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November 23, 2012

Only to you love. It probably looks fine to everyone else. Well done for not picking, treat yourself to something nice, e.g. a face mask or massage :-)
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November 23, 2012

Picked some...did not do any damage...no huge open red sores anyway. 17 days and i caved just a little.
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May 30, 2013

NOOO! i wish i was were you are! Ive gotten to a point were i was cleared up just scars and i know exactly how you feel. But dont start picking you totally forget for a min how much worse scabs, bleeding and huge red spots are when your face clears,, but as im sitting here now my face is covered in wounds! Sucks so bad and i have a date in one day!!!
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November 26, 2012

I think I have got this habit under control...now if I could just stop obsessing over what the picking has done to my face. I hate the way I look. The scars are worse then the actual picking as they are there for life....this is so heartbreaking!
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November 27, 2012

Will the feeling of being ugly ever go away!!
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December 07, 2012

Yes. With each patch of clear skin, confidence returns about our self-image i.e. beauty. X
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December 02, 2012

Meet a new guy and all I could think was...he is looking at my scar...he is disgusted by my scar...he is turned off by my uneven skin
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December 02, 2012

Spottyface....did you fall of the earth?
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December 03, 2012

Just going to butt in here very quickly. :) I'm new to this site but I can't tell you haw much it means to me to know that I am not the only one that has problems with picking their face. I found that I end up making a tiny, nearly non-existent spot into a big blotchy red spot! I just got into highschool an am very self conxious becuase I am havin to make new friends. I naturally have normal skin with the random spots popping up because I'm a teenager with raging hormones. Something I noticed that really helped my acne was drinking ridiculous amounts of water. Most people don't want to drink that much water because they just dont feel like water, so instead they drink coffee or something. You can always make it tea, or add a light flavoring to if. I just add a bit o lemon juice and it works wonders for my skin! It's so much less dry and it heals quickly. I also take insane Mounts of vitamin c, vitamin e, and Zync because tht makes your skin heal faster. I also find that washing your hand thoroughly REALLY helps. I hav dogs and my dog rolls in weird stuff in my backyard, and then I pet her and kiss her and cuddle her and that may be why I get random acne...ewwy. So wash your hands! Orange juice also has a ton of vitamin c btw. You can also drink some cranberry juice which helps get rid of the nasty chemicals and stuff. Sometimes those show up on your face. I apologize for the excessively long message! Hope this helped and stay strong for not only everyone who has posted saying they admire you, but mostly for YOURSELF! :)
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December 03, 2012

I know I should be happy. Have not picked in over 3 weeks. But I just cant be happy with the way my skin looks. The scars drive me crazy. Just a constant reminder of what I did to myself. I just have no clue what to do at this point. I know they fade over time...but I want them gone now. I want my self-esteem back!
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December 08, 2012

There are some pretty good over the counter scar lotions out there. They are usually clear gels, so no one can tell if you rub it in over the scars. I put gel on all of my scars every night before bed and when I wake up in the morning.
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December 04, 2012

Well just picked 2 spots. Just in time for my christmas party friday with a new date. Why why why!?! Not I am beside myself on what to do!!! Calamine? Sudocrem? No skin damage but really red and inflammed! Help me!
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December 07, 2012

If you own some calamine and have experienced it working in the past, try it again. However, I think you should opt for a faster solution. I know we are not teenagers, but this works every time for my big days with spoilt skin. Buy 1-3 items and use them religiously today. Clearasil 4 hour spot treatment is the main one now that the day has arrived and I didn't catch this issue earlier. Rub it in, and keep it in your handbag. Also, if you need to spend the night with him, wash your face with clearasil ULTRA night face wash. It is dark blue and works so fast! Or use it befooore the party if it is at night time. You can purchase the light blue daytime clearasil ULTRA 12 hour wash too as the three items work in harmony, but you'll most probably use this last item after the date in the morning for general maintenance. For now, focus on the 4 hour treatment if this regime is a bit much. I know it sounds like items targetted for teenage skin, but it is a Godsend, trust me due to so much salicylic acid and redness calming agents. Good luck. X
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December 08, 2012

