 05, 2012

If I dont break the skin and by the next day you cant tell that I messed with my skin I count that as a pick free day. As picking to me is opening a sore on my skin.
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November 23, 2012

Ugh my face has little indents....grrr what the heck are those! No picking yet my skin looks like a train wreck.

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