Hi think i need some help

Hi Marzy, My name is Michelle and I only joined here yesterday at about 5pm. I do that too!! I often hide in the bathroom and when my man goes out I go on a real bender. Two days ago I spent 7 hours on and off picking at my face and chest. You are certainly not alone, which I also found out. What do we do now? Well we are on the right road I think. I couldnt wait to get on here this morning to see what everyone is doing. I would normally sit in front of the TV and pick my little heart out. Then when my man gets up I hold my coffee cup up to my face so he cant see.!! Right at this moment I have 10 spots on my face. Four a just spots, four a healing pretty good and 2 are looking puss but I havent touched them. I have recently been using a white cream called FOBAN from my doc and its heals them well. And quite fast. I do thank the lord for makeup!! I do find that if I have my shower, immediately I will put on my Foban then moisturisier, all the while the mirror is fogged so I cannot see to pick. (I know where the zits are)!! then continue with clothes then makeup. Once the makeup is on I dont tend to pick at all until later in the afternoon, thats when the "feeling around" starts. I realise I tend to pick more when I know I do not have people coming around. No one to see me!!! I find, my fellow picker, that this website is helping me already. Just the fact that we are not alone is awesome. One moment at a time for me. I do have a holiday coming up in 17 days at my brothers and he is a hairdresser who works from home so I want to look human to his customers. The last time i visited him I did not pick at ALL for 11 days.....maybe because I know there are people around. Its all in my head I suppose. Im with you though mate. Keep posting. Big hugs to you. XXXX

I do that too! I even stay up really really late (until 4-5 am sometimes!) so I can pick without being nagged. Last night, I took some melatonin and went to bed early just so I wouldn't pick all night. Then I get up today, look in the mirror, my face looks great, and then I see a spot and start digging. Grrrrrrrrrrrr