My skin picking has been getting worse and worse over the past year or so. I am a 19 year old girl who suffered from horrible, horrible acne growing up. I finally, after countless other treatments, was put on accutane. That was years ago, and I still have small outbreaks of acne, but never to the extent of my pubescent years. I was recently diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and dysthymia. I am now on Zoloft for it. However, my acne picking has not improved at all. The moment i see/feel even a tiny pimple on my face, I pick and pick at it until it becomes a bleeding crater in my skin. After a day, or even several hours, it dries into a bloody scab. The moment I feel it, I pick at that too until it is nothing but a stinging, bleeding wound. Right now, there are about eight pretty bad spots on my face that have been there for weeks because I won't let them heal. Do I want them to heal? Words cannot even describe... I want them to go away. I want to stop. I am not satisfied until I pick until they bleed though... It doesn't look like i have acne anymore... It looks like I have some horrible form of chicken pox or the bubonic plague... It's horrible...
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December 10, 2012

Use savlon rapid healing cream. It is made to repair skin without allowing for scabs to be formed, and without such a heavy brown scar. It can be brought from chemists in London. X
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December 14, 2012

I have always picked my face over the years. It really got bad when my husband was told he had cancer. Now I am picking my arms ,legs any place I can find a bump. MY husband has been gone a year now and some of the marks that were there a year ago are still not healed. My son is so up set with me. He says he wants his pretty Mom back, He is always putting band aids on my face. My sister had me get on this web site, to see if there is any one that can give me advice.She also had me cut all my finger nails off and give her all my good picking tools. I just want to heal in my heart from the loss of my husband... and my skin.
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December 15, 2012

Look. Start small. Next to my computer I have a pad of paper. Every hour that passes where I don't pick, I get a tally mark. It seems impossibly small, but once it becomes normal for hours and hours to pass, soon they turn into days. Seeing a row of tallies all together makes me not want to mess up and pick. Remind yourself of all the reasons that you want this. Another trick to calm my nerves is cutting band-aids into smaller bits and putting aloe, vitamin E or neosporin over my spots and putting the band-aid on top. Then when I look in the mirror I see only the clear beautiful skin as the spots are hidden from view. It makes me calm down about my skin's condition.
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December 15, 2012

I started picking my face when I started to realize that I was gay (but wasn't ready to admit it to anyone, not even me). It became a way for me to excuse my anti-social behavior and I could tell myself that I didn't want to go to the bars with my friends to meet guys because I was self-conscious about my face, it was the perfect excuse as to why I didn't date--I convinced myself that everyone would find me hideous and I could put the dating issue on the back burner until my skin "got" better. I told myself that when my skin cleared I'd try to meet guys and eventually find one I liked. But I just kept picking and making it worse, and I never had to confront the fact that I had ZERO desire to meet and date guys. I'm so far past that (out and happy and dating the perfect girl!) and want so much to get past this time in my life! But now it's an addiction, I pick at it without realizing it and I can't look in the mirror without finding things to poke, pop, honestly my skin isn't bad at all, not oily, not acne prone, just dotted with lesions that I've made. But I'm committed to stopping. I'm giving myself permission to not go cold turkey because if I freak out over a laps I don't want to become discouraged. But I'm trying to stop my addiction to putting harsh products on my face (which doesn't need them!) and above all, touching my face with my fingers. phew! off we go.
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December 17, 2012

Derm appointment today. Want to see what she thinks about this scar and get advice from her on my issue about picking....wish me luck!!!! Also about these little break outs I have been getting - not picking them....but still not enjoying them!!!!
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December 31, 2012

Was doing well then caved into a stupid spot now left with a nice red swollen spot to ring in the new year....grrr. hate this
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January 07, 2013

I thought I was the only 1 in the world! I spend literally hours of the day searching my face for anythg tiny I see and make huge holes In my face :( sometimes il spend up ta four hours in the mirror picking my face till is one big mess! I tried covering up my mirrors and everything! And now I'm worried about all the big pores iv made if they will ever be able to be fixed or are they permant scars :(
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January 07, 2013

Face is a mess.....not big open wounds but uneven...huge pores and skin colored bumps...WTH are these? Nothing seems to make them go away.
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January 24, 2013

Hi. Exfoliating will lower them x
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January 08, 2013

Hi everyone, I was so glad to have found this forum, I have struggled with skin picking for years along with former self injurious behaviors and bipolar disorder, I've always thought that this wasn't a common issue and that it was just so weird that I didn't want to talk to anyone about it, not even my therapist. It's so comforting to find other people with the same issues. I know it's. problem and I know I need to deal with it, I just don't know how. I'm pretty sure that the picking is an extension of my bipolar and self mutilation. I've been able to not cut for months now but picking is so pervasive and sometimes so unconscious I'm incredibly frustrated. I've got all kinds of scars, but most can be hidden, not so much the holes in my face. As everyone else has said, any advice on successful solutions is appreciated, but moreover thanks for being here and being brutally honest. You're all an inspiration. Thanks for the push to admit things.
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February 01, 2013

I was doing so good but damn if this one little spot didnt knock me down. What is weird is that it was a liitle tiny white bump...i barley squeezed it and am now left with a nice dime sized purple...yes purple mark. i didnt even pick and skin off but it looks like I did. What the heck. I have never had a mark turn purple...red yes but not purple!!!
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May 30, 2013

Im sorry that sucks ive been there! That happened to me too, Is it ur chin? Well regardless i picked a tiny little spot and yep it turned purple and huge i feel ur pain i was so ,mad at myself. But of course i continued to pick at it and figured out all it was was blood under the skin. Now ive had 2 kinds of purple believe it or not. Worst thi ng ever. The one time it turned huge and purple right away, that was blood under my skin, if thats it dont pick it again it will look even worse. I know easy to say right? then ive tried to pop a tiny pimple and when i woke up the next day it was huge and purple, a little scabby. That i realized was bruising on the skin from trying to pop it so hard. Thats even worse it took forever to go away. Ive tried everything in the world for my skin and well it all comes down to me. I just acnt stop picking my face and il just turn one or two pimples into an entire face of scfound scabs, scars and bright red spots. Just horrible. Im on here now cuz i broke out btadly this week and of course i just had to pick and now well im sure you know the deal. Worst part, I found out yesterday my ex will be in town and wants to see me in a day! Im doing everything i can not to pick but i dont know what to do to clear up the red spots turning into scars, i look horrible! My new thought is everytime i start picking at my face im just gonna get on this site! Hopefully it will make me think about what im going to do n how embarassing it is to feel horrible about your face. I get to the point were i dont even want to leave my house. Im so grateful someone made this site cuz yoou really do feel alone and its to shameful to talk about. But wow its crazy how hard it is to stop picking and how i relate to everyone on here!
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February 02, 2013

So glad to have found this i am driving myself crazy with this!! i have struggled with acne since i was 11 (im now 28) and it ruins my life. I keep giving myself big bleeding holes in my face which won't heal because i just cannot leave my skin alone! every night before bed i tell myself i'll just wash my face & that will be it, but nope, i examine every inch of my skin & pick at it to remove any tiny bumps and i get spots which don't pop so then i start sticking pins in them & using nail clippers to try & get the core out! and as soon as they scab over i hate how they look raised so i scratch that off leaving a crater underneath. I subconsciously scratch and pick at my back all day making it bleed i just can't stop!! it doesn't help that these spots i get literally will not pop or go away until the core comes out, but the core takes about 3 weeks to come to the surface. once that is out they heal over really quick. but i just can't wait so i keep picking & scratching & i just end up really ruining my skin. i definitely do it more when i'm stressed or upset as well. I have not touched my face today apart from to wash it & do my make up and today will be day 1 of no picking. ergh.. for me it is not any form of self harm but just an obsession i need to make them go away!!! but i need to learn that this is not helping me at all. it's scarring me. i've asked my doc for a derm referral again, i had a 6 month course of roaccutane 4 years ago and it worked wonders but now the acne is coming back & although mild in comparison i'm not dealing with it very well & already feel like i don't want to leave the house or look people in the eyes etc. acne blows.
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February 02, 2013

Nail clippers... me too. I'm so sorry you have to go through this, be strong!
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February 04, 2013

I can't believe that there are so many others out there that suffer from this very problem of picking their skin. I am 40 and Will be 41 in April and have been doing this for prob about 12 yrs now. Im so ashamed of myself and can't leave the house sometimes due to the fact that i feel like everyone is looking at the wounds on my face. I Will never forget when i went to a new family Dr 2 yrs ago and they asked me how long i had been using meth. I had never used any drugs but i was so ashamed. I mess with my face for hours out of the day and hate myself for doing it. I have 3 boys, a grand son now and a boyfriend and Im so ashamed of myself for them. My oldest son got a scholarship into a private college to play football for them and my other 2 are in high school. I try to dodge anything they are affiliated with as i also do with my boyfriend.I feel like Im doing them an injustice if i let ppl see what kind of mother or girlfriend they have. I hate that i am this way and have seriously, in the past, even thought of breaking my user hand to manipulate myself but i figured i would find another way anyway. I relate so much to so many of you, especially the person with the username so embarrassed. I don't know of any help from this issue other than to "just stop" which many have probably heard so many times. Thank you for letting me share myself and my pain on here.
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February 04, 2013

I am 41 and really relate to everything you said. I have often wondered if people thought I was a meth user. And I have never done drugs either. Thank God for the cold weather so I can at least wear a hat to cover my forehead and a scarf to cover my neck and face and not look like a total freak when I leave the house. Other than necessary shopping I have been pretty well housebound for months. There are things I want to do but I keep putting them off, waiting for my skin to clear. I have started using high quality cleansers and products to help and have seen some improvement. I'm trying to change my diet too because I know processed foods and sugar only makes things worse. I am determined to figure this out and then help as many people as I can who suffer with this problem. For free.
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February 04, 2013

That's great. Im trying to do the commitment thing here in one of the forums and today is day one to post on there and my goal is to try to not look in the mirror and not touch my face. Well, needless to say, I've already been messing up with touching. I've only looked a couple of times but for the most part i haven't picked yet today.maybe i won't. Cross our fingers but my anxiety is so high. Thanks so much for replying to let me know someone is atleast listening. You can message me if you'd like. My email is kttttk6@gmail.com
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February 16, 2013

Hello all. This is my first time posting in a forum like this but boy do I Need help. I think the reason I pick is this intrinsic need to be perfect all the time. I never leave the house without my hair done, my makeup on etc. when I get a pump or something that feels anything but smooth I have this crazy Need to get everything out. I am incapable of popping a pimple like a normal person. I end up with huge massive scabs that I can't explain. Ill tell people I burned myself with a curlin iron, ill skip class because I can't have anyone see me. I'm 21, in my last year at college and have multiple roommates and I make sure I'm thirst on awake every morning because I don't want them to see my damaged fave without makeup. I go such long days because of my schedule that my biggest fear is that some of the makeup what's come off. Nighttime is almost a relief because I get to take it all off and cover it in creams and products that hide it. I need to stop. Today is day 1. Who has advice? I just want to be normal and not rush for coverup the moment my eyes open. Help! Also I have a huge scab on my cheek currently- should I put those advanced healing bandages on it even though it says for blisters??
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March 03, 2013

Hey there, I know this post was from awhile ago but I'm wondering how you are doing now? I can relate to every bit of your message, in such a similar way it's almost scary. Though I'm not an expert at this, I do know one thing - We care about our faces more than the people around us. I thought for the longest time everyone would know when I picked. And they did - But they noticed I was depressed and unhappy, but not the marks on my face. People who don't have this disease don't understand it because to them acne is acne - everyone gets it. To us it's more because it's self-inflicted. What I can say to you is put your own face first - not the looks you get back from others. You know that one week you don't pick and you feel great? Remember that, and never forget it. It's easy to be happy, we just have to let ourselves. If you want specific pieces of advice, here's what has worked for me: After each night, I wash off my make up and apply 3 layers of Calamine lotion to my face. This lotion is for rashes and wounds on the skin, which is really what a scab is. Too often we don't associate it with a wound. Then, I leave it on for an hour. Then, lotion and off to bed. But the next important step is to keep picking on your mind each day - Not in a negative light, but be aware of it. Be aware of your urges. I put band aides on my two pointer fingers each day, as a constant reminder of what I won't let my hands do. I really hope the best for you. Good luck.
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November 10, 2016

Hi there, just wondering if this forum is still active as I really need help and support.. If somebody could please reply It would be greatly appreciated❤️
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March 03, 2013

I do this to and it's awfull, I always go to school with massive red marks on my face and I can just feel people staring at my wounds. It's horrible but I have tried every singe cream alive and done everything i could possibly think of. This morning there was a tiny spot that even when I was popping it i know I shouldn't have. I now have a massive open wound that I hope I will never have to see again, I always try to cover it up with makeup, that sometimes works but I have to re perfect it almost every half an hour! I don't really know what to do but as I am typing this on my ipad, I have toothpaste on my spot and I have tried it before and it really brings ut the redness of the spots, for a while at least, I'm sorry but that's kinda all that I do and I haven't scarred.
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May 25, 2013

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November 10, 2016

Hi everyone, just wondering if this forum is still active as I really need help and support.. If somebody could please reply It would be greatly appreciated❤️
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November 11, 2016

Hi irishgirl16, Not sure this thread is so active but I do come on this forum frequently... No sure I can help but I can do my best.
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November 12, 2016

Oh man, I totally understand....yes, nail clippers are my favorite tool for picking...and yes... I've had huge holes in my face.... I now am suffering from angular cheilitis .... It's been there for two months ... And trying not to pick at it is nearly impossible.... Trying to cover it with make up is ALWAYS a nightmare... Because it just looks terrible either way, without make up it's a big red cracked mess, with make up it's a noticeable mess with the defined cracks that the make up won't adhere to.... I've been using and trying everything from athletes foot cream, advanced healing cortisone cream, triple anti biotic ointment, straight aloe from the plant, tea tree oil, virgin organic coconut oil, fresh lemon, peroxide, vitamin e and olive oil palmers lotion, palmers coco butter lotion, neem oil, eucalyptus oil, lavender oil.... You name it, I've bought it and have used it... Even the calamine lotion treatment..... NOTHING has gotten rid of it yet.... It has slightly helped.... But still remains in it's angry fury on my face.... I have been late to work many times just trying to cover it up successfully with make up... Only to feel defeated because it just looks horrible.... I'm embarrassed to go out into public and I get so frusterated that it brings me to tears... So many times I've wanted to call in to work so I wouldn't have to show my face, but I always have to go because there's nothing else I can do.... I admit all these products have helped, but angular chielitis is almost more frusterating than having that huge picked hole in your face.... I've had such a hard time dealing with my picking and skin conditions.... And my heart goes out to each and every one of you.... We all wish there was a quick fix healing remedy that will make it all go away.... But there is no over night miracle cure, or cream or oil or anything...... And it sucks.... The only thing we can do is treat the problem as best we can , try not to mess with it any more than we already have, conceal it as best as we can and hope that it heals sooner than later.... Easier said than done.... Believe me! I've found that tea tree oil, neem oil, organic virgin coconut oil and pure aloe have worked the best so far.... Calamine lotion treatment has also helped picked sores in the past also. Just keep applying and refrain from picking! That's the best advice I can give...

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